1 of the things I’m looking at doing to help w/ being so amazingly fucked again financially (cost of living even bare bones while mom is still out of work means I am spinning again) is getting rid of my website which feels like the final nail in the coffin for my art after selling my camera in ‘24

Glad I had a full on ugly cry anxiety attack today at work. Everything’s great. All great. Totally not overwhelmed by life at all

Ok well whatever I did I corrected and the swelling is significantly down. Overslept (for work; I am still running on no sleep for the past few week) but still got to work on time and parked right as I train horn popped off. Y’all I need a break

Thought my raynaud’s was having a moment earlier then looked down before my shower and what in the actual fuck did I do to myself? It’s perplexing me. Part of the sensation came back when I pulled the joint back into place but like what the hell

Came into this sweet message from Melissa. Fucking lucky to have her as my work partner

Riley on beg mode last night

This whole album has me tossed back to middle/high school years

Post walk rolls

Bits & pieces

Bits of Riley today

And to think that this is what finally caused me to snap today

Oh. Apparently it’s not just uti. It’s also an allergic reaction because someone accidentally bought scented toilet paper and yeah that seems right

I feel bad that I haven’t been able to walk Riley today (it’s a really nice day) thanks to a uti & fucked up tooth combo. I haven’t even had a chance to try calling to see surgery costs etc for her because I’m already spiraled money wise & know it’ll fully tip me over. Not a good dog mom right now

Just a bop for those who need it I know I do right now shit is rough so fuck it we dance

Ending every business email now with "AND FUCK YOU IF YOU WILL NOT DO THIS."

A few nights ago

Melissa got me a Prince of Orange today because she knew I had wanted one and saw it on her lunch. Rinsed and put in new soil and am very excited for this bb

Almost overslept because I had the best snuggle buddy ever Who ordered the snow this morning cause I just drove through a white out around the lake. Should have kept sleeping with the comfy pup

Bits of green on a day that started with snow. Finally felt ballsy enough to try and prop some of the spider plant babies so uh we’ll see how they go and if they do a root thing

Finally finished this lil shelf hanger dude. I should probably think things like this through prior to starting since the bottom part was a pain in the butt to secure but it’s done and I learned along the way so can’t be too mad

Currently pt 2

Currently

Forgot to post these the other day. Just look at that perfect face

Got the call with Riley’s cytology results from last week. It’s giving cancer. Still not fully sure how to process things just yet

My child makes it impossible to get up every morning

This is somehow the funniest progression of things to me like I was obligated to click to see what the hell it was going to say

💜💜💜💜

#webcomic #jakelikesonions

Chopped my hair yesterday for a change (no one has noticed irl which is actually hilarious since half of it’s gone?) and came into these sweet presents from Melissa’s daughter. Disco bunny!!!

I honestly don’t know how I would have dealt with the trials of the past several years without her by my side. I’m not always the best dog mom but she is without a doubt the best pup I could ever ask for

It’s Riley’s 7th Gotcha Day and her 12th birthday!! (Ok technically birthday is officially the 16th but all forms just say fuck it the 9th works lol) 2019 this wiggle butt came into my life and changed it in so many ways. I fucking love her so much

Rest of the day I’m off to keep an eye on her & let her be a sun baby. Have to figure out getting her food but I may take a nap first to shut my brain off from stress for a spell

Started the day off with a follow up vet visit to get samples of the mass on her butt gland to see what’s up with it. Didn’t break sedation this time so very proud of her

Who ordered snow?!?!!!

Snuggle game so strong I almost overslept for work

After careful consideration, I adjusted what was in this spot on the wall to accommodate the hanger. Now I just hope it’s secure up there (should be)

Now playing:

Whenever I hear “All By Myself” I’m instantly transported to 2015 in Astorga when it was playing in the shoe shop as I had to purchase my third pair of Camino shoes just so defeatedly

Some Riley from last night I forgot to post

New one started as well. I’m genuinely just letting the rope talk to me and see where it wants to go. I feel like this is gonna end up with a small shelf as the base idk

Finally finished this guy (or rather just said you as done as you gonna be without me overthinking then somehow destroying it)

Riley day!

15 years ago today I watched my dad take his last breath. I’m wearing the button up I took from his closet that night and his mother’s wedding ring. I miss him a lot right now

Being stressed and poor and watching the world burn really does a number on your body huh.

To add to things, got my period today. Since getting it back after 8+ years in December I have lost 22 lbs. I had to check because I went “hmm” then found the weight from Dec doc visit and yeah 22 lbs. not trying either. Life be life-ing these days