i think one of my biggest fumbles as a writer was when i spent 44~ chapters of a 90 chapter fanfic coding an abuse dynamic without explicitly saying the word "abuse" and then releasing it to the realization that only one person in the entire world picked up on it

i don't know if it's just me getting older or more desensitized but either way my mental breakdown only lasted about 5 hours and the only major casualty of it was that i drank one red bull over my self-allotted cap for the day

does a little dolly dance through the pain

i realize that Trans Day of Remembrance made me feel melancholic is the startling realization that i'm probably *not* going to be remembered when, hypothetically, bluesky cracks wide open and 60% of us move to the next site moderated by somethingawful rejects with god complexes or when i die

i'm not saying critrole is to blame for everything but at the same time you could probably point at it as the seventh trumpet for a lot of awful modern day trends in art, fantasy art especially (and also roleplaying)

the secret to enjoying Backloggd is to edit out the front page entirely, follow a bunch of charming trans people who haven't been irony-poisoned and their grunglers, and then block anyone that even mildly annoys you congrats, the site is usable and you're immune to people who use it as socmed

in hindsight i should've at least put out a notice on sphenewife that it was gonna be nuked and to follow me here, oops

this post was sent me to me and i, unfortunately, have to say: Jehanne de Auberée.

wow it really is the beginning of GBF's own decade of humiliation huh

i can tell a XIV opinion qotd is going around when people start talking as though they're being watched by assassins and need to clarify everything with "IT'S JUST MY OPINION BTW BEE-TEE-DUBS YOU CAN LIKE WHAT YOU LIKE IT'S ALL SUBJECTIVE"

i love the idea of Jehanne getting wounded during a minor scuffle before HW starts and sleeping through the revolution, so she wakes up and the chirurgeon says "ah good morning. they dismantled the theocracy, kneecapped the inquisition, are building houses for the poor and we have a parliament now."

does a little dolly cartwheel while you're not looking

i'd be more open to the idea of discussing things online with people if the landscape for said discussions hadn't turned into "trying to prove why the person you disagree with is OBJECTIVELY wrong" while i wasn't looking

Last chance to get Warhammer: Vermintide 2 for free on Steam (offer ends at 10 AM PT) buff.ly/pjY24hk

Tuning my Snooshi-Theremin to a frequency that can recieve thoughts, but there's only static 😔 #SnowshiSunday

i emphatically reject the idea that Arc Raiders' use of AI voices is 'ethical' because an actor got paid because it relies on an unrealistic view of the world where VAs aren't underpaid, overworked and underappreciated.

i should call her.

Haam and Maah climbing into my bunny burrow just to hop and play, only to end up snoozing their night away because of how fluffy all the rabbits are...

a commenter asked me why everything has so much nauseating exposition these days and i unfortunately wrote too much.

good morning hamrades of the dollydoll nation

Haam and Maah riding along a lake in a little boat absolutely losing their SHIT the first time they see a duck with their own eyes

with Jehanne i'm focusing on more boring stuff compared to her predecessor in the sad melancholic mercenary with a concealed fury department (Ubi), so while she avoids scrapping with Temple Knights because she literally can't afford to be a fugitive in her main area of operation, she ALSO avoids-

Yoshon is enjoying the rare moments in the sun while calibrating the antenna 📡 #DailyYoshon

#LRP he's right lmao, it's why i find the reverence and fear of supplementary material to be equally embarrassing.

I don’t know if it only makes sense without the periphery stuff, but Nier has books, stage plays, etc. I once asked Taro about this and how are English fans supposed to keep up and he looked confused and asked “Why would you need to keep up? Who needs all of that?”

lately i've been missing having another discord server to be active in, but a dive into my 2020 screenshots folder for an old meme reminded me why that always goes poorly lmao

i know DT has had some content wonkiness in the postpatches but honestlyyyyyyyyyyyy i'm willing to give them the benefit of the doubt, because they're clearly working on a shoestring budget yet nonetheless trying to adjust the course of a ship whose wheel hasn't really been touched since HW

"ffxiv load bearing posts" yeah i see people's ffxiv characters taking big cums on on my tl every day there's a lot of them

Dawntrail Stormblood A Realm Reborn Heavensward Endwalker - - - - - - - - - Shadowbringers

i like being on Light most of the time until i suddenly get hit by the desire to play with my friends, who are overwhelmingly NA mains

Jehanne "i'm an atheist i don't do that religious guilt" de Auberéé is once again caught having a nightmare where Halone impales her through the chest in front of a jury comprising her friends, peers and business associates who're all jeering at her for an untold heresy

i'm not used to writing a cis woman character who suffers and is also the protagonist of her story. most of my tragic punching bags are trans women.

hardest decision ive ever had to fucking make in this game dude. fuck. shit.

a commenter asked me why everything has so much nauseating exposition these days and i unfortunately wrote too much.

i expect a lot of inevitable outcry towards whatever price the Steam Machine ends up having will come from people who have no idea how much decent GPUs cost these days, don't know that most consoles sell at a loss to get people into ecosystems, and that the SM is almost certainly going to be-

a lot of Jehanne's income is from giving tours to rich idiots visiting from outside Ishgard and this is, of EVERYTHING she has to do to scrounge up money, the thing she considers the most degrading.

Haam and Maah falling asleep on top of a big mushroom...

tiny! itty bitty! Haam!

*trying to explain dyspraxia to someone whose only engagement with other people is via critical role* my perception and dexterity scores are both 0 but 90% of things in the world require at least 2

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THANK YOU @mooncatenjoyer.bsky.social MY CHUM

YOU - Girl Child Revolution and Girl Child Communism! SHIVERS - BOY CHILD FREEDOM. BOY CHILD JUSTICE.

this is a crafter top but it fits Jehanne anyway since it looks like what someone would wear if they had to haphazardly stack layers to avoid freezing to death even in summer

after a year and a half of owning an FC house i only JUST decorated the exterior