I just can't understand... I can't understand! I can't understand... why are you being... so nice to me?

i hate when you wanna talk about something that bothers you but you feel like you've already talked about it too much so you just hold it in

moon, tell me if i could / send up my heart to you? so when i die, which i must do / could it shine down here with you?

i understand that feeling of needing to bottle up your guilt, not burden other people with it. you think you’re protecting them from your toxicity, you convince yourself that you’re being selfless, but… it comes out in other ways and it infects everything

Gilrfailure? But girls are always winners!

These kinds of people pmo. Stop wearing a style built on mental illness if you're judgemental to those who've struggled or are still struggling #jiraisky

Someone kill me #jiraiposting

i wish, just for once, to be able to cry in someones arms instead of being the one that holds others

i got mental issues always fucking miss you

#obslove #subsky #subtwt

and i don't want your pity, i just want somebody near me.

the thing i will never admit is how desperately i want to be loved, i don't think i could say it. how i want someone to hold my wrists and kiss my palms and smile at me and want me, i want to be wanted and i don't know how long poetry or songs will substitute for being wanted

i begged God to make the little girl inside me happy, please take away all the pain and make the little girl happy. she's just a little girl hugging her own wounds.

#jiraisky im always fighting the demons

i hate how i look, i hate how i act, i hate how i talk, i hate everything about myself, i hate how im so sensitive to everything, i hate how i can love someone just as fast as i can hate them, i don’t know what to do with myself anymore. everything just feels like too much for me

im just sitting here and i have that feeling of wanting to cry but not being able to. i fucking hate it

Im broke miku 🥀🥀

Ame from NSO made me genuinely feel seen from how relatable she is to me 🥲

me i fear

i fucking love susie shes just like me fr 😭

i still have 8 1/2 hrs of this shit AAUHGHHS

i am literally on the verge of tears rn and i dont even know why bruh im gonna crash out

idk if i can stay the whole day but i’ll feel bad if i just leave 😭

i would genuinely rather take any retail job over this oml

i genuinely might just…. not come back to this job tomorrow tbh bc this is way too much for me, i literally dont know anyone here and theres language barriers with a lot of the people here, which wouldnt be a problem if i wasn’t completely inexperienced, as well as the fact its a 12 hr shift 😭

I'm so fucking stupid. You never cared about me

now shes @ing me in the snapchat group chat lmfaooo idc i just need some time away from the whole situation rn

she straight up told him “if your feeling guilty that shes crying, it’s not your fault so don’t be” and that just pmo cz what. yeah sure he didn’t MEAN to make her cry by raising his voice , but she still DID. and for that he should feel bad, even if it wasn’t his intention to hurt her.

late nights are the worst for me, they bring out the worst in me

i myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.

sometimes i think: if nobody spoke to me, i might just never speak again

i think my mind was trying to tell me something when my childhood version of “nightmares” was vague depictions of people yelling at each other, or at me, and i never understood why i’d wake up in a cold sweat after dreaming those things.

i exist， that is all， and i find it nauseating.

dude i hate having such a visceral reaction when men yell like its literally built into my programming and i hate it so fucking much the worst part is it doesn’t even have to be AT me it’s just in general.

im obsessed with these stupid fags (affectionate)

i’ll have to wait til tomorrow to cut cuz i have to go to bed rn 😿 anyways goodnight chat

ugh i genuinely don’t know why im still alive. i can’t stand living and everything makes me feel like shit. theres so much wrong with me that i’ve given up on trying to fix, and i cant talk with any of my friends about it without sounding like a terrible person and/or insane

i hate when people will talk about something they do t like when other people do it to them. but they LITERALLY did it to me. like what. i dont understand why you’d do the same thing to me after saying you don’t like it when people do it to you…..

i genuinely need to keep in mind that as long as i havent done anything wrong, if someone else is judging me then thats their problem. i have such a strong urge to please people that if i even slightly perceive that someone doesnt like me i WILL and HAVE had panic attacks because of it.

Had some shower thoughts this night: I need to unlearn the fear of failure Because I’d rather be friends w someone who’s failed a thousands times than someone who’s only ever succeeded Because failure develops your humanity, your empathy, your humility Failure opens your mind And I want to be open

yayyy i just love feeling drained after having a panic attack that was about a situation that never even happened !!!! because my mind made it up and it genuinely felt real !!!!!!

so we might’ve done some more….

You are scared of losing people, but is anyone scared of losing you?