saw devi play a show here. music is good as hell gals

u ever get after-images so strong when u close ur eyes it feels like u didn't close ur eyes

soyfacing at decrepit urban geography, buckets catching rainwater spillage, general soddeness it's just like the movies

don't suppose anyones goin to the girl's rituals show later/soon actually?

Reminder if you are not Turkish do not say jorking it

computer save me computer

do u ever just remain frozen until u convince urself after hours that free will exists?

thinking about picking up an easy low budget hobby, anyone know anything good to stare at, motionlessly?

happy wife day only to the wifeless

doing real bad. was already dysfunctional but it's worse being here. i need to get employed and stuff and not be sleeping on a couch at my dad's place asap but my capacity to exist and have agency is so diminished nothings kicking into gear at all

In this addendum to Phil Neel's recent article, two participants offer a balance sheet on anti-ICE struggles in the Twin Cities. illwill.com/proto-politi...

Powerful magic

being in this house again, feeling in my gut it's the same place it's always been but knowing, by way of the part of me nourished since i left 8yrs ago, how sickening it always was to be here, a home always in disrepair, that makes your skin crawl to remember

even now that there's nowhere for me to be but here nothing has changed emotionally about the urgency of fixing my life. it doesn't feel good at all but the part of me that should be willing to survive is just Numb

no matter what it needs to learn what it means to be desperate and to act appropriately

japan dropped the Make Everyone Transsexuals Party To Abolish Sex Party (?) the leader is a trans woman and the program is very ... unconventional ... because it's simultaneously opposed to self ID but advocates propagation of HRT and surgery and sex modification for all to abolish sex/gender. wild

watched:

when you do a blasphemy god is like do you hate me?? about it

im not one to bother poasting about jkr but it's melting my mind how much shorter the path from shit directly affecting my life and the life of people i know to directly conspiratorial transphobic politics is...

watched:

i should be worrying about many things more pressing than feeling lonely...

"Epstein is responsible for /pol/" is a true fact which also makes me feel completely insane :)))

sinkdog my hero

I did not know that did that to her after she goes bleh. that’s interesting

hello on june 6th i will be releasing the new machineplus album "eyelet". it's the story of Insect and its friends told in 13 parts. feat. bl00d, g0re, bodily fluids of all kind animal lesbians, police chases, absurd drug usage, multiple homicides, maladaptive yearning, an angel and psychosis

New article by Phil A. Neel examining the post-2020 political order, arguing that liberal myths about law, elections, and restraint function as counterinsurgency in an era of open state violence. illwill.com/lies

www.theguardian.com/commentisfre... liberal takes going beast mode as usual lately lmao even if the concept is delusional (their beloved governors will be the ones invoking force against the uprisings in the first place)

(re)watched:

remo drive

i should really wear an ffp3 mask when i clean up, dust allergy annihilates me every time like it's a flu

it seems to me that "camps for marginalized people rounded up without due process where people are dying because of negligence and abuse," vs "where people are dying as a matter of course," vs "where people are dying as a matter of policy" is a distinction without a difference

why the hell have i walked all the to maryhill jfc

to the tgirl shagging some dude in a public accessible bathroom first of all i had to wait for aaages >:( . secondly Dude was ugly as hell u can do better dear

walk into town just to feel like im doing something today. so many people (this city gets busier and busier these days) so many things And Yet it may as well be empty

in such a rotten headspace i feel like humanity is fucking evil

watched: (it's peam, another tsukamoto banger)

watched: (it's peam, another tsukamoto banger)

sleep paralysis isn't shit my so called "demon" doesn't even show its pitiful face anymore. nightmare WHO!?

plan today for this one: - pick up library books its been waiting on for months - advance the cause of Getting Its Shit Together - hang out later - try not to freak out about the impending misery of its current situation

www.youtube.com/watch?v=nS-q... music. pretty cool genre-blend, shoegazey noise pop, post-hardcore with screams and such

2 years is too long to have not been held

need to so a lil warmup project in Rust but i hate computers rn so i have no ideas. mayb fucking around with atproto stuff idk.

mass dekirkification

depressive brain fog hits different when u have to get ur life together expeditiously

the slightest wind feels like a raging storm unsettling all certainty, my life all too small being swept somewhere yet more unfamiliar

was kinda cute the other day maybe idk i feel attention seeking blehhh

ik it's really a bad string of luck and but if if i think back on my life the last handful of years it feels pretty damn brutal like only for a year or so was i actually something resembling happy and even that is marked with being sickly from the gut disease

starting to feel as though this not a very good period of time in the world

inverted sleep schedule feels extra fucky when ur crashing on a couch, the night feels distinctly evil here