Still thinking about how funny it was to login to Nextdoor for 5 seconds and, after being blasted with people debating my human rights, seeing the same flavor of old white person asking for legal help bc she was “being discriminated against for her race.” 100% sincere, no notes.

I didn’t want to look more human than I already did.

Excuse to post a classic?

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Apt staff responded with “carriers often mark things as delivered before they arrive” (always said, never true) and “we strongly suggest you use direct signature” which isn’t even possible. I politely informed them this was bullshit and it was a them problem, actually (bc it is)

My head may not like it, but this (rain and thunder) is what peak weather looks like

No response from the leaves my insulin out at room temperature for ten days crowd (expected), but thankfully I should be able to get a replacement easily, likely without a copay. (Which they’re paying, if there is one. I will be mean about it.)

One of the most frustrating parts of chronic illnesses—especially if you have more than one—is that if one thing goes wrong, everything goes wrong because biochemistry is dominos all the way down

I really used to walk into a place that triggered cluster headaches for 8+ hours a day while I was ragebaited by morons and gaslit by management. I should qualify for veteran’s benefits

A lot of education discourse is at root an inability to decide whether the purpose of our education system is to 1) teach material and measure learning 2) reward students who work hard 3) separate the smart kids (destined for smart guy jobs) from the dumb kids (destined to serve the smart guys)

It's a great cosmic joke that neurodivergence both runs in families and gets diagnosed based on parent reports. I was diagnosed at 30 because a man who has eaten potatoes every day for 57 years and a woman who collects loose buttons decided I was a perfectly normal child.

Deliveries to my apt have always been a production, but I just got back from reception with a bag labeled "perishable, keep refrigerated" addressed to me, from ten days ago, kept at room temp. It was my insulin. I'd asked many times and was told there's nothing. I'm out of words.

the clip studio program itself won't let me log in if I'm using my vpn now. very cool, very fine.

I know I should feel otherwise in this job market, but every day I wake up and thank whatever powers that be that I no longer have to answer to my former bosses

Sometimes people say a bare minimum nice thing to me and I’m gobsmacked and have to remind myself I’m not in public K-12 anymore and people don’t necessarily hate me by default. Blows my mind each time

Sometimes I will forget that I’m native to the Florida of CA, log onto Nextdoor with good intentions, immediately get pummeled with Satan’s favorite Huntington Beach white supremacists and local bigots debating my human rights, and hemorrhage from the collective stupidity

But really though, if I see one mmore “moderate” liberal say trans people are “a tiny fragment of the population” and that anti-trans legislation “only affected a very small number of people” as excuses for candidates’ policies, I might actually mcfreaking lose it.

What a lovely day to remember that they use “advanced interrogation techniques” in hell ❤️

My favorite part of Google Photos is getting “memories” sourced exclusively from screencaps of cql

Changed to weekly T injections, have unreadably high amounts in my body that has my endocrine baffled, and despite this… I just started bleeding again. 😀 My flesh is a prison

I had every intention of finishing something for WWX day, but my conscience (and common sense) start screaming at me if I open csp. 💀 One day I’ll be able to do the things I want and intend to do, maybe

Love being behind on everything for reasons completely outside my control, losing even more time on top of that to symptoms, leaving me in the negative for accomplishing anything useful but putting me on a solid fuck-up streak. 👍🏻 not the biggest fan of my life at the moment.

Sometimes I think about how expensive it is to keep myself alive because my immune system decided to start eating my pancreas’s beta islet cells for fun and never stop. Then I quickly backpedal before I become the bitterest person alive

A week later, I’m still thinking about the guy who turned up to an exam with a “I ❤️ MY GIRLFRIEND’S FEET” shirt, presumably to establish dominance

#cql #theuntamed #burialmounds #weiwuxian / #WeiYing

My medical supplies came in. The awful week is over 🙏

I am simply asking for more than a couple hours in the morning where I’m pain-free and doing things is easy and I can actually stay on top of all of the things I need to get done before I feel like I got shot in the eye. I’m exhausted and at this point, this is just absurd

Saw someone talking about something good in their life and discovered I am miserable enough that it made me angry, so I’m hoping maybe hydrocodone and 40 hours of sleep will fix me

me, an idiot: why do I feel so tired and out of it lately? I don't get what changed. 🤔🤔🤔 Then my brain finally synapsed and screeched to a halt when I remembered I'd tried increasing my verapamil again.

I am dying to have someone cut me open and dissect me like a frog on a table. I need to know why my corporeal form is such a fucked up snowflake

"I don't really understand it" - my endocrinologist after my unreadably high testosterone levels that only just beat down my endogenous estrogen and might, maybe, finally start causing a change (I got a few more chin hairs)

Neither 20 mg of propranolol nor 0.5 mg of Ativan are enough for all these presentations I have to make. Maybe ketamine will fix me

It only took 2x the amount of testosterone and >1500 ng/dL of it in my blood to get my estradiol in range. I don't think I can ever take a hot shower again

One of my favorite parts of t1dm is being thrown into 24 hours of chaos because a nutrition label included dietary fiber in the carb count, leading to multiple hypoglycemic events that would land anyone else in the hospital but for you it’s just another Wednesday

There’s significant improvement, but there are still days I spend in significant amounts of pain that I can’t quite outrun with distractions. It’s still daily, it’s just not turbomaxing every waking hour. Unfortunately that still maths out to Exhausting

I once knew a “certain ships/kinks get me Big Mad” type irl. Most obnoxious human I ever met. Sex tears=rape. Writing about SA meant you liked it. Got SO upset I liked Storm of Swords they created a bizarrely specific list of OCs I needed to kill off if I wanted to “be like that”

my wrath of khan spirk art 👍 #art #startrek

I spent a week sleeping off viral pharyngitis only to have the psychic damage of catching up on things I missed to make me feel like I need to sleep another week

Being in my early 30s after growing up thinking 35 came with looking like George Costanza has been one of the more surreal experiences in my life so far. A gen z coworker older than my brother asked if my nearsightedness was “middle aged sight”

it's so nice to see what a functioning judiciary looks like "A transgender woman in the East African nation of Kenya has won a landmark court victory in which the judge not only found in her favour, but ordered the government to pass a Transgender Protection Rights Act." fuck yeah

“Yeah, we’re not allowed to use the word ‘female’ in research anymore, so we have to say ‘individual with ovaries’” is quite the boomerang effect I should have seen coming

“I pretty much read most of the paper but still don’t understand it”

In all seriousness, please do not stop taking Tylenol/acetaminophen for fever reduction. Especially while pregnant. Even if the risk of autism existed, there’s far worse you can do by letting a high fever run unchecked, denaturing your fetus’s proteins (it needs those)

I can’t believe this administration has me defending the most useless “painkiller” in existence because somebody threw a dart and now Dr. Oz gets a payout

Meanwhile, back home: my godson has claimed my room for himself once more

Finally heard from my presentation partner re: the presentation we’re giving Tuesday and I needed to explain the assignment to them. 🧍🏻

I can finally talk and eat/drink again. I love how my mother said "wow, you got over that quickly" because yes, that is true, but definitely doesn't feel like it when all you've done since Tuesday is sleep and eat popsicles

good news: both of my midterms are being rescheduled bad news: this is owing to the fact I am on the “fever and glass shards” stage of pharyngitis. It’s only been a few days and I miss my ability to swallow

My new shirt design is a very serious PSA that I was asked to make, because apparently a lot of people don't know. roryblank.bigcartel.com