this happens on every single social platform, and seemingly more on the more "progessive" ones [white ppl] *<praises social media platform>* [poc] yes, however *brings awareness of racist behaviours* [white ppl] you hate queer and disabled people

Happy #BlackHistoryMonth ! Feb 15: Neighborhood watch. Why do Black people get so sensitive when you ask them if they live in this building, or if they live in this neighborhood? And unrelated, why does the US really have so many guns? What are they for? Read this entire thread.

our digestive system has been messed up for the past month and a half. i just want our body to be back to normal :(

i'm sure this narrative will get erased*, just like every other thing to do with racism against black folks doing cool shit for their community * multiple narratives i have been observing

still have huge issues with endwalker and just how, idk, a lot of stuff is casually brushed off

CW: negative outlook a combination of the state of our life (mental, living situation, lack of local community, uncertain continuity & future) + the state of the world has been honestly making it difficult to move forward in a consistent and sustainable manner. &

like we could disappear for weeks and outside of professional/work stuff, we might get absolutely zero outreach from anyone. this is the norm today and i imagine it is sadly the case for many who don't already have routine regulars

the only way this would work is if it were hosted by someone external with curiosity about what we have to say. like not even deep curiosity. we get activation energy from ppl reaching out and starting conversation. it's a rarity today and in many ways our fault given how we isolate

this is a good thing btw! idk where it has come from but roses this year seemingly have been increasing confidence in expressing things that were difficult to us before. so if there is a time to start doing these things, it's now

a fire within me has been lit and it is extremely difficult to NOT just want to dive into a conversation u care about but alas life commitments call my lesson learned is roses need to be talking more proactively about what we care about, so that we practice & don't get flustered in these moments,

anyway yeah, idk. but i do appreciate the people who make the effort to call us by our individual names. some don't even bother. despite using our plural proxies on discord with them. some i suppose can be excused, bc some don't call people by name to their face to begin with

sometimes i wonder if its worth being out plural like this, if there is even any point to it, in this kind of world we live in. the huge amount of friction it is to live true to yourself when "yourself" is so far from the visible norm and the norm that the world is predominantly designed around

i would love it if people/companies stopped using "AI" to buzzword brand things that have nothing to do w/genAI & LLMs. for what might be small scale ML, or hell even just simple algorithms. i hate even more that "AI" itself has become poison term, but that's how it is. capitalising on this just,

you will probably see a shift in how we run main soon. the roses are kinda changing things up on how we want to be online. tho we are going to consult a few folks about it- (from a social responsibility pov. not a social media engagement one. that's not why we're here)

anyway, i have find that much of the ppl i followed back on fedi are on blacksky now. our fedi instance has been very broken lately. with everyone too burnt out to deal with it. apparently val wants to look into it. but it really is refreshing to see these ppl on the tl again

the most interesting writing i come across that actually take into account deep, intersectional, multi disciplinary, historical factors, real experiences, that don't even need to be said, u can just sense it,

i'm frustrated. frustrated bc white ppl just react. and they react only when it affects them. and thus they jump into things and know nothing about their established history beyond what only white ppl have said, unable to accept that entire realities have been cleansed/erased, bc it's too much-

i miss cohost, and the fediverse. it was far easier to write long form like that, and continue to iterate on it and refine it, even after going from draft to published state. and there wasn't the same scary sense of permanence. no room for any of that here

eh, too raw for social media. i will screencap, and delete thread, and throw into our diary obsidian and see if i can't reason about this mess better. i think i've at least gotten closer to what i'm trying to express. but its still a mess and not quite there

as if it isn't painfully obvious that a certain demographic group tends to be the one behind Dawntrail and Stormblood hate

ugh i hate doing this. i just want to delete everything now. but i'll leave it up just so you can see just how truly insufferable i am

rosemade.art/@glimmer/sta... i know we paste links to our fedi posts here. and i know people generally don't even bother clicking fedi links just by the fact it's a fedi post! but consider that ruby worked her ass off redesigning these pages so they *don't* look blatantly fedi—

in other news i successfully integrated our lovense toys into my godot game. direct bluetooth. wayyyyy less latency than the lovense connect app

i still see tech people constantly shit on spreadsheets. the fact remains that they're a very approachable freeform way of collecting/organising data, general purpose, structured or unstructured, easy to iterate on. becoming a "power user" and discovering things like VLOOKUPs is also not far away

i get the sense people will hate me for expressing my opinions. but whatever

ok yeah, being back on there, i feel more at home on fediverse with unlimited char limit again. and pillbug (cohost-esque inspired client), though quite buggy and rough around the edges, seems nice enough to use.

i think i got rather annoyed at people being harassed off the platform by the community, accused ableist for being even a little critical, blanket told "well why don't YOU make a website then", when often waas coming from a place of wanting to improve or help find ways to set it up for success

i have too many issues with cohost to feel comfortable wearing the "i was on cohost" badge on my bio, or our bio on main. but do ppl generally look at it as a kind of badge of social trust? (which idk how i feel about either)

i think we can expect that age assurance shit to occur for all of australia very soon

Search engines will soon be forced to check your age. According to new polling, about half of Australians have no idea this new regulation is coming.

i definitely need to spend less time here

utterly and painfully american

also our feed is painfully american centric rn. need to work on changing that. starting life in a new city is one thing. starting life in another country a whole other thing

i should probably like, provide some context as to what we are reposting (on main). but hopefully federation / decentralisation catches on enough here that ppl will reconsider the idea of AP/fedi in the future

i very much dislike kneejerk unsubstantiated panic that is likely to lead to hopelessness, that's very common on social media. we need to direct our strength, anger, emotion to where it counts, and we need to take time to figure out where that is and coordinate. feel free to disagree with me

Visa and Mastercard reportedly coming for FAIRIES and CAT EARS Get on the phone and ask them wtf is up because this even made me double take bsky.app/profile/dark...

continuing the gen AI rant here bc i dont wanna keep harping abt it on main w/o anything valuable to add. heard somewhere that even though AI=genAI isn't "accurate", people insist on keeping to "AI" anyway bc this is how AI tech bros / companies are framing it and we have to "play their game"

so much of social media is full of "conversations" where each person is trying to double down hard on what they believe so everything gives off the vibe of a heated debate instead of ppl actually having a discussion. it's tiring tbh. it's a relief when you come across a rare actual conversation.

read this last night and felt deeply moved. (h/t @indirect.io) it’s from 2013 but feels so relevant now. my main takeaway: our culture frames contributing to the economy as the ultimate moral good. but what’s really valuable is taking care of each other davidgraeber.org/articles/a-p...

i will keep being annoying and and keep RTing the same important information

The best summary of why the US stuck in a moralistic payment processing hellscape has of course been written by one of our furry comrades.

This is a great on the murky details of payment processing, and why one cannot simply "make their own payment processor" - as long as Visa, Mastercard, etc exist, you will likely have to deal with their BS regardless. Which is why it's important to keep up the pressure on them all until they relent!

but what do i know. perhaps i just need to stay off of social media. i think something is wrong with me

i honestly do wish ppl were more interested in learning a lil more about the systems they were fighting instead of just putting all effort directly into yelling. yelling is important, but also knowledge is power?

i don't particularly like being angry on the internet. i will do better

lrt- lots of good insight about the payments industry. (we worked in fintech for a bit as well) also touches on why high risk payment processors like CCBill etc. aren't super viable which was something i was curious about

"I'm gonna dump all my pent up angst and infodump material into a blog post about Itch/payment processing" I say to myself. It ends up like a million words, oops. but well, I got it out of my brain: voidfox.com/blog/payment...

"it is a privilege to live by your principles" is something i needed to hear, that someone had said to us recently. life isn't a moral binary. you can't judge a decision at face value, and by that token you're leaving any potential nuance at the door.