Ok chat this is for something very important What was meant to be nice stable housing with my partners has turned into an emotionally abusive mess for me and @zyna-morixia.bsky.social We need 1.5k by the end of January to get out of here Please 🥺🐶👉👈 Linktr.ee/Mireaze #MA #MutualAid #Housing 💸💕

Im gonna be moving out i dont care any more! This home became too expensive

Sitting in van at work trying not to have a breakdown

Overwhelmed with thoughts. Do people really love me or are they just saying that to get close as part of a plan to hurt me. What is their end goal do they want me dead? Are they just Sadistic and think emotionally breaking people is fun? Why claim to love us yet subject us to this torture??

Just been woken up by the cutest puppy @mireaze.bsky.social because puppy was having a bad time. And as a result got to give puppy lots of cuddles and kisses. I love puppy so much

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Hopefully the worst of my meds change is over, still not ok but didnt want to kill myself this morning

Woke up this morning not wanting to be alive any more. I hate this

Apparently antidepressants make this feeling worse

@mireaze.bsky.social has been writing on me again an this time she wrote a lie

Apparently antidepressants make me seem more autistic because apparently I cant mask as well while on them.........I didnt even know i was masking

Depression honestly has me really missing the person who I felt safest in my relationship with. The person who helped me love again after the end of a 17 year long relationship. The person who convinced me to be myself when I was largely in the closet. Miss you so much Izzy

Think i might have teased my GF ( @mireaze.bsky.social ) a bit too hard given she put that kick indicator on me

Got to snuggle the cutest little puppy ( @mireaze.bsky.social ) shes so cute even her yips when you tell her to speak

Honestly, I'm starting to think I would have had a better life if I had died in July 2023 rather than @lilyuki.bsky.social, ending her own planned attempt to stop mine. I definately would have been hurt less. Even if i would have missed out on some good too.

puppy forgot underwear, oopps

Anyone actually willing to snuff me out there in the UK ???

my favorite part of sex is the part where i'm struggling against the hand clamped around my throat but getting weaker

@mireaze.bsky.social is losing at magic to a goblin deck when she should be goblin deez nuts

When I get her a cage ill have to do this somehow to @mireaze.bsky.social

Given dreamies for breakfast this day is off to a very good start

Due to the actions of an ex, our brain honestly interprets the words "I love you" or "love you" as a threat, as if someone told me "I'm going to hurt you"

Im not sure how much longer I can go on like this. Just like @mireaze.bsky.social is am not strong. I am struggling with my own issues and I need to get them out. I am constantly scared of being alone, I am not truthfully able to keep going without someone to keep me in check.

In bed fighting the urge to cut open my flesh to try and leave this life while crying.

Kinda struggling with mixed feelings about an ex who emotionally abused me in the past, one that I have been back in contact with due to therapy. Can anyone offer some advice to help keep me from spiralling The feelings are: Trust, distrust, love, hate, comfort, pain, affection and fear

Oops

Yay scared to leave my room because for some reason a girlfriend is angry

Happy birthday to the 2.2 year old wiggles AKA @lillyvalihollow.bsky.social

Enyone else ever feel regret for surviving their attempts?

Really missing her today

So I might have pissed on my GFs bed while pamped

Out for dinner padded is a fun experience

Updated jewelry

Trying wearing abdl diapers again, realised I greatly prefer the fewling of cloth diapers over the disposable ones

@mireaze.bsky.social high and drunk is super cute

Failed loctober due to a metal detector on a site I was working at FFS

And @mireaze.bsky.social has wrapped my key in tape so I has it for emergencies but also can't use it

Locktober Day 1 IT BEGINS

This kitty might be in Heat

I live in a permenant state of loneliness and hopelessness, being given brief glimpse of hope and connection only to realise that they were never intended for me. I keep trying to find real connection and hope for the future

Well guess i didnt delete all my Bsky accounts, time to start again