Sleepy bud.

I don't think I can aptly describe the years I spent and adventures I had following this band. What a fun time. I miss it.

*Gigglesnort.*

First time firing a therapist instead of things just happening to end things. Needed to happen. I should've trusted my instincts after the second visit, but I kept trying to make it work knowing it can sometimes take me a minute to feel things out.

Absolute badass!

“art is a powerful form of resistance–especially when the artist is willing to speak out against enablers of a violent regime by eclipsing the sound of police sirens with the blaring lament of a bagpipe.” He’s figured out how to attach a respirator to the pipes so he can play despite tear gas!

Proof I'm autistic: My first thought seeing this meme was, "That's a bull.'

I may or may not be returning to social media, but I couldn't let this go unnoticed. You see this shit everywhere from people who think they're hot shit because they won a couple of first place ribbons at the local Highland Games. What a choad.

Dad passed two years ago today. Feels like no time at all, but also a lifetime ago. It's been a rough couple of years.

Therapists. So therapisty. Trying to remain open minded and give the new guy the benefit of doubt, but I hate it when I can spot patterns and such so easily. Makes everything seem so inauthentic and a little patronizing/condescending.

The number of trashy white folks I've seen in DC wearing American flag T-shirts is not zero. And there are 12 National Guardsfolk... Right as you get off the metro. God bless America..

Walking that autistic tightrope trying to communicate with medical providers about symptoms. Say too much, docs think you're lying or overreacting, say too little, docs think you're fine. Have to give just the right amount of breadcrumbs for them to believe you and want to help solve the problem.

New project(s?) in the planning! Much excite!

Maybe I'll write a book instead... Title it: "Death By 1000 Paper Cuts, and Some Machete Chops Too: A Crisis Timeline"

The autistic urge to write a complete comprehensive timeline of the last 2-3 years to give context to a potential new therapist that will explain why I am non-functioning currently.

Progress. Potential new therapist found! Hoping it works out to be a decent fit.

I think I may be allergic to something in the Costco Pumpkin Cheesecake. I have a perplex! Allspice allergy? Is that a thing? I feel like I've had that before though. At any rate! A couple of bites and my mouth was THROBBING and hurty/itchy/burny and yikes.

Aw it's been a year (when these pics were taken) since this guy had his matted fur shorn! He's doing so well today.

A little over a year ago Pretty Saro played on Scottish Smallpipes. Chanter is in the key of A.

I don't have the energy for meltdowns anymore. Only shutdowns for me from here on out!

From about a year ago! Rage and absurdity. Not much has changed.

Might try to post some vids here maybe again... Need to get some motivation to play pipes again!

Ich brauche etwas besser als Duolingo für Deutsche lernen. Meine Grammatik ist nicht perfekt und Duolingo ist schlecht beim Lehren.

Day 1 being back on Vyvanse and Wellbutrin. Took both around noon and now, at nearly 4pm, at most I haven't napped longer than 30 minutes. Win I guess? Might get up and shower soon. That's a big commitment though.

Thank God for screenshots and reverse image search, otherwise I might have to actually learn what these icons are on my phone.

The Duolingo icon is still crying at me even though I got my dumb little 7 day streak going again... Probably wants me to feed it money or watch stupid ads to fuel its AI hunger, which uh... No. Keep crying, you dumb green Eule.

More of the baby.

Old man slumbers.

Why no pettings? Please more pets!

Autistic and suicidal. Just thoughts, no actions - safe and all that. The world gets increasingly more difficult to bear, however. Now, I'm going to take some acetaminophen for this migraine. Autism powers, engage!

This is merely a thought bubble, but... I feel like humanity started slipping when we started outsourcing our memory to the internet. Now we're outsourcing our thinking to AI. It only has the potential to get worse.

I got to play with an adorable sheltie puppy today. 🥰🥰🥰

Indecision Saturday. "Yes, I would like to go be amongst people today. Let's get up and go!" "Second thought, this bed sure is comfy." "Yes, but there's fun to be had!" "Sleep is fun. Cat cuddles are fun." "It's a nice day out, let's go outside!" "But I have to get up and shower first..."

What color is the smoke coming out of the White House chimney? Is it orange?

If he dies this weekend (assuming he's not already dead..) I might just have hope enough to start getting my own shit sorted at home... Might be just the boost I need.

Refresh. Refresh. Refresh. Refresh.

Old man tabby cat zoomies are hilarious. The normally slow and creaky old man cat suddenly turns into a blur of brown and gray, and his normally non-functioning vocal chords let out the tiniest little croaky roar.

I get this comment quite a bit and I'd really like to talk about my Autistic masking experience in today's video.

Which fast food restaurant chain has the best sweet tea 'cause it sure isn't TacoBell. They're too busy in bed with the Mountain Dews...

He's draped over my arm under that blanket.

Left belly: total trap, no touchy unless you want bites and blades! Right belly: not a trap, will accept pets. May lick.

Had a good time just existing and playing music with people. Need more of that.

I don't know who needs to hear this, housing isn't an "investment," it's a basic human right and necessity. It's immoral to gatekeep basic human necessities to enrich yourself.

I will forever have dried Churu on my jeans.

Lickies.

This little brat sleeping cozily after causing a tussle with the other old man kitty in the house..

Favorite horror flicks that don't rely on cheap jump scares? I HATE jump scares...

"If you don't have a house you will be arrested." Okay, how do I get a house? "Oh, you can't. They're incredibly expensive, no one can afford them anymore." So what will I be arrested for again? "Not having one." Is there any, like, help to be had with this contradiction? "STOP RESISTING"

The problem with reading books on an app in your phone is everyone thinks you're just "on your phone"... I mean, technically yes? But would you also interrupt someone if they had a book in their hands?