Fred, I've followed Megatokyo for something around 25 years, you could go back to drawing like you did back then and I'd still have hope for you. I don't know if it'll help but I believe in you... even if I was one of the people who suggested you not to give up on the architect career.

I guess I was able to get some vibe going here. That's good. Maybe there is hope for me yet.

I have thoroughly reworked my work area over the past few weeks as my of my art avoidance neurosis and it's in much better shape now than it was. Sounds better, too. Cleaned up a lot of cable mess.

Oh, great, now I have a new genre to root around for - Signalwave. vhfvapor.substack.com/p/riding-wit...

Sometimes you stumble across an artist that is exactly what you feel like listening to (bought the whole collection)... ct57.bandcamp.com/album/millbr...

One thing that really happened this time was I stopped drawing. I've been struggling to actually get it going again, but maybe with things going a not cancer direction now I can stop being so bottled up...

On Friday we got the results of the Bronchial Probe biopsy Sarah had on Thursday: looks like the mass in her left lung is NOT cancer, her lymph node chain presented no cancer cells, and in short, it's looking like her long term cancer has NOT resurfaced and she'll be OK. I can stop being a mess now.

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Megatokyo webcomic artwork - Crowds Gone, Night Over fredrin.artstation.com/projects/OoE... megatokyo.com #webcomics #manga

add megatokyo guy to the old furry lore

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All went good. Got her home now :)

Settling to take it easy a few hrs as I sit here waiting for Sarah's couple of Sarah's procedure today. Hopefully, I will get the biopsy material they need to see where her cancer is at. Nerve wracking, but we're on this.

Potentially this violates contracts on projects, making Adobe dangerous to use if you're trying to make a living.

I am so glad my son is graduated from high school and out of the education system now. I grieve for all the young people who's lives and futures will be damaged by this monster.

"Good evening students, today you're gonna learn about Denpa Music."

12 hours into my workday and I've decidedly started to give no fucks and am cranking Ado tunes. #ado

and YES I SHOULD HAVE BEEN DRAWING. it's an ADHD thing, ok? can't get yourself to give up on a problem once you dig into it WHICH IS WHY I HAVEN'T TRIED TO DEAL WITH IT FOR SEVEN MONTHS. ADHD people will understand. It's WHY we avoid doing things. We know we can't stop if don't go well.

learned a lot, cleaned up a lot, got things working really nice everywhere else, but still no dropbox. it's anoying to have to use the windows interface, but for now it will have to do. Working mostly at my desk these days anyways.

Well, i spent most of last night and a good chunk of today trying to fix a problem ive had with Dropbox for six or seven months now. After diving into this computer and really cleaning things up, it still wont get to the point it actually connects to my account, and sits on 'starting...'.

I should mention that that is the first drawing I've been able to do in 4 weeks. I think I managed to FINALLY overcome my post-traumatic Drawing Paralysis Disorder (PTDPD) :)

Yes, i've been drawing girls with baggy-ass sweaters since the late 80s.

Also having the cheek hair flow into a mullet was... sure a choice. Hahaha. XD

Looking at that art, yeah, I can see an alternate universe where Megatokyo is a furry webcomic

Also, you know how there is always this thing about using acid free paper? Yes, there are reasons. This is a ink drawing i did from 1986, and look at how bad this has got over the years. (I scanned this today. It's been getting really dark over the last few years :(

let it sink in: AI is ruining cats on the internet. is God dead?

I'm spending way too much time relaxing with friends online today:

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By far, this is my favorite picture of Jack and Me. August 2009, traveling circus came to town. It was surreal. It was like 98°F in that tent...

Trying to find some old photos, there are some fun old ones in the mass of photos i have. This is from around 2009 i think:

Now i'm upgrading to windows 11...

And as part of all that effort to draw something... i switched from Google Chrome to Firefox. Which I've been meaning to do. But the drawing avoidance is STRONG today.

I've been sitting here at my desk for several hours, trying to draw SOMETHING, anything, and the ADHD pro that I am has been working overtime to avoid it (going so far as to cleaning the cat box). Post Trauma Creative Paralysis (PTCP) is real, and never fun.

I have to admit, with all this... I feel like a pot of petunias.

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Megatokyo webcomic artwork - Pirogoeth - Books That Don't Bite fredrin.artstation.com/projects/w6P... megatokyo.com #webcomics #manga

I mean, i was getting so dark and bleak that i think i should try to channel some of that if i can find it into some arts. Might give that Backrooms guy a run for his money : )

I'll be posting and drawing and doing some stuff today as i try to get myself back up to speed with things. Thanks for your patience and stuff.

Sarah has been home a few days, everything is going well, she is quite stable, sleeping ok, very tired, medications and care going ok. After I got her home and things settled down, *I* became a dark, hopeless mess. Not uncommon for me after traumatic stuff. It's taken a few days, but im better now.

People like Kane and many many others that do care about human art and the creative process have been a beacon of hope while trying to navigate making art in this current climate.

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For some reason, i feel like @mikemignola.bsky.social is going to write and illustrate the next chapter of all of our lives. (though I really would like to see Hellboy fighting Screwworms bred by mad AI tech bro nazis)

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