there was this gorgeous older woman who came through my register line earlier with such a distinct perfume too . i was twirling my hair like a fool the whole time until she left .. i hope she knows how beautiful she is and i hope she has someone telling her that every day . waow

so cold at work that i always have a runny nose fml 😭😭😭

lightheaded … but why

i wish both of the mirrors in my room weren’t warped. i have no idea what i look like

should i throw all of my snacks away

sorry for # freaking out earlier lol

why did i eat all of that

i feel sodisgusting right now

i just ate two cookies and a reese’s egg and several handfuls of popcorn and three mouthfuls of whipped cream and too many spoonfuls of ice cream and i think i should be taken out back for such a disgusting display of horrific indulgence

i’ve maintained since my last weigh in T__T god being less than a pound away from my current gw and it taking this long is a different kind of torture

calling out of work today 🙂‍↕️

my biggest fear about my lease ending and going back to live at home is i don’t have any friends back there & i’ll be completely alone again

not a bad end to my day! got away w no lunch & we ended up having a smaller dinner :]

eating only a small bit of my salad today .. i have to save room for an inevitable lunch (i’ll have rice cakes + jam) and then my partner and my planned curry dinner .. if i do good w portions i might be able to have some candy too :]

i’m a fat fucking waste of life i hate myself

my stomach is fucking killing me i’m such a moron

can’t cvt so i’m going to overeat as a form of punishment so that i have to restrict even harder

god i want to stuff my face so badly rn

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i feel like i’m so close to getting out of this awful mindset but i feel like if i try ill just get worse

this is doable .. pirating a movie w friends and dinner are my only cal risks for the rest of the day, if i stay focused i can keep under my limit today

i should know by now that when i drink i eat and yet i still drink and get affected extremely quickly and then overeat 😭

got tipsy and then binged fuck my idiot fatass life

dinner w friends tn and i have no idea where we’re going .. wish me luck

I hate ai

need to get back into ⭐️ving myself

update . i’m at 700 im doomed

my partner said we don’t have to eat dinner bc we had a late lunch and are going to see a movie later 🥹 maybe i won’t go over 800 after all

going out for quick errands and then coming home horrendously exhausted .. fml

my partner wanted to get breakfast out today so i’m already 350 calories deep into the day T_T i doubt i’ll be able to avoid a lunch too so i’m likely going over 800 today :[

happy anorexic april everyone 🥹 may we all lose this month 🕯️🙏

a little win for me today is stopping here 🤧🤧

my fingers r so thin and cold (rn) that i can see the veins in them.. that’s so weird

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got my first porn acc follower .. blocked immediately 🤢

Happy Trans Day of Visibility! :)

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why the hell do so many of the bum ass men who come through my grocery line smell like rancid pungent BO & why do their bags smell the same . like .. do we shower? do we wash our clothes? come on now, at least do something 😭😭 it’s so disgusting to breathe in it makes me feel sick every time

suppressing the urge in my body to buy a donut even tho i can afford the calories bc caving in each time my body has a craving is enabling myself to eat when i don’t have to

i’m stupid as shit and snacked on a high calorie snack what’s my problem (thankfully i finished it and can’t be tempted by it anymore)

i’m so fucking ugly i should kms

no breakfast today ✌️^___^

i hate my stupid fucking hips bruh 😭😭💔

oh my god . i’m a pound away from my current gw

i hate the 3 C's calories cops & capitalism

i saw this cute ass little cheesecake, i’m talking palm of my hand sized cheesecake.. 410 calories. my jaw was on the floor. truly i can enjoy nothing anymore. my heart was broken

i need to be concerningly thin when i go to the doctors next month but im still not at my gw because im a failure

do u think if my doctor says i have a problem i’ll actually try to get better or will it go unaddressed and i’ll spiral even more 😧😧

can’t believe i’m pushing 24 and starving myself. like i have to get my shit together (i won’t)

i just had like 2 back to back nightmares, i have a bad feeling about today