Like damn yeah dead to rights

Did that thing where i took too long getting ready for this evening that i ended up running late for my matinee and there are subway delays so now i have to be like “no it’s not worth it to see this movie for the first time w/o seeing the opening 30 minutes”. Femme problems amirite

One time this tomboyish younger woman i dated referred to me as being way more “rocker girl style” than her usual type. At the time, i was like “what is this bitch saying, she knows so little about leatherdykes or hard femmes” …but lowkey she nailed me with that. I am so rocker girl style😂

Two year anniversary of one of the worst days of my life in which my world was upended and i had to leave New York. Though my world is still not quite the end up i’d like it to be, i am back living in New York today. In less than a week, i will see Iggy Pop live. Reasons to live.

Probably the best headline of all time

“You guys got dat bootleg of Styx at tha gahden where tha mistah robotos malfunction and beat tha ever lovin crap out of Deyoung? Haha yeah, my cousin Jerry, he shot dat. No credits or nothin’ though cause he ain’t union”

"Oh, now we're talkin'. Laserdiscs! Best format evah, look at this. I love when a movie can take a guy's head off. Whadda we got here, SEX, LIES AND VIDEOTAPE? How have I never heard'a dat one? That's comin' home with papa heh heh. Hey, uh, you guys got DEEP THROAT? That's historical, right?"

Shoutout to the twink i met at the Yukio Mishima event last night who was unsure whether Mishima was a fascist. He definitely was, girl.

What fassbinder should i see next, considering?

I may live in New York but i am a born and raised Los Angeleno and I will defend the Red Hot Chili Peppers with my dying breath

Watching Rock And Roll Hall Of Fame Inductions to make myself cry. Flea just gave one of the most beautiful speeches i ever heard

she is chinese but she could be named fatima

Trent Reznor and his many filipino children

I give my life, not for honor, but for you

BRIGHT FUTURE (2002): on its face, a gritty melodrama about some disaffected, disturbed young men. but then its actually about what if a supervillain was working on experimental bioweapon and his henchman completed his work after his death and also befriended the villain’ lonely dad

Now Watching

The horrors persist and yet so does the lust

Huey Emmerich in Metal Gear Solid V is a glorious piece of character writing in a serial, if only because you learn Otacon’s dad is so heinous a dude you recall the story of his melodramatic death in MGS2 and decide “yeah he deserved to drown himself after getting half-oedipused”

Metal Gear Solid 2’s proposed main conflict really is so funny: the last president has become a doctor octopus samurai and has kidnapped the current president with terrorists have names like Fat Man and Vamp.

Moral of every mainline Metal Gear game MG: kill yr dad MG2: kill yr dad again MGS1: kill yr brother (yr gay side) MGS2: kill yr stepdad MGS3: kill yr mom/lover MGS4: YOU ARE GONNA DIE MGS5 GZ: what’s in a womb will ruin your life MGSV TPP: oh, i am my dad Idk enough about Peace Walker…

Metal Gear Solid is really the most Sirkian video game series of all time…but i guess i haven’t finished Death Stranding 2 yet…but that series really reminds me more of Bergman

Hideo Kojima, you would love Douglas Sirk’s 1956 film Written On The Wind, Though something tells me you’ve already seen it

Was hideo kojima ever told he was infertile?

annoying how many songs i’d unquestionably describe as lifesaving to me (in sound & words) come from JRPGs, especially since i’m so drawn to reference tattoos. Like, if i dont watch it, I’m gonna end up looking like if Max Cady was really into Final Fantasy instead of the bible

Drakengard fans today:

Though i’ve invariably become known as our day’s leading Margaret Qualley denier (as well as the only queer/female cineaste brave enough to say “who cares” after seeing DRIVEAWAY DOLLS), I found myself surprised to enjoy both her performance in HONEY DON’T and the film itself!

Huh…lotta thematic and structural similarities between the main character narratives of MYSTERIOUS SKIN and METAL GEAR SOLID V: THE PHANTOM PAIN…you could easily swap the former’s title with the latter’s subtitle and neither would want for much

when yr crew small but all y'all crazy

I love the formulaic setup for every THE CROW film. Its always grisly double murders on heterosexual couples where the guy is grungey and the woman is a perfect angel done by completely amoral gangs backed by a shadowy Machiavellian pervert boss. Like yeah, thats crime, baby

Wow what a cool guy. I wonder what he wants

i love when my non-video game playing friends walk in on me watching cutscene movies of games i've played before and I get to try and explain what everyone's deal is and why the fuck anything is happening how it is. In this instance, it was Metal Gear Solid 2: Sons of Liberty.

Well

In France, they refer to orgasming with the phrase “la petit mort” or “the little death. The etymology seems to be derived from the fact that the act of nutting generally kills most people’s commitment to ageplay.

M*A*S*H really is a masterpiece of comedic filmmaking. It just happens to not be very funny, in part, because it happens to be kinda violently woman-hating. But that fact is kinda funny because Robert Altman is like a great director of women’s roles and women’s films!

So I am skipping Folsom Street Fair this year. Last year’s Folsom revived my will to live at my darkest moment but it also led to revelations that detrimentally impacted my whole perspective on leather family and trust generally. Sorry yall, have fun, im seeing iggy pop instead.

If yr out in Brooklyn and see someone who looks pretty much like me but with big blonde hair, no makeup and sunglasses, that isnt me. That is Liquid Chingy in the guise of Kazuhira Miller. She is not to be trusted

Can’t stop reciting the scene from the 1952 film adaptation of Oscar Wilde’s THE IMPORTANCE OF BEING EARNEST, but as if it were a Metal Gear codec conversation because it has the exact same call-and-response rhythm. like, David Hayter *is* Lady Bracknell. Michael Redgrave *is* John “Jack” Worthing

Having my second debilitating pain day since getting back. Hate when it’s so bad you can barely think of or enjoy anything other than not feeling if. Could use words or thoughts or ideas that are nice or lovely or funny, respectively

One has to wonder how japanese actors feels about Hideo Kojima’s tendencies when it comes to casting choices

Having a really bad chronic pain day but this is about to make it all tolerable

I genuinely believe that if i got my older sister to watch Twin Peaks to completion she would stop being a trump supporter

Really leaning into being the cool wasian older sister to my whiter younger siblings like hey bitch you ever seen Nana or Kamikaze Girls or Chungking Express.

Cletamine

Hanging with my little sister and her dog, who i cant stop referring to as my niece

Exhibit no. 2 of Dale in agony being inherently funny.

finally saw SATURDAY NIGHT and feel like i'm a crazy person for thinking it's like a pretty good and fine film. Like maybe the best case scenario for making a film about that subject?

Back in new york in a soft bed watching steve coogan and rob brydon do voices over pasta

lost both my headphones and my earbuds somehow and have to spend the day in two planes and three different airports 🫩

Tomorrow: BACK IN NEW YORK CITY