i just want him to be able to be happy, I don't want him to end up like me, I care so deeply about him yet I can do nothing to stop it. the inevitable. the cycle. it always fucking repeats and I can't do anything but watch

and I'm leaving soon so I won't even be able to do anything about it

I felt so bad because he was yelling at him and he's sitting there like I used to when my dad would berate me. genuinely makes me sick to my stomach and want to sob.

God I feel like a terrible sister bc I see myself in my little brother and I don't know how to help him, since no one was there to help me and I really dont want him to turn out like me. I hate the way my moms new bf talks to both my little brothers but especially Dallas

god i need to start saving up to buy more geeks cuz only have two left 😔

ts genuinely pissing me off i fucking hate him he’s a creep and a pred and he disgusts me

desperation is the best weapon. see what it does to a man.

i don't know what we are but i miss what we were.

I feel like #jiraisky would appreciate this one

dude i’m gonna fucking kms i don’t want to open snap to a fucking dih pic 🫩🥀

a dude came in to my work and MIND YOU HES MARRIED asked for my snap, I am a chronic fawner so I just gave it to him…. and he IMMEDIATELYstarted texting me BRO I HAVENT EVEN ADDED YOU BACK YET, IM STILL AT WORK????

he says he wants things to be “civil” for family gatherings but like…. I don’t plan on GOING to said family gatherings. like there’s no point in me going. yeah they’re family but i’m not close with most of them, Im sure they’ll survive without me being there 🫩

Like why is it okay for her to post that kind of stuff, including the fb post AND the tt, but if I did that?? oh I’d be called “immature” and told that i need to “be the bigger person” (which I HAVE been) so they can talk all they want idc but I’ve done and said nothing wrong

At the end of the day I have said and done NOTHING wrong and haven’t personally responded to ANY of the drama so I know I haven’t said or done anything “wrong”/“bad” like genuinely FUCK OFF

now my dad is apparently talking to 🥑 and trying to “solve the issue” bro the ISSUE is THEM. I don’t want another argument or confrontation because I know that somehow I’ll be made to be the “bad guy” and I’ll be forced to apologize for something that I’m NOT fucking sorry for lmfao

a little rant i wrote up but am still debating on whether or not i wanna commit to cutting her mom off too cuz like… she’s REALLY pissing me off with allowing this bullshit

she made a post to a tt trend audio saying “had to crop some ppl out they fucking up the photo” and had the audacity to crop me out of a group photo THAT I TOOK. and she posted it to her priv account (thank GOD) but that fact her mom just lets it happen but gets mad at US when WE RETALIATE?? kys

i’m so fucking tired of her and her shit bro you have to be jorking my shit right now

a guy online complimented me like “your kinda cute” fym kinda?? like i appreciate it but fuck out of here with that nonchalant shit i need someone who will worship me and actually love my and my entire soul . don’t come here with that “kinda” bs 🫩

I just want to be able to exist without worrying about how i’m being perceived by others

youll love me forever and always right? youll never get bored of me right? though i might get bored of you first... im kidding

i mean maybe it’s just that people like the overall vibe of the playlist and since i named it “my love 💗” but the cover of it is LITERALLY AN ART PIECE I MADE OF MY SONA AND HIM. HELP??

why are there 6 likes on my yumeship playlist. who is investing in this please why are there people who saved it to their library AAHSHDJJFJF IM SCARED

i think i sprained something in my foot cuz it’s KILLING me rn

redid this with my current pinterest really interesting how my style has completely flipped in a year lol

i’m actually having like. really intense urges to cut rn but i threw all my razors out while packing bc 🥑 was watching me and i panicked and just threw them in a trash bag FUUUUCK

bro i’m actually so scared im freaking shaking

okay it’s sent i’m actually nauseous

wish me luck i’m gonna be sending this to my aunt 😭 ik im gonna have so much anxiety after i send it until she responds so im gonna wait til after work to send

mcr mentioned 🥹

uuauahghghghhgh everything is fucking PISSING ME OFF everyone PLEASE die hrrrggihksdgihjishg AGH i just want to fucking smash my phone and free myself from this shit but if i do that i wont be able to go online!!!!!! AAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH

yk it’s bad when even my dad is on my side LMAOAO

stooppp so much is going down rn lmao

also don’t even get me STARTED on how ☕️ can NEVER let shit go peacefully, anytime someone tells her off or says they don’t want to be around her she just HAS to post about it and air her dirty laundry out to EVERYONE and make HERSELF look like the victim. every. time. like she can do NO wrong 🫩

the thing is she wouldve called me “immature for a grown ass adult” no matter what i did or said and i know that’s a fact. i literally didn’t even say ANYTHING to her and she’s posting all this shit just because i unfollowed her and didn’t message her back?? sorry i actually have a life????

i feel sick now god i hate this

HAHAHAA HER MOM MESSAGED US LMAOO you’ve got to be joking this is actually unreal (first pic is 🥑 and second is 🎀s reply)

god i hate getting so upset that it consumes my whole body like im actually physically shaking with rage rn this bitch pisses me OFFF

DUDE IM FUCKING CRYING THIS IS SO FUNNY all three of us (me, 🎀 and the other cousin that ☕️ was talking about in the fb post) have been working on a message to send ☕️ for the last hour and she just responded with “ur wrong lol” okay EXPLAIN WHY LMAO??

it’s so funny to me that she doesn’t see anything that she’s done as wrong even though all three of her cousins don’t like her. and sure you can say “i’m a grown adult so that’s just low” but i literally haven’t done or said anything bad lmao so no one can use that as an argument

bro she straight up posted a rant on her facebook LIKE USUAL LMAO and my mom still had her on fb so she screenshotted it and sent it to me LOL i could go through everything on here that’s wrong but I’m tired asf of all this and don’t care to give it the time of day

☕️ has been messaging me on a bunch of different apps and part of me feels bad but the other part of me is just like… you’ve always treated me like shit, even if it wasn’t directly, but you clearly harbor some kind of contempt towards me

p-chan it wasn't supposed to be YOU who falls in love it was supposed to be AME but I guess that works too 😭

my body is a temple and the temple wants an excessive amount of caffeine

ame keeps falling in love with other characters on the island so i finally made her p-chan 😭

like i care about 🥑 but the way she constantly defends what ☕️ does pisses me off. like i know she’s your kid and ofc your gonna be protective of her but even when SHES the one in the wrong? calling people terrible names and making fun of them? and just being an ass in general?? give me a mf break 🫩

left a bunch of gcs on messenger that ☕️ (i’m gonna call her that from here on) was in, i already feel a weight lifted off my shoulders ☺️❤️‍🩹 im not gonna start anything because i don’t need anymore of her drama, but if 🥑 asks why i left them i’ll just say i was going through and cleaning out my msgs

we’re funny guys trust

i mean i think the tan makes my scars more visible in general like they get darker?? i think idk if anyone else’s do that