also useful for dealing with background drawing anxieties: the next time you are reading a comic you enjoy try and take note of all the panels or pages with literally no background information at all. you may be surprised what you notice!

if i had to get rid of one mental illness it'd be the NPD i fucking hate having NPD.

meenah is 20 and (vriska) is ambiguously 13~16 by the way, likely closer to 13 due to her dying when she was 13. it's a bigger age gap than aranea and jake.

homestuck generally seems to believe that sexual assault is exclusively a patriarchal thing. meaning the idea of "girl" assaulter kind of doesn't exist within homestuck.

example of homestuck doing the whole "i want to write about abuse but i dont want my ocs to be abusers" thing: is (vriska) supposed to be understood as a grooming victim by meenah or not? narratively shes treated as if she is, but also ignores the part meenah would've played in that.

i <3 stories about a parent growing attached to one of their nieces or their kids friend or their friends child over their own actual child. its so good.

despite both my parents being charged with child abuse neither of them acknowledge that there was any form of abuse beyond "your mother did heroin and your father slept during the day for his night job" and thats very frustrating.

highschool was just so fucking weird. i'd go into school with self harm marks all over my face and get cps called on me but in the same day i'd also get bullied by my fucking ART teacher.

a thread of things my art teacher did to me in highschool that i think about quite frequently.

i really appreciate the dialectal therapy i got as a child it's a bummer it happened because my parents convinced everyone i was an attempted serial killer because they found my homestuck fanfictions.

im bored of fetishizing boobs it makes me feel like a military soldier. im moving on now.

my moms pedophile boyfriend died of an overdose in my teens and when i was an adult i finally decided to check out his facebook to see what it was like. last thing he posted before he died was a horrible deez nuts meme abd one of the only memorial posts he has is someone cussing him out for a local

sucks i got the hell on earth life but its fine.

one time i had strep throat for about a month and a half and was completely bedridden snd i remember once it was over my voice had changed. i told ppl but they didnt seem to notice. as an adult ive gotten really angry at my mom for not doing anything bc i couldve got scarlett fever.

recently ive been learning a major reason why my stomach is so inflamed constantly all the time and im in pain all the time is because im having an allergic reaction to either wheat or gluten and when i dont eat it my symptoms randomly disappear. who wouldve guessed.

sometimes ill talk to an able bodied person and i'll lightly conplain about someone in my life doing ableist things and ill give them a preface of: this persons not malicious its just typical able body person-isms, i just need somewhere to vent it. almost every time the other person will be like.

i often feel a push to reclaim my disabilities in a selfish way. "be the person theyd hate to see" or "revel in the labels they put on you" which works for some people. ive written plent about the commonality of vengeance fantasies and disability. i think maybe i'd feel better about it if

one of the craziest stories his ex told me is that he used to hit her as a "joke" and while laughing and hitting her hed go "jake would call this abuse by the way! can you believe that! what a pussy!" while she was actively biting her tongue to hold back a pain response.

and now hes married to someone he immediately dated after cheating on me with our mutual friend and dating her for a while. didnt even wait a year to marry him. crazy.

sometimes i remember that im only 24 and i was once in a relationship that almost lasted eight years and that isnt even the only person ive dated for a prolonged amount of time. hahaha. *looks uncomfortable*

ive never liked a single interaction or stimulation ive ever experienced.

always fucking mad that im a hope player and not a rage one. what if i killed everybody and myself.

ive always been obsessed with dreams. im always trying to emulate a dream like feeling in every outlet of creativity i have. that said though, i hold a lot of jealousy towards people who get things out of lucid dreaming. im not sure if its the DID or what but when i was younger i trained myself

person and cat

my parents love to be like shhh shhhhhhh its ok shhhh hey its ok that we tried to kill you mutiple times hey shhh its ok. we were doing our best. we didnt know you were human can you blame us?

my delicious yummy tastiful treat that destroys my organs vs the evil disgusting yucky awful treat that destroys my organs

just wasted a bunch of fucking money buying drinks i literally cant drink because of the food dye in them because they released a new flavor with the sane exact can design the one i CAN drink has. fuck

last night there was some insanely transmisogynistic shit in the roleplay circles im in where rhey were posting real pictures of a real cosplayer and making jokes about eridan being a man who dresses like a woman to prey on lesbians and how ugly he is and how he needs to apologize to women while

ontop of spriting today ill also work on moving all my art to @sodachalice.bsky.social < my cool account where im not rabidly antisocial

smiling friends fan lashing out because pim is an amazing representation of an SA survivor in comparison to angeldust who in their words is "girlypop" and "written by a woman with a fetish for gay abused men" and repeatedly bringing up the fact that shes a woman and thats why its bad in their post.

both of these characters are drawn like they have the genetic disorder i'm diagnosed with

me, normally: what if they removed cinderellas teeth. what if they removed snow whites teeth. what if they r

gluten free mac and cheese is 4.97. the regular kind of the same brand is .99 cents. which is why i ate so much of it.

nothings tested my long streak of no suicide attempts like this gluten intolerance thing and i'm not kidding.

i love being in a relationship where i dont get a joke and i turn to my boyfriend and go i don't understand the joke can you explain it to me, and instead of making me feel stupid as fuck he goes "i dont knoe either" THATS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUTTTTT FUUUUUCL

if i had the physical abilities to make those masks that look like real characters faces from anime and stuff but with like the physicality of a real face i would immediately be doing that for homestuck characters and posing in them. undoubtedly.

i understand therains drive to be like "i genuinely cannot help my past lives" because i think about being the homestuck equivalent of that and im like oh yeah. okay. well i do understand that feeling then.

like kind of all hussie does is get into internet drama and then make comics about that internet drama

and how could i forget the epilogues and ao3. though that was entirely unsympathetic that was a very angry story. even the dancestors were kinder than that

the worst criticism i've ever seen of hiveswap/friendsim is that its "like if someone looked at homestuck and said 'yeah but what if it was about twitter drama and callouts'" and its the worst criticism because that's just an acknowledgement of what it is. like. yeah. yes. correct.

really need to seperate my art from this account at some point