the feeling of sparkly excitement one day before Asia trip ✨

if you take calls in a coffee shop without headphones you’re literally insane

I really connected w a stranger this wk, and she gently noted that she felt I was guarded and intermittently seemed sad.. It really touched me bc I felt vulnerably seen, and I didn’t realize these emotions were clearly visible she said, it’s great to see you, please be sad if you want ❤️

unfortunately the new katseye song is starting to grow on me

I saw this on IG: “you met me at a very Chinese time in my life” I have no idea what this means but I can oddly relate and yes this is true for me too rn haha I’m more asian than ever before (somehow)

stepping out of ceramics hiatus to be a part of this soon!! my little guys are in the kiln rn tho so pray 4 them… cutting it close w the firing schedule as always

impulse bought tix to see wet w a new friend! one of my fav songs is “it’s all in vain” And I can't feel you when you're kissing me and telling me That all my fears are in my head / And you don't hear me when I Tell you that it's all or nothing, baby please / Let go of me ughhhh

in the last year my life has changed in ways I didn’t think possible, everything was different. my brain *changed* too — trauma will do that to you. but I’m grateful for the pain, not *how* it happened but that it did — I am a better and happier person today. happy one year from the other side ❤️

do not offend me by asking me to work on spec like loll are your brains intact?? I can’t believe ppl still do this in 2025 (it always be a big brand too)

my ideal party is one in which you can take cozy cat naps (plural) and in fact be congratulated by multiple ppl for doing so

having crushes this year makes me simultaneously giddy, excited, and want to throw up and chuck my phone straight into the ocean (I haven’t crushed in a really really long time! it’s fascinating to me how crushes can feel light hearted and deeply vulnerable in like the same week)

one way my brain *feels* different in my 30s vs 20s is how we process external stresses just *feels* like less rumination and spiraling, more awareness of “oh u know I think I’m a lil chemically imbalanced rn” and I can’t explain how, it just *feels* like it grew and rooted somewhere more stable

you ever have days where you’re like “the adhd energy is strong today” 😅

klimt’s kiss

the new ariana release is for the sadgirls in 2024 who are in their 2025 healing era now 🥹💕

lately I’ve been loving talking to ppl about how they stay resilient and with conviction in the face of uncertainty I think to believe in yourself (in ways big and small) and also not feel shame over struggling (in ways big and small) shows self acceptance. it’s honestly so inspiring.

what I learned: make the call, send the text, even if time has passed, reach out, tell your friends you love them, apologize for past wrongs, finish unfinished business, resolve unresolved hurts, let them know you’re all good, show your softness, show you care

things that I liked recently - curling up in the backseat of Vicki’s car listening to them yapping w Alice y - eating cut fruit w Jen - watching “the room” over Chinese take out w j - laying in the soft grass at Alamo watching the planes go by and thinking about the past 5 cm per sec

I used to feel anxiety around sharing deeper feelings (ie vulnerability). but I’ve now learned that if you’re sharing with a worthy (safe + caring) partner, the discomfort is actually a delicious thing, like bringing your inner truth to the sunlight. a little wince bc it’s bright, but mostly warmth

when I was dating in my 20s, I’d be evaluating it like: “ok, is it person A, B, or C?” *pick person and enter 1-4 yrs relationship* strange that it’s taken me to my 30s to see the true choice is “A, B, C, or secret option D: it’s actually none of them and I spend my peace w myself”

to be seen and accepted is truly a wonderful feeling

candid dating hot take: I find it super unattractive when ppl are glued to their phones when there’s a break in the convo (eg one person goes to the restroom). counterpoint is it’s attractive when someone is *not* on their phone I think it shows an ability to be present / not addicted to devices

living w my sister has been great. I’ll just be working intently / doing my thing as usual and suddenly a delicious snack will appear in front of me!! (this is ‘the rebel within’ from craftsman + wolves yumm)

it seems like everything is working out lately ~ conquering long held fears / stories ~ reconciling with past hurts / ppl I thought I’d never talk to again ~ more opportunities for the art I like ~ the hardest part of mochi’s recovery past ~ “the poets leave hell / and again behold the stars”

my friend and I are planning a “dumplings around the world” party but my secret goal is to make it an event to invite all my single friends to bc I feel like I have so many amazing single friends, and the best dating app is your friends 🥟

RE: single’s inferno ~ ok i think my favorite character so far is the soldier turned muralist (one of us! one of us!)

I really have really loved speaking and teaching this past year… bc it’s really magical to see the change in someone when they can carve out just an hour or two to draw, sculpt, be with their own creativity and let it shine thru

The great tragedy of being incredibly sleep deprived / near exhaustion is that I cannot for the life of me watch Single’s Inferno. I can’t follow reading the subtitles and this show deserves to be appreciated for all its subtleties. I can’t wait to be able to watch it in a week 😭

I love tea. hee hee hee!

That feeling of struggling thru a piece and then you finally break thru on day 4 — is glorious. Like solving a visual and emotional math problem. I love drawing and I love art

It’s so foggy around the bay today! In SF, Daly City, and then Mountain View was warm and humid. It smelled nice like flowers after a rainstorm. The flowery humidity really reminded me of being back in Hangzhou. Also damn I drove a lot today 🥲

presenting, in collaboration with the inimitable @jayackley.bsky.social, a five minute folk musical documentary, about the time Idaho Fish and Game parachuted 76 beavers out of a plane. www.youtube.com/watch?v=adDE...

I just finished painting a big piece and I felt 0 stress about it (other than a bit of the “gotta finish this on time” feeling, but none of the “wow i suck!” anxiety). I don’t think I’ve EVER experienced that. I think that’s a great development. So glad it only took me 10 years.

for my birthday I turned my house into a cafe! my friends @sailorhg.com and Iliana made tea-flavored cakes and I got boba and pastries (and bao’s). and my favorite part was everyone migrated to the living room and hung out around my eggy coffee table 🥲🍳 it was such cozy winter bday vibes

The ritual of sitting down to draw, then taking five min to fully scour ur table to look for ur tablet pen only to realize it was under the iPad all along

there needs to be some study done on the phenomenon of going into daiso thinking you’re going to buy a $1.50 thing and coming out somehow with $40 worth of knick knacks

One of my favorite moments is cradling Mochi’s head in my arms at around 1 PM everyday and asking: “do you wanna go for a .. *walk*?” and watching her instantly perk up

I’m debating if I wanna stay here or try Threads. I would really love a text based form of social media again. I already have my IG audience ported over on Threads, which is useful. But, I do like how anon Blue Sky feels. (Like tweeting in 2008 from the hs journalism room - it’s just friends only)

Often I see my dog as not a dog but rather a little funny buddy who I can talk to, reason with etc. Typically this holds up as I really do think we communicate well. Until I’ll find her chewing some random thing in the backyard and I’m like “o yea, you do also have the instincts of a giant squirrel”

la dee dee da! trying this out ~ it would be so fun to have an early days twitter again. hi! hullo! I think the inflection point of where Twitter became Not Fun for me was before the sale; it was in ~2018 where I started using it to post work / for my career. this shall just be a place for fun ❤️