I keep waking up to the fucking train horn in the middle of the night

Historical Research & Writing is a HARD class, y'all.

I AM TWENTY ONE ✨️

I'm going to Rainforest Café for my 21st birthday and I'm gonna order a Cheetah Rita

I'm sharing this flashdrive footage with close friends while I decide how I want to go about disclosing these videos, and @ivysmemoirs.bsky.social has been a really big help on many levels. Thank you :)

So here's the thing. My next upload is most likely going to be the contents of the blue flashdrive I saved before a great gap in my memory around 14/15 years old. I had already downloaded those files from the drive, but a system crash of sorts (more on that later) has resulted in losing most of this

Damn it

he was a bad man, a real bad man

Whatever!

I dreamt I was a foxhound, & She was a hungry mistress. Leashed with lashes flashes of pink hot pain in my head, my heart, my stomach growling against its self-control. I sniffed for living meat under the blackest leaves

I dreamt I was riding a train. An empty husk. The Chesire Cat was there

New Big Brother season! Used to watch with David every year

Reading for the summer season (featuring my vaguely lesbian coded rug)

Still have some... Big shit I haven't shared anywhere yet. I'm honestly not ready to because as soon as this hits air, people will want more. I already know where I need to start looking next, but it's a lot. A lot.

Edited the last 4 months into a montage yesterday, then cut it in half because y'all already know I'm smoking a lot

I can't believe THUNDER WON while I was out of state

WE FOUND THE DAGGER! And more importantly, Raine is a friend youtu.be/Xh_rT39qS_s?...

OK, I can FINALLY tell you all what I have been up to since the end of the semester.

I just got a new pdf to put off reading. Who knew paranormal academia would be as hard to read as normal academia?

Napped through the day and dreamt of 8 rings around an emerald planet

Last night I dreamt of beams of light darting through a forest at night. They came on one by one, then by the dozen. Thousands of lights lit up the forest

Another solstice tomorrow. How can a season burn up so fast?

I'm keeping my cards close to my chest right now. Don't want to speak for the sake of my own voice. Trust I am working on it. And smoking of course. Why else would I be up at 1:30?

Seems I'm always coming out of a haze

Low hanging Strawberry Moon tonight and tomorrow. We've set crystals out to purify in the daylight and charge in the moonlight. There's a sort of ecology to the supernatural, I think

Trouble sleeping tonight. Got a feeling of something in the air, like the buzzing of cicadas.

Traces remain

heheheheh she is asleep on the couch 😈😈😈

My channel is now over a decade old. Glasses up, everyone.

Too many times have I doxxed myself for the good of science and community

4/21 hangover. 4/21 hangover.

Good cat!

That's right I'm pregaming 4/20 at 9:46 AM on 4/19

I' so fucking high I missed wake n bake #420

Video going up!

and one dayyyy i could see it

hey @ivysmemoirs.bsky.social do you have any uhhhh fucking mahgical frogs that can make me not a probably bipolar loser?

It's almost been a year since I last saw David before his transformation. I never asked him about it, but he said the memory was hazy even for him.

Duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

it hurts so much. every day. forcing myself to remember them. I get still get tired. I still feel guilty. It's not a linear process, and I know that I'm going to get better, and that my problems are behind me. But the memories are heavy

yeah yeah okay so let me be fucking honest

so what/? fuck you

Tired of being hungry all the time but nothing sounding good to eat. I guess I'm just Picky Like That but it IS annoying.