never in a million years did i think id ever get triggered by old photos of myself

im so triggered rn im right where i started again and im panicking its like i cant breathe i wanna go on a run anf throw my guts up but my sister is over kmskmkmskmskmskmsomsomsksms

if I was a bug would you help me up if I was on my back a haiku by me (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)

i ate such a big brunch today i fear eating anything else

i think if you guys saw me i would be booed off of here im such a fraud

Gonna hit bedrock 😋

how am i struggling to lose the same 10 FUCKING POUNDS FOR 2 YEARS

"you look healthy"

all i can think about is food and im not even that hungry what the fuck

lost my keycard to get into the gym i might ###################

im so fucking stressed but whats worse is im still fat and stressed

im craving beef barbacoa so fucking bad

wtf i turn 20 in 3 months but i swear ive only been conscious for a year max

im so tired but i still have a lot of shit i gotta write/do for school 😭

i crashed out over my weight last night and now i have scratches and bruises everywhere 🫩

"im craving a sweet treat" DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE

GUESS WHO JUST GOT DIAGNOSED WITH AUTISM

if me 1 year ago saw my weigh he would beat me to a pulp

working out again tomorrow its gonna happen trust

forcing myself to go slow when eatin̈g is so hard my default is vacuŭm

me when i take naked photos of myself and then see the photos in my camera roll

i forgot there was fanfic for some of the fandoms im in holy shit im so happy

im so fucking large actually kill me

i love being indirectly guilted for "ignoring" someone because i didnt look at my phone for 2 hours... like if im ignoring you i will tell you saying ts is just manipulative

i feel so out of it time is moving so fast but im moving so slow

i slept through my first 2 classes wtf

im like actually a fat monster i do not belong here

that "i have to be out the door in like a minute !" panic but its 30 mins before i have to leave (to get there early btw)

new eedee rule !!! if i eat i die !!!

it took me going through the entire m1dnight g0sp3l soundtrack but i finally found the song i was searching for (only took me 3 years to actually look)

i think i just took the hit of bittersweet nostalgia and grieving what once was

ive been eating so much i shouldnt be struggling to fast

im going to make them worry

the way my partners friends seem to care more about my ramblings than he does

ate too much today... again....

i just wanted someone who would be there for me like i was for them, is that too much to ask ?

i think theyd pay more attention if i was thinner

i feel too old for this fym im turning 20 this year and still fighting the same addiction ive had since i was 13

r3lapsed again maybe im a lost cause

having to tell everyone im still alive after they couldnt give less of a shit yesterday when i was reaching out to

im genuinlt abut to relapse

art assignment more like im gonna fucking ### ###### ## ###### #### # #### ## ##### ###### ### #### #### ‼️‼️‼️

if you really think about it, we're all miku recolors.....

bleeehh sorry for being so venty recently i swear im still a silly goose

i cant help but feel like everything would finally be better id have clarity again if i just rel@psed

does anyone else hear that ominous bell tolling or is it just me 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

im running out of time it feels like im running out of time

who am i even staying sober for ? they dont care, and im definitely not doing it for myself

slept through my first class and im skipping my next one i dont fucking care anymore