4-MMC stands for 4-Many-Many-Consequences

God, I really dislike accidentally stumbling in on what she's doing and saying these days

Being reminded of when I used to have a buzz cut and it increased the likelihood of me being confused for a tboy by around 300%

Might fuck around an order £180's worth of cast iron direct from the US of A when I get paid

i fucked a beautiful Femme in my bed so hard last night that my dick is a little bit swollen today, as is my Leatherpresidential Duty™

if alexander skarsgard or harry melling make a surprise appearance at the leathermen/leatherdyke screening of Pillion tonight then I'm inviting them to the blood orgy afterparty

it's times like these that i lament the non-existence of grindr for dykes

Oh my god, dextroamphetamine works SO much better for me than ritalin, it's been so fucking long

...Seems like I'm getting horny about paramedic uniforms. Huh.

"leatherdyke imagery is fascist" so are you going to jack off or

Cowgirl Sexbang was phenomenal and emotional. The afters were the perfect way to touch back down from it.

Had some sales last night, getting real close to my first payout!!! #HintHint

nothing else hits like the very small sleepytime dose of GBL after staying up until 2am recording and editing videos of yourself in a series of different leather outfits talking about how cruising works. just another day in the leather sex pervert community organiser factory

rewatching Reefer Madness (2005) and remembering the song where the weed turns Kristen Bell into a horny dominatrix and brands "S" and "M" onto a guy's left and right buttcheeks and obviously feeling very normal about it

sending off my sweet Femme who I will not see until she gets back from Bangkok in mid-December, feeling forlorn, and a friend messages me asking if i want to go join her at the hotel her client paid for to do coke in the hot tub balcony, strongly considering

there is no more peaceful and content a feeling as listening to my Femme snoring in bed as I have my final bedtime dose of GBL and a cigarette after an evening of disgusting sloppy chemsex and deeply intimate emotional conversations

These chaps are fun to make outfits around

Oh - and this was right after I had my second (and final) psych approval for surgery - so I should now have everything I need to have surgery - we’re almost there! (Shameless plug for those who want to help gofund.me/68d137fd9)

Okay actually I just properly fixed my bike so that's sorted me for a fortnight

put up a shelf while listening to Stranger in the Alps, so that should give me about three days worth of gender euphoria to work with

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rubbing some of the really beefy 10% benzocaine orajel into a part-wisdom teeth, part-sex injury sore gum patch and remembering how much it makes you drool when you get it anywhere in your mouth

Good evening gay people

straight up ooky with it for halloween

got a new translucent latex bodysuit so my tattoos are visible through it:):) 🖤🩶🖤

one highlight from the evening; being punched in the face while there were needles in my cheekbones so they bled more when the needles came out you can see wounds on their knuckles where they were getting stabbed by the cheekbone needles with each blow, and a mixture of our blood on the wristband

sometimes the spookiest way you can spend Halloween is getting your whole hand inside a really hot boydyke after they punch the needles in your tits so hard they bend at a 45 degree angle

wish me luck gang, i'm still locked until the 4th and when i saw my girlfriend earlier and told her i'm going to a black metal gig with two of my hot dyke friends tonight, she fed me a cialis pill and sent me on my way 🫡🫡🫡

skinhead softboys in leather coats, glasses, and scarfs

it's Phoebe Bridgers time (it's been Phoebe Bridgers time for a long time)

i love my friends so much, i love being a drug champion transsexual, i love being a gay leather sex pervert

I think that's pretty good goings for the unexpected third day of the three day bender this weekend

I have more hounskull patches, a new sleepy knight print, and a silly limited edition version of CY_OPS issue one on my Ko-Fi shop 🩶🖤🩶 ko-fi.com/lettuce_exe/...

as i came up on my second dose at the club i realised i haven't posted a pic of me in my cage since i started Locktober, it'll have been three weeks tomorrow (i started late) and it has made me more feral, depraved, disgusting and violent in all directions

being a stimulant-riddled and anxiety-medicated dyke trying to speed-run a shopping quest means feeling confident and self-assured in your desire to kill every single member of the public for moving about 95% slower than your brain

had a wonderful time catching up with my Boy this evening before he heads off to Turkey for his top surgery 🥺🖤

i've been working hard to wrestle my mind and body into a regaining sense of routine, with an "even if it kills me" attitude. it turns out that it hasn't killed me and instead has, in fact, made me feel better!

It’s official – in a few weeks, I’ll be in Amsterdam competing for Mr. Leather Europe! I hope to bring my experience thus far to a wider stage and support kinksters and clubs across Europe with my knowledge and be the role model I looked up to, starting off on the scene.

i can't tell you how relieved i was just now to find out that i *can* piss in a bush if i need to while wearing a cock cage without it all just getting everywhere

I got the word rest tattooed mirrored on my throat:) 🖤 its mirrored so I can read it in the mirror and remember that I need rest:) 🩶 [this is the second tattoo ive got this week with the word rest in blackletter. maybe I should be resting instead of getting tattoos.] 🖤🩶🖤

god, beating people sexually is very emotionally intense, huh

It's Bloodplay Wednesday, boys (ft. @creature.gay)

Butch and Femme

that was me, I did that!

my silly crotch height mirror is so good for taking photos of my new tattoo:) 🩶🖤🩶

Sleeping through your alarms to miss therapy by an hour, then rescheduling therapy to another day very luckily, only to wake up early, and then accidentally fall asleep again such that you miss therapy by an hour a second time is... Well, I feel like a bit of a mess right now!

It only really occurred to me how so overwhelmingly less itchy I am than I've been in... Probably about six months? And it's made me feel really emotional (positive)

turns out 4-MMC makes my girlfriend Become Evil

save me, cumulative 450mg dose of 3-isobutyl GABA