feels like a mountain climb to move on and not cling to memories that will never come to pass again trying to be the best person you can be is so incredibly difficult and i still trip up alot, end up making choices im not happy of or proud to have done but i can only rise again to continue learning

Wrapped in warmth

Live by these fucking words in 2026. Be SPICY and lend a hand.

happy new year for everyone, i hope this year treats everyone well those who I've hurt, those who have hurt me, those I've loved, those who have loved me i wish for everyone to find their happiness in this coming year for all the struggles and pain you endure and overcome, reach your happiness soon

Dadbod Kiryu Ko-fi request for @gettothetop.bsky.social 👀💕 (Majima is gonna explode) #yakuza #龍が如く #桐真 #真桐 #kazumaji #fanart #BL #RGG #LikeADragon

hope everyone is having a good time including you

i wonder if they did what they did, knowing full well how i would feel. was it done maliciously or simply they didnt care and yet i feel sad we cant spend christmas together, i hope it stops hurting soon. Keeping the facade is hard

Saint Trina

Gonna be a long 4 years

its funny having my family be mostly left leaning but that one cousin that wants the right wing guy to become president end up getting mad and end up sitting in a corner alone like what did you expect when most of your family is women and the right wing guy is against womens rights (paraphrasing)

DONT WORRY! MEGA MAN DROPPING 2027! LISTEN ‼️

i like videogames i dont really care about who wins what award i just like games

been having trouble sleeping and it sucks cuz its not like i have the energy to keep doing stuff but also cant fall asleep either

i think that i mind the thoughts of thinking mindfully

Apollo will spend every waking second asking for food but as long as im asleep he will lie down close to me and wait until i wake up he knows if I'm faking it, he will get angy if i don't get up

NT my beloved.........

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学者 / Scholar #ELDENRING #NIGHTREIGN

Goodbye arm

You’ll Be OK

im having difficulty with separating my feelings on someone and things i used to do. when you share things like that they become intertwined with them and now that you have to let go, its hard to go back to those activities without hurting i hope i can manage in a timely manner

Visiting a cousin and she got a new baby he is so smol

im having trouble settling my own feelings. part of me wishes to forgive and forget while a very intense and scorching flame wants some sort of payback, eye for an eye but no, thats just hideous, and yet its very hard to keep it bottled up sorry its taken me so long to go back to normal

you should buy Y0 before this btw; the Director's Cut is a markedly worse experience and isn't even done BY the director of Y0

i shouldn't miss you but i do i shouldn't think of u but i do i want to move on but its hard to convince my brain to help out

apollo and iris were chasing each other and apollo jumped and landed on me balls pls send thoughts and prayers

doing things i used to enjoy now only bring recollections of those who left, or make me feel hollow inside its a long journey ahead

thought of a xylophone and got sad

a part of me was hoping that maybe if that someone reached out, i could've gone back to normalcy, even though logically im aware it would just keep on hurting now the chances of that are gone. i guess im just a replaceable cog in a machine, rusty and prone to breaking i feel cold during summer

it would be nice to know exactly where you did something wrong during your life, to know what road led you to strife and melancholy

good and evil, what we supposedly learn to differentiate as we grow, and yet i cant seem to shake the feeling that i will never truly understand whether i act in a good way or evil way. Try to never regret your choices, and yet sometimes, its inevitable

i hope it wasnt a mistake

doubt and unstillness start to set in, i hold myself steady as a consequence of my own actions

what matters is whats on the inside but whats inside is even more hideous than its shell, toxins and a putrid core surrounded by foul decayed flesh

What is this WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT HAS CUSTOM CUTSCENES youtu.be/B067u15o-O0?...

the day has arrived where some people i know are now celebrating them conceiving, instead of being mortified The sands of time are slipping through my fingers, and i have yet to stop sinking into them and being lost to the sand

an issue of my own making is seeing every sunday pass and me staying isolated still but trying to go back makes me feel nauseous, physically at the very least. i just hope that eventually i will be able to go back and not feel like im about to fall off a cliff. the brain is a fucked up organ

the need for socialization for me is like cooking food, sitting down to eat it but end up just staring at the plate and never actually eat cuz you got a stomachache when the moment to eat came

hope everyone has a happy halloween

iris just ran into my room from outside with a bird in her mouth, it was still alive. My room is full of feathers and both apollo and iris are in full hunter mode no metaphors nor anything this time just, nature i guess the bird got caught and we put it outside, who knows if it can fly still

i want to rush through it, fake my own thoughts and feelings, and pretend everything is going well, that nothing ever affects me and everything will go back as usual i don't think i can this time, not again

cats are wonderful. it's the reason i get up every day, to feed them, pet em, clean up, etc I wish that was enough to make everything better, but as long as I have them, i think I'll be safe

I've been working on fixing the river, as much as i want for water to run it has been dry for a while now, but finally today i got to get some drops out of my system

The mind is a wanderer undeterred by anything, even if it might drag the heart through the mud, hold fast because you cant stop it, you can distract it temporarily but when you're least prepared its wandering will begin yet again, through an adventure of roses and thorns

maybe it was a mistake, you shouldn't count the seconds, look and find what you fear, and yet you know the feeling wont stop unless you do something. Damned if you do, damned if you dont perhaps running away isnt a bad choice. Even if the work is left unfinished, you might be able to resume later

like swimming through mud, i cant see from where the light shines, desperately trying to find it before drowning however drowning never comes, you can continue to search at your own pace, but never stop searching don't give up and keep going i tell myself, with hopes of looking back once its over

shallow as it may be, i do wish everything could be solved by extending your hand and having others to pull you out of the spiral. and yet i recognize that hollow hope will end up dragging you down faster, without putting in your own effort. And sometimes, fear you might drag others down with you

faking your own self to make your current surroundings better, at the cost of slowly draining yourself and reaching a point where you don't know what is fake and what is your truth. a pain that lingers and aches, ever present within yourself. And yet you might find comfort in its familiar pain