a year ago today i shared her with you guys for the first time. never thought that a single moment of opening up could lead to a better life. thank you for knowing me.

familiar places

erin is moving!!! (i’m in this one) youtu.be/eXrbtImVR3Y?...

when i was a kid, my dad used to tell me about how my mom used to sing to me every night for the first three years of my life before she passed. she loved latin folk music. i wish i could remember the name of her favorite artist. i know my dad told me back then, but he’s been gone a while now, too.

one of my viewers sent me this. i am speechless. can’t stop looking at it, i look so cool. 🥲 shoutout to Moral for this piece! thank you so much.

i love introducing friends to other friends. glad you and griffin were able to connect, sis ❤️

the way even TSA wants to keep me and this fucker together

and one dayyyy i could see it

thanks for seeing me. #transdayofvisibility

bought a deck of cards in Arizona today. what’s a good card game i can bother my crashes with? don’t say poker please i am not good at that

thank you both 💙 with NYC rent approaching i will need all the ~wealth and success~ i can get from eeeeeveryyyy avenue 🥹

Gray, @redredhat.bsky.social and I celebrated the Spring Equinox like champions ❤️

still so many names in eva’s book i never got to. feels weird that i’m moving someplace more concrete. might make those people harder to meet up with. in any case: gotta start life sometime.

hope all my girls out there had a good international women’s day 😘

OMG thank you!

i will personally never understand, but thanks anyway. :)

saw a black cat yesterday, on my last night traversing the east coast for the week. can’t stop thinking about a version of my favorite movie where it was a black cat instead of an orange one. also reminds me that i would like to get a cat

saving money is hard. how do people do this?

❤️

i want another tattoo but i can’t afford it because i’m saving for my move in a few months. now that same post, but instead of “another tattoo,” it’s “avett brothers tickets”

haven’t seen a movie made after 2013 literally ever, what’s your immediate suggestion? things you think i would like only, please

“podcast unknown” interviewed me in december and just put it out. was definitely interesting? sorry i sound so nervous in it lol it was a weird month youtu.be/PqAjdWkz1A0?...

THE WORLD IN: stares youtu.be/pQUZyB0gpmQ?...

Evangeline wanted to share something with you all for the holidays; figured it’d be a good time to get some footage i’ve been collecting for the past year. should be done soon!

wait what is Culver’s i see it in the midwest a lot are they good

should have another video for you guys by New Year’s Eve; then, not really sure how long until my next one. might have other things to focus on, at least for some time.

just saw beck uploaded something for “the tutored eye”. this feels like ages ago & it was just a few weeks. i hope you’re doing better, beck. i wish there was more i could say. youtu.be/q3Xe9Oyp9sY?...

83 youtu.be/pr7_in5cIuA?...

okay.

new video should be out in a few days; back to organizing some crashes for this week and then possibly have one place for the rest of the year—might be doing the holidays with Evangeline and Patrycja!

Beautiful video, Carm! I just didn’t expect my sister to jump-scare me 😅

those that don’t see it youtu.be/wyRGtjnqHEE?...

the water is fine.

some people get really hung up about the fact that the ocean has only been like, 2% explored or whatever. idk. only question i ever had about looking into it is “what if the water is cold”

can you tell i was just recommended getting spotify this week? 😳

primum non nocere youtu.be/Kb4hqtR62jg?...

oh

it’s the one day a year i like to pretend she’s humming her songs to celebrate me instead of mock me.

ankles are shot. every step hurts. gonna find a place to sleep. she’s been off in the distance through my entire walk. it’s so confusing how she doesn’t move at all but always seems to be the same distance away. like a picture pasted across the eyes

utah. been walking it all night. hoping i’ll hit nevada by tomorrow without the need for a ride

asphalt, dirt roads, highways: paths to depart— never arrive. why does the heart leak bile, a bitter green, blanketing the trees in skyscrapers and streets? where is my red red peace?

If I read a book and it makes my whole body so cold no fire can ever warm me, I know that is poetry.

you all came so quickly just to watch me complain. i’m glad you’re here. truly. you’ve been the only consistent thing.