Happy 2-year anniversary to when @nedaula.bsky.social lost a 5-sub bet to Joe in Fortnite! www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pbqr... @looking4alicia.bsky.social @watchgirlsplay.bsky.social

Can I keep everyone alive with only 2 episodes left? Directive 8020 time! www.twitch.tv/nedaula

HEYOOOO! let's start our saturday with some ff7 rebirth! www.twitch.tv/nedaula

Alrighty.... let's see how many people die. Directive 8020 time. www.twitch.tv/nedaula

Surprise! My reaction to the first two episodes of Ghost in the Shell SAC is live!!!! www.youtube.com/watch?v=pnjJ...

pfp we cooked up last night on stream for @nedaula.bsky.social we went full shojo-protag with the "glamour-roki" shot from mha as inspo. I think it turned out pretty great 🥰 [ #jkdotexeart | #jenakaydotexe | #humanart | #noai | #commission ]

I wish I was better at being a content creator snd being able to collab with people.

Jumping back into ff7 rebirth! www.twitch.tv/nedaula

Relistened to Epic the morning and to me the song that is stuck in my mind thr most is no longer you... its a banger among bangers.

Help support the homie this weekend @cwolfpilot

Are we gonna actually finish God of War today? www.twitch.tv/nedaula

Finally finished My Hero Academia. Im going to need 5 to 10 business days to recover.

Oh look the Kings aren't playing the Oilers in round 1 for a change... and its the Aves...

How about an RE1 rando, maybe Banner Saga 2 and some Clone hero for today's agenda? www.twitch.tv/nedaula

I haven't gotten around to watching new scrubs but I just saw a spoiler that has me just as fucked up and the Brendan Fraser episode.

I'm not wrong for loving you.

how about some ff7 rebirth? www.twitch.tv/nedaula

how about some re3 rando for now www.twitch.tv/nedaula

Rewatching FMA brothood and remembering that there are a handful of episodes that fucking hurt to see again and why its my favorite and why i cant watch it again.

Orc Murder Sim | Shadows of Mordor www.twitch.tv/nedaula

how about a little guitar. twitch.tv/nedaula

As much as I want to say Im going to PAX west like i said I would I think I have to say because of my depression and my inability to make it to work consistently i have to say CONS this year are just off the table. Im working on myself and will get to the point i can make it.

We Ballin for a minute then some Guitar Laterr twitch.tv/nedaula

Fucking done caring or trying. Too much dumb shit and No energy left to deal with it.

Episode 7 of my Mighty Nien Reaction goes live Friday on YT at 5pm EST!! The Penultimate Episode for a great series.

14 months of hair growth.

Watching people play Grace in RE9 in 1st person makes me glad I didn't. I prefer the view of RE games in 3rd maybe just cause og fixed cameras but I connected with Grace more than I did Ethan cause I could see who I was at all times and really felt I got to know the character.

Playing hooky from work tomorrow to play RE9 at noon EST.

Why do I just want to walk away and stop trying to be better?

Let's breed some cats! Mewgenics time! Twitch.tv/nedaula

What's this? A reaction episode to Mighty Nien Episode 6 tomorrow at 6pm EST? youtu.be/00RGfsihqJI

I feel like I should apologize to anyone who interacted with me in any way the last few months. I was not in a great spot mentally and boy did I let that effect everything in my life.

Imma be real and blunt the last time I was this down, out and broken I tried to take me own life... I won't ever try again. I'm a survivor, I'm a fighter and I'll achieve my goals. I need to step back and take a moment to grow, refocus and grow but I will not quit.

I had a great day but the emptiness and isolation creep back in. Im fighting this but fuck it's hard.

With all kindness and respect can I not fall in love with lesbians who will have absolutely 0 interest in me. Like let's not objectify them and waste both our time and energies.

Wait photos from 2016.... I have a few

You know im not one but out of everyone on the planet I'd love to hang with @bbnomula.bsky.social

I don't know if I wanna keep grinding away at this.

Man, I want to get into song/writing/covers/music production and its so daunting trying to figure out what software to use cause like if you pick a free option down the road youll have to relearn everything on the paid options and the paid options are expensive af and probs should start with those.

I'm, just. Tired... I don't know what to do anymore, what changes to make. What I want to work toward. I'm just tired and nothing feels exciting, nothing is drawing me toward it and its such a weird awful new feeling.

Suzume is an easy 9.5/10. Loved the story/premise. Wonderful art and animation kept me intrigued and guessing on where it was going. It had some really good emotional moments but I feel like I enjoyed Your Name more as the emotional investment I had was higher in your Name.

I wouldn't rule it out. But this would also require me to have more irl friends.

ngl.link/nedaula.ben why not ama

Goodbye, I'm done trying.

Im not feeling welcome in the places I felt were my happy places.

I'm not doing well. Life has hit me really fucking hard this last month. I'm going dark for the week and just disconnecting. I'll be back. I'm not quitting, I just need a moment to piece myself back together.

4pm est we dropping episode 4 of my mighty nein reaction! www.youtube.com/watch?v=y1ba...

You know what's lovely... Someone trying and failing to steal my car again but leaving it undriveable.

If I had to describe my particular brand of struggle rn it's the i feel like wasted effort, distinct from wasting effort.