これも今年描いたお気に入りのやつ(拝見時空)

Day 2 of my lithium dose being cut from 450 to 300 mg per day: Wow, what a fucking difference. It's like someone flicked a switch and turned on my ability to be a thinking, emotionally normal, creature. I was legitimately more depressed and anxious ON lithium.

Merry holiday everyone. Drink coffee with hot chocolate, and marshmallows. And eat something tasty like sliced avocado and cheese and sweet cherry tomatoes with minced garlic and olive oil wrapped in prosciutto... What.....? 👀

Perhaps, one day, I'll see the sun through the clouds again. I'll look up at the sky and see blue. I'll hear the rustle of leaves. Smell the rain. Taste a fresh tomato. Perhaps, one day, I'll see everything as it used to be but through more deserving eyes that had become lost in the fog.

Dr has taken me off lithium (have to wean off for 2wk). Letting me stay on buspirone and gabapentin instead.

If it's not one thing, it's another. All nighter of vertigo. I'm finally off the tilt-a-whirl ride but still feeling the effects. I'd rather be asleep, tbh.

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These two together always brighten up my days. I'm always happy to see them in my inbox ;_; Thank you, again, Person! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I miss drawing ;_;

Had to clamber over a barbed wire fence, rip my coat and trespass to get a photo of this folkloric monster pretending half-successfully to be a tree. I have no regrets.

Husband bought a nice little shoe rack shelf for my nook. Now it's not a complete chaotic mess in here! Fits my meds, my laptop, my meds,my meds, and a Kleenex box. I forgot meds, so I'll add meds, too.

我痛苦的生活是谁害到的？ #shanks #onepiece #art

Fern in a YCH I did a few years ago! #Art

Happy old year

Me: tentatively talks to people. People: talks to me. Me: emotional crisis, engage! (anxiety warps from 5 to 20)

Playing deep house and upped my bass to try and fucking vibrate this shitty anxiety and depression out of me. It's helping somewhat.

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I can easily see how an immortal deity would completely lose all track of sanity if they suffered from, at minimum, hundreds of years worth of depression and anxiety like this.

Definitely going to let my doctor know, on 24th, I want to stop lithium & try something else or stick to my mix of buspirone & gabapentin (as needed). Lithium isn't helping. I'm actively getting worse & so severely anxious that I don't eat or get out of bed, all I want is to cry. Constantly.

We have a heatwave going on so the kids are outside playing. As they should. It's damn near 40°f. Hell yeah, short sleeve shirt weather.

"Well you can tell by the way I use my walk I'm a tardigrade, no time to talk Don't care if it's cold or if it's warm I've been immortal since I was born Now it's alright, it's okay If they irradiate me all day Because it can help to understand My weird proteins' effects on man"

Man. Trying to sleep with a cat that radiates heat like a smelting furnace plastered to my side is rather impossible.

Boy howdy, -27f (feels like) tomorrow. Neat.

Wasn't yesterday like...2019 or something.

"My favorite past time is, apparently, crying for no reason."

YCH commission for @starcastic.bsky.social

Decided to keep my Tala'Nynn Patreon posts as subscriber only for a while. If you're interested, I only have two tiers, $1 tip jar and $3. Easy tiers, but I will be open and say I have difficulty keeping up with things due to my health (which right now is pretty damn rough).

Congee with sardines, poached eggs, garlic, kale, crushed chili sauce, and more (a lot more)

Hmm. I miss my dad. Wish we lived closer.

Whatever sleep is, I'd like some of it. It's been 30 hours.

Orcas: "Hear me out... What if yachts, /but bigger/?"

Part of me wants to imagine what went through the mind of the person who sat in the dirt with a stick and some rocks, suddenly figuring out how time passed during the day.

I'm worried my shakes won't improve, in fact they seem to be slowly worsening. And I find it concerning. This has been an issue before I began the lithium, so I'm sure it isn't that.

My God I did these teeny tiny pieces so long ago. Even I don't remember!! I'm sorry it disappeared over the years, but I'm happy you still love it ❤️

Doc wanted me to try the 300mg 2xd again with lithium. If it gets unbearable a second time, she said I can try something else. It's going to, as before, make me a human slug and I know it.

IT IS DONE I was tasked to make the highest tier of picture but with focus on scale rendering, so I opted for a full handwork. Was it worth it? I hope 🥹 I am now free from scale-prison and can finish all the other works, sorry for delays AAAAA #dragon #art #bronzedragon #fantasyart #furryart #dnd

January 10th!!! So excited!

Beauregard nomming on his piece of cat food. Orthoporus ornatus

Accidentally forgot to get my anxiety meds refilled. I'm out. Today is not a good day.

I find it incredibly fascinating that I have been a moderator for nearly 20 years. Websites, forums, discord servers. That's a long time. But I've learned a lot, and I've met some really cool people, ended up with some awesome experiences. Can't complain!

The English language is infuriating.

I can tell I am acclimating to the weather up here when I go outside in nothing but a short sleeved shirt, thin pj pants, and sandals in 20 degree(f) weather as if it were any normal ass 50 degree(f) day.

Tried sketching yesterday. It was pretty wild to experience myself as a living breathing seismograph.

I overworked myself yesterday, physically overexerted. I'm very shaky, very weighted by exhaustion, would rather be sleeping. Husband woke up sick this morning.

Migraine round two. For those unaware, my migraines shift sides. For example, this week it started on the right, lasted 2 days. I generally get 1-2 day break before it shifts to the other side, so it's now on the left. About every 2-3 weeks like clockwork, each side 2-3 days. I hate it.

A dragon but also a fancy glitter baton.

Migraine was so bad overnight that even in my fits of sleep I had a migraine and was shaking. Fun stuff. I'm still shaking, too exhausted to function, just want actual rest.

Cool Butter Friend

Yep. Migraine time.