I feel like a minor heads up—somewhere in the first two and a half decades of life—that (perhaps) the majority of the shit you'll deal with as you age will be grief, just wearing different disguises and little hats, would not have gone awry.

Didn’t think about NYT Games yesterday and broke all my streaks. 🤷🏻‍♀️

“I should’ve not broken my bones.” “Yeah, that was kind of a bummer, huh?” “It’s hard to be a six year old.”

Also taught him “sike!” and assume I’ll live to regret that choice.

Didn’t think about the psychic damage I’d take dressing my kid as the 90s for Decades Day and then having to explain when that was to him on the way to school.

I fear that if I start talking about Tylenol and pregnancy, I will never stop yelling.

I am not built to be a soccer mom, especially because I forgot to bring a chair to sit in.

Writing self-promo marketing copy is hell.

I’m starting to see what M is gonna look like as a young adult and I’m fucked up about it.

There is a celeb that people seem to really dislike while their peers (who the same people do like) love them, and I don’t know why people dislike them, and I honestly don’t want to find out.

Great day to be so much less terminally online than I used to be.

I feel like I'm screaming into the void in almost every arena of my life right now.

TIL that Kate Spade was David Spade’s sister-in-law. How did it never occur to me to wonder if there was any connection there?

For full academic CVs for people who left academia, are we including grant submissions that weren't funded? Because grant writing and prep is a whole set of skills on its own, and I'd like to demonstrate I can do it beyond what's been successfully funded.

Do I have any friends who do freelance writing in addition to a FT job? I’m figuring out how best to showcase writing on my resume when it’s not primarily a writing resume, if that makes sense. And some of it was for hire and some of it was volunteer, so that’s an added level of complication.

The morning’s bright the sky is blue and we have a teaser trailer! WAKE UP DEAD MAN the new Benoit Blanc mystery, in theaters Thanksgiving and on Netflix 12/12

Friends, I need some validation and celebration and I hate writing that because I feel like a bottomless vortex of need that could never possibly be filled but also I don’t think pretending that I don’t desperately wish for people to validate me is going to make it true.

I ordered our pizza at 5:14 and it’s STILL not here yet and M won’t let us start the movie until it gets here and Domino’s owes me emotional damages. 😫

It’s…a lot to navigate managing your own feelings about your kid’s test scores when you’re a (recovering?) perfectionist and former gifted kid who is still trying to unfuck her sense of self worth being so rooted in her intellect and academic performance. 🫠

Every time I even come close to considering moving home to take advantage of having family nearby....

Woke up to an absolute deluge of Broadway ads across FB and IG. As though I were suddenly in NYC. ??

Look at that beautiful blue sky! ⏰☠️ Wake Up Dead Man, the new Benoit Blanc mystery. Thanksgiving in theaters, 12/12 on Netflix. More to come very soon…

I have to deal with my car today, and I so deeply do not want to.

Having a normal day!

DEATH PROOF (2007) remains one of my favorite movies.

I love these boys.

I was so tired at 9:30 that I didn’t bother to take anything to help me sleep and now it’s 12:20 and I have regrets.

You are so much older than you are ready to accept.

I worry I will never again find the ability to get shit done. Like I used it all up in grad school and then being a workaholic with a baby/toddler and then burning out so hard that I just…won’t ever be able to do it again.

Oh, my Advil Cold & Sinus wore off. That explains a few things.

It’s to trace and write four short words and he’s throwing an absolute fit and I’m gonna lose my mind.

They gave my first grader homework and I’m in hell.

I so deeply wish for everyone who wants one to have a therapist as amazing as mine.

Introduce yourself with the last five concerts you attended: -Eras Tour AMS -Simple Plan + Sum41 + The Offspring -Eras Tour ATL -Paul McCartney -Me First and the Gimme Gimmes + Streetlight Manifesto + Flogging Molly Next: Paul McCartney in November

I just randomly ended up on Terrance Stamp’s Wikipedia page only to find out he died today. Feels like a glitch in the Matrix.

Belting Dashboard Confessional while you drive is still as satisfying after two decades.

Had a realization in therapy a bit ago that I haven’t been able to chase all the way down because there have been more pressing crises to talk through, but I really gotta figure out where my bone deep conviction that choices that appear “easier” are inherently less than or unallowable or…

I wish I could get a read on what my experience/seniority level looks like to people who don’t know me.

Lol I have The White Book open on my lap, Origins paused on Audible, and Reddit open on my phone. I’m fine.

Oh, I did finish Wheel of Time, btw, and it’s gonna be my personality for the next while until I get through the companions and backread a few decades of blog posts and forums and whatnot.

Today’s Connections was very satisfying.

I just glanced at WoT on AO3 so I could get a sense for the selection of ships, and I am dismayed.

Raising this kid and not thinking too hard about what kind of future I’m raising him for.

I’ve read 7/14 Wheel of Time books since June 18th (audiobooks at 1.9X). The last one took me just 3 days. This level of escapism is…intense. Can’t imagine why.

I very lightly burned the back of my thumb while reseasoning my cast iron the other day, and it keeps distracting me because it’s shiny.

I was supposed to have 4 days of time to myself with Cody at work and M at camp and instead I have had a week of all three of us together in the house and I'm ready to run into the forest never to return.

Good hair day.

I successfully completed a photo session and returned the gallery for the first time since 2023. Shaking the rust off.

Trying to figure out when we need to leave in the morning, and I’m even less sure now, somehow. Thanks, Atlanta.

A tiny piece of good news: camp is refunding us for this week! You can’t always count on that.