Am now 30 Three decades... And I only feel like I've actually lived for one. My 30's are going to be the best decade of my life. I know it.

Okay I'll admit calling myself old at 30 is a bit silly, honestly my 30's are going to be the best decade of my life bar fucking none (But also I had a back surgery already so fuck it I can call myself a bit of an unc as a treat)

gotta say it's pretty ridiculous being governed by people who take testosterone supplements and boner pills but don't want anyone else to have gender affirming care

You have to survive. There are graves to piss on that haven't been dug yet.

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Sex was invented by Big Sex to sell more Sex

Bluesky rn

Hunter's Moon Werewolf Wednesday

Had to share this from twitter just because

coming out as trans 2 in mamdanis new york

That stupid "Mouse Utopia" experiment piss me the fuck off What do you mean you are surprised when an overcrowded mouse prison doesn't make the mouse very happy ? "Bu-bu-but they had all the food and water they could ever want" I guess prison are Utopia since prisoners don't starve to death then

The older trans/queer experience doesn't get talked about a lot and it can feel entirely different since there's also a degree of responsibility you feel for the young. I feel protective over younger queer and trans people, and while I can't tell them things will get better, I will fight for them.

Being an older trans woman is interesting sometimes since I feel like I still haven't begun to live the life I want but also it's a bit weird being 30 and being the person I am Part of me wishes I was 19 again but also the experiences I've had have given me a much better understanding of things

Smoking legal weed at the fursuit rave outside of the hotel with my non-binary platonic life partner. This furry thing is pretty cool I get why Conservatives hate it.

Goodbye, Furpocalypse. I had an amazing time and couldn't ask for a better first furcon. Shoutout to @schnauzerface.bsky.social, @skunkfruit.bsky.social, and @completelyworst.bsky.social for making it a particularly memorable event.

Man borderline personality disorder fucking sucks sometimes lol

God other trans women are fucking beautiful man. Something about them becoming true to themselves and being unaware of their obvious femininity just makes me want to gush about how gorgeous they are

I really gotta lock the fuck in and find a way to make myself attractive because nothing I've ever worn or done has worked so far lol

Skye and Puppet's new song is destroying me man

will you just let me be silly for a sec. there’s this dread so ancient in me

i just think its funny when mitsu's eyes just go like

PLANE BOY

idk what im doing. trying to learn digital painting with no guide

It's a WHAT restaurant???

Also hey 69 Followers lol

Oh and it's a job where because I'm in the US if I reveal I'm trans it'll give them a reason to fire me and even if I don't get fired I'll be met with massive bigotry so haha I'm dysphoric at work every day

Anyways time to go work my awful restaurant job to have just enough money for rent, weed and cigarettes, because I'm nearly 30 and the only thing keeping me alive are my coping mechanisms and the few people who care for me despite everything about who I am

Also fun fact I used to have to sleep in the back of it most nights until I got my new condo because I'd get into nearly physical fights with my parents every night.

All I want to do is find a quiet place and stay in the back of my Van as I smoke enough weed to literally temporarily turn my brain off like I used to. Enough to hear voices that aren't just my own telling me how worthless I am.

Every single time I think I'm doing better, my brain decides to flip a switch and give me a massive episode as if it has to remind me that I'll never escape it.

I just feel like with the (relative) privilege I had growing up I should've done more. Much more. Yes I had abusive parents and am disabled, but I had a stable house and was never wanting for money. I see people in much worse states make much more for themselves and I feel hopeless. Like a waste.

I really didn't think absolute panic about aging actually hit but I think imma have an actual awful day when I turn 30

There's something funny about being massively dysphoric and then seeing like a thirst tweet like simping over tall trans women who don't voice train I guess there's a type for everybody

future archaeologists will know you were (not) a boy 1/3

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[ #fanart ] a2 doodles

meeting up 1/5

Just wish I knew what I was searching for

You know it's bad when you're bawling over music by yourself lol

Every so often there's this unspecified yearning that hits that feels like a fucking shotgun slug to the stomach

damn

It still feels weird mentioning I'm trans due to the absolute difference in some responses

I feel like every time I've tried to explain disassociating to somebody it's made no sense whatsoever

artists should really repost more, considering how long each drawing takes. anyway, take this. ive forced you to scroll past my art again

That one tiktok art trend with my oc [ #ocsky #oc #art #illustration ]

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3hr sketch #callilust