Just got some professional photos back from my best friend's wedding and lmao it doesn't even matter if I'm skinny because being skinny hasn't fixed my face

Desperately trying to hit my next gw before my best friend gets married on Saturday bc I'm a m41d of h0n0r and so scared about getting pics taken and I'm 1.5lbs away PLEASE GOD PLEASE??? PLEASE???

Happy P0k3mon Legends Zaza day 💨

FUN FACT: Did you know that after dropping my abuela off at the airport, kicking off a week of being home alone, I did not st4rve and instead ate the rest of my leftover birthday cake and Indi4n food and this was hours ago and I still feel full up to my throat

We eatin' GOOOOOOOD tonight

The last gift my partner got me for my bday came in and she's beautiful!! 😭 Celebrating by baking one cookie, and hopefully it's good bc I think I bought this dough like..... maybe over a month ago..... maybe two months.....

Happy October! We're locking in again this month and we're all gonna feel great in our costumes and enjoy fall dishes, desserts, and candy with no guilt!! H4lloween is my fave holiday and we WILL have fun and enjoy it this year 🎃🦇🖤

Ate a big meal for breakfast bc today was going to be busy at work, and my partner brought me a snack plate they made for me and were visibly saddened by me kindly rejecting it. When they left the room I noticed they cut the strawberries into hearts. I cried so much. I fucking hate myself

Being an emotional eater with an ed is so fucked up bc why am I bingeing to cope with my emotions and numb myself and then wanting to eat more bc I'm stressed and scared about w8 gain and how much I ate

Okay I can FOR SURE see that I've gotten bigger. I'm fucking up. Need to hit my next gw in October. I'm not getting bigger because of muscles or anything I'm just eating eating eating and I don't need to. I eat when I'm not hungry. I'm falling back into my emotional bingeing like fucking clockwork

This month has been suuuch a disaster bc of big events + my job stressing me out + my birthday, I've been binging like HELL I literally made myself dumplings and DRANK THE LEFTOVER SOY SAUCE oh my GOD

Tysm for all the birthday wishes! My partner and I celebrated by driving up and going to H4lloween H0rror N1ghts :') Loooved the FN4F and Terr1fier houses!

Also, it's my birthday! All cals on me 🥳

Why can I only see something I write if it's a post I make separately 😭 Any why ONLY on my feed and not my profile!!!

Wtf is going on w either Bsky or my connection?? I've liked posts + replied to different people but every time I close and open the app, it's like I haven't interacted with anyone. Idk if this will even post 😭

Does anyone here work in a cr3ative industry and know how to deal with art1st bl0ck or just generally not ever knowing what to do or what looks good because I'm so burnt out and creatively drained

Sorry I haven't been on here, I've been severely employed

Just got home from the b4chelorette party trip and I don't want to step on the scale tomorrow lmaooooooooooooooooooooo

My family made rice and beans and it smells so good 😭 But I'm 2lbs from my next gw and I leave for a b4chelorette trip tomorrow!!! No eating for me

almost like being a hateful, evil person has consequences lol

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Fall H0t G1rl W4lk pl4ylist but it's just A D4RK Z0NE from Delt4rune on repeat

It's so hard to allow myself to express my wants/needs and ask for help when everyone around me is going through worse situations.

I need to lock tf back in hoooly shit

My issues make me such a bad friend + girlfriend. All I can ever think about is myself, and I have no real energy for anyone or anything. What little energy I do have is spent mentally s3lf-h4rming and trying to maintain the illusion of functioning because I'm, y'know, fucking st4rving

Nurse she's up at 1:00 AM again looking at ed content!!!

Getting my steps in by being the most disordered person in the grocery store and pacing around for hours

I looove looking at pics of people's ed meals 😭 I'm scrolling through r/s*fe_food rn and I find it so comforting?

Love my state bc it's my home/I was born and raised here, and I think it's so much more beautiful, diverse, and culturally rich than people give it credit for, but holy shit is it a p0litical fucking cesspool.

Saw someone post a drink and it reminded me that a v-gan restaurant my partner and I would frequent for special events completely packed up their three locations and left my state. I don't usually like to drink, but they had my favorite v-gan espr3sso mart1ni. And now it's gone forever.

Anyone have any good, low cal v-gan recipes, snacks, or foods? I'm struggling to r3strict like I used to because of work, and I've been gaining. :(

AAAAH 🖤 (Labeled for a pic of my body, cropped + B&W for anonymity. Dress is actually gray though!)

Feel like I'm gonna v0mit, I binged today and I don't even wanna think abt how many cals I ate. I'm uncomfortably full and feel SO gross. I regret so much of my intake today, I was literally just eating to eat

I have had nothing but carbs today I am so bloated 😭

Best friend's br1dal sh0wer was today and it was so hot and I'm so tired and we had pasta and cookies and I ate way too damn much!! But we had fun and I loved seeing her. I miss her all the time ever since she moved out of the state 😭

Work has me stressing and I'm an emotional eater ughhh fuck dude I just had non-s4fe bread and I want to keep eating

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Stopping myself from posting this, so proud of my self-control <333

I have GOT to get faster + more creative at work bc what do you mean it's 4:25 AM and I finished my work for the "day" and I need to get up in four hours to do my work for the day

Damn this job got me barely looking at my phone lmao Congrats to everyone! I am finally shutting the fuck up 🙂‍↕️

I feel so weird about my appearance and weight rn. I've been going up and down by a few oz for a bit and I'm just tired and hungry and I'm letting myself eat more than usual today. Idk what I want to do. Is it because I lost muscle mass? I'm def sk1nnyf4t atm. I miss my ass and I want hips/shape :(

Went to the mall with friends today and tried on some pants, and idk if it was just the fit of the jeans in these two stores, but I thought my legs looked too sk1nny 😐 So now what

Okay so why are you going to be upset about me reminding you that I have an ed when you keep trying to feed me after I told you I have an ed 🤨

the world if calories reset at midnight

Why did I just get an ad for v-gan candy bars that when I looked them up everyone was saying how they're incredible and divine

Damn this job got me eating bc I'm too stupid when I res 😭 Higher intake + sedentary job does is a recipe for disaster!!!

Final day of my first week at work! Super stressed because I was assigned three last-minute projects yesterday (one completed, one needs reviewing, one is still being worked on), and I have more that needs to be done today.

All I had yesterday was a 190cal pr0tein bar, half of a ~350cal salad w no dressing, a 55cal d1rty ch4i I didn't even finish, and water. Why am I up a lb 😭 I'm guessing it's bc it's all still sitting in me?

Asking & waiting for a review of my work gives me the same amount of anxiety as being hunted for sport