sorry for being sporadic with my posting. i had a hard emotional talk with my parents and things are better now, i think. they apologized for misunderstanding me. still feels awkward but its better.

i think im gonna have another s/h sesh tonight. i hate being a fully grown adult and still being addicted to cvtting to cope. but what the fuck else is there to do

omad 😅

i want to make my stance very clear: we’re living in a really terrifying point in history and it’s extremely important to make our voices heard.. fuck 🧊 , fuck the current administrati0n and fuck anyone who supports it !!!

i dont want to be alive anymore

my mom woke me up to tell me she thinks its best if i dont move with them next month. so that's cool. my family doesn't want me 👍

i dont like how most online communities (aka fandom) discuss mpreg like its a purely fictional concept for entertainment and not like. A Real Thing that men can experience. like hi trans and intersex men exist too :/ we aren't just a make believe thought experiment ://

i love tw1tch ch4t sometimes (from c4s30h 's stream)

i feel like a fat shameful useless blob. all i do is mope and bitch and moan and cry. im so stupid. everyone fucking hates me. and they should

JERMA VOD GOT UPLOADED HE PLAYED NANCY DREW I HAVE A REASON TO LIVE FOR THE NEXT 6 HOURS

no new pics where are you at mentally? havent left my room since yesterday, i just wanna sleep forever and ignore reality

Why kms when i can completely crash out, abuse substances daily and regain my hot bitch aura

honestly considering just living in my fucking car until i can get a place bc like im so sick of my family atp idk if i can stand it. ill just throw all my belongings in my car its not like i own any furniture anyway.

cramps are rough this morning. i dont wanna get out of bed >~<

tteokbokki was the best ~teckshture~ chew ever but wow it was a LOT spicier than i thought it'd be lolol

CHAT PLS B PROUD OF ME 🥲🥲

i really want to eat my buldak carbonara tteokbokki but it requires the microwave and i honestly really dont want to leave my room tonight after what happened earlier

saw this at the store earlier today and it kinda grossed me out... what yall think 🤣🤣

irl me vs online me (* ´ ▽ ` *)ﾉ★*☆♪

im taking a bunch of 3d1bles and gonna play some games all night. try to just forget reality a little.

i really want to just k1ll mys3lf. i wish i wasn't a coward

im honestly struggling really hard, i feel really emotionally overwhelmed and idk what to do. cry, scream, cvt, b1nge, d1e idk

i think my parents confuse requirements when looking at apartments for "high standards." yes im sure you've SEEN a room for rent listed at 600 but do they allow pets ? yeah that place is cheap but does it have income limits? do you have to make 3x rent? like...

just basically blew up at my parents bc they were asking abt moving plans and i have no idea what's gonna happen and i hate talking to them its so difficult. i dont like anyone in this stupid house i want to just move out and never speak to any of them again

fucking period started and im out of pads so im going to the store with toilet paper in my underwear kms

i wanna make like. a bunny themed diet. only greens vegs and fruit maybe like broth

i need to stop eating. just like, in general. i need to just stop eating until i have no choice, whether that takes days or however long. i dont deserve food anyhow.

Wish I could wake up tomorrow and be at my gw.

id actually kay em ess to look like this 💔

i hate living here. i havent even been able to use the wifi on my phone in like a month or two bc nothing will load and im p sure my dad put a limiter on my device bc he keeps doing that without saying anything and only taking it off once i beg for days bc i literally can't use ANYTHING w/o it.

like im in my bedroom with the door shut there is no way i should be able to hear the movie REVERBERATING so clearly that i can parse the DIALOGUE from my bed. constant fucking vvbOOOM ZHHOOOM CHKBOOOOM like is this a fucking MICHAEL BAY COMPILATION????

im genuinely not exaggerating when i say that it feels like i live in a movie theater. my fucking dad just NEEDS surround sound and NEEDS movies to be at max volume. and if you try to talk he won't even ask you to stop he will just keep turning it up more until you give up.

i think im developing a migraine 🤕😵‍💫

my head is really bothering me but i finally got around to catching up on mooties posts :)

i keep having intervals of ignoring reality by playing wow and then intervals of coming to and crying a bunch. i really feel like eating my feelings rn

1st photo, he was much younger. bitchy, needy, and so full of love. other 3 are more recent. he was always lazy and food motivated. he loved to be carried around the house like a shoulder parrot. he loved belly rubs and armpit massages and his kryptonite was chicken. i hope he can rest with no pain.

itll take me a day or so to catch up to posts. busy having a breakdown. my parents finally took the cat to the vet today and i highly suspect he isnt gonna be coming home with them.

now im crying about my parents cat bc he used to be the tubby cat with a big belly and within the past month has become so frail you can feel his whole spine and i genuinely think he is going to die within the month. his condition is so rapidly deteriorating. and my parents do nothing but watch.

i hope everyone who is a part of 1c3 d*es

i can't stop thinking about my past. my toxic ex. feeling so down and miserable yet feeling like i made it all up at the same time and like it wasn't even that bad. i dont feel like im allowed to be a victim, or to accuse him of mistreatment. maybe it really was my own fault.

why tf do so many places do interviews over zoom. ive never used zoom in my life I dont have an acct I dont want to have to make one just for a fuckin interview. why can't yall just fucking call me over the phone?? you need to see my face that bad?? like why???? zoom is so STUPID

3 things that tempted me at the mall today + 1 thing i got

haii this is my backup for in case my main gets nuked 🫡🫡 hopefully won't need it but dont wanna risk losing all my moots ❤️‍🩹😔 (*・∀・*)ノ

morning... had an awful dream about my abusive ex :( he kept touching me and i shoved him off and yelled but he wouldn't listen. i ended up stabbing him in the back to get him off me. now i can't stop thinking of his gross face. ugh

tomorrow (today) i'm apply to the whole world lying on your resume is so in