I’m getting tired of the constant profound exhaustion.

The days seem to keep getting harder, guess we have to keep getting stronger..

I don’t want to win, but I do want to share my very talented friend’s work.

“Your hair makes your head look like a giant penis” - my loving wife… She really knows how to make a gal feel good.

For the first time ever, my hair is long enough to put into a mini ponytail!!!!! I mean it doesn’t look good but I have never done this before and it made me super euphoric for a little bit.

I’m out to my brother!!!!!!!!

I almost came out to my brother today. I chickened out. I am not out IRL. He would have been the second of my IRL people I would be out to. I suddenly thought that it would be terribly selfish to give him this secret that he now also has to keep… so I bailed. Wish I was still oblivious myself.

Want to buy me dinner? My Patreon and Subscribestar are now live! There is a poll running to let me know what kind of things you all want to see there! www.patreon.com/cw/Volgon subscribestar.adult/volgon

Just like that, I have fursuit goals.

It's Rabbit Season!🐇 Introducing the RoverRabbit, out now on Jinxxy and Gumroad! Face tracking, a number of clothing options available day one, jackalope antlers and ears that follow your ear tracking. Try the RoverRabbit out for free in my showroom world linked below. Enjoy! #VRChat #vrchatavatar

My super cool friend @empyreal26.bsky.social drew me!

Me: we are saving money Family: ok Family: let’s go see a movie Me: ok Movie: Avatar 3 in IMAX 3D for 4 people + snacks and drinks Wallet: cries

Bacon Sausage Pizza!

office persona

Wonders why I am soo damn eepy. Looks at data… oh

I find this applies to much of life.

Peopling can be hard, you fuck up, you hurt people, you try to change and grow but sometimes you still fuck up. I fail often, both myself and others, but I’ll always try not to fail in the same way twice. Long and short of it is, I suck but I don’t want to suck. I’m broken but I don’t want to be

I have a very festive dashboard right now.

Commissioned the incredibly talented @empyreal26.bsky.social for some art. They crushed it!!! Love it so much!!

I sometimes wish I was as good a person as I think I am or want to be. There are so many things I still haven’t gotten over, I should be able to get over these things. Should be able to let go. I will pretend to be the person I want to be until I am. Put on a smile, keep being kind. Suck it up.

These walls that kept me safe

MFF was my first Con of any kind. It was also the first time I got to meet so many of my friends and turned those digital friendships into tangible physical ones. If that wasn’t enough, I got gender affirmation IRL for the first time since my egg cracked. 💜 It was an amazing experience all around.

If you're like me and against predatory FOMO practices that VRChat is trying with the Winter consumable items (explicitly the snow shooter item), then try to make your voice heard here: feedback.vrchat.com/creator-econ...

november personal painting [ #art #weirdfur ]

MFF was euphoric. Turns out completely unmasking in public around people you love and trust is incredibly freeing.

Fly out to Chicago tomorrow. There are so many conflicting feelings and emotions around this trip. I really wish it was all positive. It’s like my insides are at war. Excitement and terror and guilt and elation, it is a whirlwind. Expect/hope once there Joy will be the dominant feel.

I'm holding a raffle to hand out 10 free keys for my new avatar base, the Legato! 🔹You can enter the raffle by reposting and following!🔹 Winners will be announced on release day, November 21st. #VRChat #Furry

The day isn’t over but I am hopeful that I can make it. For almost 3 weeks I have cried every single day. I am consistently experiencing chest crushing anxiety or emotionally spiraling out of control. So far I am tear free and I haven’t spiraled. Today I’m numb as hell but I’ll take it.

Thinking about this panel a lot lately. Wish I could CTRL-Z an entire year & live in blissful ignorance. The highs weren’t as high but the lows weren’t as low. Just living in fear and confusion all the time. I’m not out. Add the complexities of everything else and I just wish the fog would lift.

RSD is such a horrid bitch. If I could remove an acronym it would probably be highest on my list.

It is crazy that the excitement of 8 days ago could disappear so easily.

If there was any doubt… elder millennials still party hard!

I have to start working out more, especially my arms. I am going to MFF and I need the strength to hug so many people in person for the first time!

Trans is Beautiful #Trans #TransRights

BLUESKY GIVEAWAY: - 1 Bigscreen Beyond 2e: @vrchat.com Edition (no 10 years of VRC+, sorry). As long as Bigscreen can ship to you, you're eligible. RULES: - must be following me on Bluesky - must RT this post you must be comfortable with me ordering it for you!

I... never would have expected GOG to do a big porn giveaway to protest censorship, but hey, it's high profile enough to bring the site to its knees so CLEARLY it's spreading awareness.

If you have a smartwatch with the green light, thank Spottacus. It’s incalculable how many lives his work has saved- so many people who otherwise wouldn’t have gotten help without alerts from his system. What a legacy. www.pcmag.com/news/your-sm...

After 100 days without her… she is back. I cried on my drive to work this morning. I missed her so fucking much!

New Ashbeast sticker base pack!! May make more in the future :) if you have an Ashbeast sona you should treat urself to some cheap stickers hehe #furryart #furrybase #furrystickers #ashbeast #furryvrchat #vrchatfurry #dragonfurry

I have been without my car for 92 days. The withdrawal symptoms are getting worse. I miss my V8.

Maybe on Monday my Mustang might be repaired. But we are on the 4th or possibly 5th bad axle assembly replacement. Go figure used axles out of S197 V8 Mustangs might be a bit beat. I mean mine sploded spectacularly.

I am / they are so close, yet so impossibly far away.

My first pride month as a member is in the books. I accidentally came out to people before I was ready, my life flipped upside down, I withdrew suffered and came back from the brink. Pretty sure I am doing this right so far. Looking forward to next year, might even attend a parade! 🏳️‍⚧️

I keep forgetting to record an updated video of this, so here's a video of the WIP version of the starmap I made for #Furality Somna which also has the schedule on it. It's just a fun little personal project I made specifically for my Furality avatar. #VRChat

First pride month that I celebrate not as an ally but as a member of the community. Took me 41 years to realize some things. It has been and continues to be an interesting journey.

NEW COMIC: Next Gen

Missing you a lot today. 17 years putting a smile on my face. I have become dependent. I am going through withdrawal. I often joke that life is too short to drive boring cars, but it isn’t a joke for me. I’m less happy without my car. It is a source of a lot of joy for me.