spent a lot of today trying to make sense of a tapestry I’ve been thinking about for many months. not sure I fully figured it out, but progress I think.

friday

spending my evening remembering what feels like a different life lived by a different human, getting very stoned, listening to stuff like this, then making my own versions with a tiny tape player, autoharp, motors from cellphones and stuff i made from sculpy erstwhilerecords.bandcamp.com/album/open

In other bw mental health news I have started a rewatch of White Collar which is a great sign that Im just desperate for anything familiar and comforting. Nothing like some guilty pleasure copaganda about a con man and art forger.

In an effort to fix my my very bad brain being permanently stuck in misery/anger mode after the holidays, I made a plan to start a tapestry diary. An exercise to mostly provide some structure and timelines to designing and weaving 12 small pieces this year, all on one warp. I was maybe halfway

Celebrated new years eve by finishing my Bluets re-read and then falling asleep completely sober at like 8:45. 2026 seems like it will be a rough year in many ways, lets take care of each other.

The Quiet Apartment: play The Quiet Year but the map is the layout of your apartment. The Frost Shepherds are your landlord.

today I turned 44, drank some jester king beer, got a nice shirt and a board game about time travel, played a game about being nice to dragons, and am watching sans soleil. life is still very weird and exhausting but it was a nice day and I made it through another year successfully

Sometimes all you’ve needed for weeks is to talk to your best friend for nearly five hours while sitting in your car in a Target parking lot to feel okay.

I have survived the holiday and it was mostly fine. Got some books I’m very excited about, mostly Unsettling Catan: Detached Design in Eurogames by J Rey Lee and Cardboard Ghosts: Using Physical Games to Model and Critique Systems by Amabel Holland. Didn’t get a ton of games but got some very neat

The furnace broke. It's very cold, so we're having a sale on an appropriately chilly game!

I am reading a lot right now about the Russian Revolution and learning a game about the ensuing civil war and have played multiple games of a solo war game about the same war and it’s all made me really sad that so much of my education made me think history was uninteresting. Obviously I care more

YouTube does recaps now so I have verifiable proof that I’m a big @sbmakesstuff.bsky.social fan although tbh 100 seems like lightweight numbers given how much she put out this year, gotta get that number up next year. I blame my brief but heavy Planet Zoo obsession for distracting me.

ENDURANCE. I love this game for multiple reasons: its argument against the inevitability of history, its willingness to be strange, but most of all its dedication to fortitude. Everything about it is chilly. spacebiff.com/2023/03/23/e...

Because I’ve been bad at the self-promotion this year: Tomorrow is the last day of the Hollandays sale for Hollandspiele. They published my games Striking Flint and Heading Forward as well as many other games. This is your annual chance to get a discount on them. hollandspiele.com

And in other other news, my DOTA2 team has been looking so good in Wallachia. After a really rough last year it’s nice to see them finally coming together. Turns out when you take two of the most aggressive early game teams and semi combine them you uh, can win a lot once you gel a bit. Micke

In other news I found a used copy of this game for 10 bucks online and went ahead and got it. I care so little about wars in general but care about the Russian civil war more than most others. So found my first hexes and counters to try. boardgamegeek.com/boardgame/2998

I used to really love the holidays and since realizing I’m autistic it makes a lot of sense why, I slowly moved all my holidays to be solo ones and they were days I could be on my own and unmask in ways I never knew how to do and didn’t even understand I needed. Everyone was busy, I could respond in

oh no, I drank this last night and now I’m awake at 4 am steepster.com/teas/bitterl... my storage admittedly is not perfect but I don’t think this has aged particularly interestingly. Which is too bad as there’s quite a lot left. I remember I got this because I was scared of buying the

I was really tempted to get my first hexes and counters but financial wisdom prevailed so made my modest little order to support a publisher I love. I am very curious about Hartfield!! big recommend for Endurance and Heading Forward and This Guilty Land and Comet oh and Striking Flint! also

Q-Up is both a triumph and a nightmare of a video game. And I am pretty sure the latter is intended. I got to Novice w/ medic and it was at times miserable in exactly the way forcing yourself to climb ladder in multiplayer games is. Jack on Side Story called it Hell and they were exactly right.

“What keeps us going, ultimately, is our love for each other, and our refusal to bow our heads, to accept the verdict, however all-powerful it seems. It’s what ordinary people have to do. You have to love each other. You have to defend each other. You have to fight.” —Mike Davis

a little electoralism as a treat tonight

It’s finally cooling down in Texas and now all I want to do is drink raw puer I’m so excited for this little cake I probably shouldn’t have spent money on but looooooooooook at that tea 😍

I got two vaccines today and it only took 2.5 hours at an in network pharmacy and three phone calls in which every human involved said oh yeah this is covered, but the computers were telling everyone that for some reason for me in particular it was going to cost 250 dollars out of pocket.

hello and welcome back to bw posts about dota 2 to no one the international was rough as a liquid fan. They won 2024 but didn’t even get past the group stage this year. Then they let sabrelight go, which makes sense to me. I liked him but it never seemed to gel fully. Then Insania retired.

I understand intellectually and on some sense affectively that the cruelty is the point, but jesus christ, the destruction of the office that enforces special ed laws is so brutal. The harm this will cause, the massive amount of work it will take to get things back to the current not good state...

a keffiyeh plus autism skeleton with automatic rifles feels very important to me as we near the the end of 2025

family is away for a few days so I get to try a bigger scenario on the downstairs table, tomorrow we’ll see if I succeed

I made a silly little thing idk brkeogh.itch.io/automatic-fl...

Israel has just arrested Greta Thunberg and many others. Statement from the Global Sumud Flotilla: “People of conscience have been abducted. The flotilla broke no laws. What is illegal is Israel’s genocide, Israel’s illegal blockade of Gaza, and Israel’s use of starvation as a weapon.” 1/3

BREAKING: Israel has intercepted Global Sumud Flotilla vessels Alma and Sirius, according to activists onboard. 🔴 LIVE updates: aje.io/356qba

apparently in a posting mood, but also grateful I stumbled across people like Dan when I got into the hobby, who write and think about games in this expansive way, that is trying to understand the entire package, its context, its history, what it's trying to do, what it does well or fails at, etc.

I’m reading the rules to Cross Bronx Expressway because my copy arrived today and god games are so good and so cool and so fascinating. There’s so much care and attention here and I’m very excited to dig in and start playing later this week. www.gmtgames.com/p-953-cross-...

today I spent a long time on the phone talking about ttrpgs and narrative and affect theory and how much I love the Berlant book I’m reading. friday I saw 7038634357 live and it was incredible. yesterday was two years of me being here and it’s been a hard couple of years but the last week was nice.

Bothers me when people discuss Left movements in the U.S. w/out underscoring the GENERATIONS of repression, surveillance, violence directed at movements. The "Left" is so disorganized is used as a joke but I hardly ever see those same people saying 'THE LEFT WAS TARGETED & DISORGANIZED by the STATE'

I haven't pursued a diagnosis for like 900 million reasons, but the latest eugenics from this miserable place's government is mostly making think about how realizing I'm autistic only made my life better even as it has also been a very tough few years. But I have so much more understanding

I understand it is a video game about beavers, but after the last week I know SO MUCH more about how dams operate than I did before the past 7 days. Turns out I did not know very much about dams.

this is a fun thread. sharing because I really like SB's stuff. in large part because her LP's are all about exploring what is in front of her, testing systems and figuring out how they work. I'm not great at that sometimes, and she models being both very good at games and also at times

It’s easy to feel like you’re alone in the world but sometimes you get a tiktok on your fyp that is just footage of early babytron rapping but with screamo as the music and you’re like okay, these are also two things I love thank you tiktok

currently obsessing over how every page of the triangle agency is the best thing I’ve ever read, ttrpgs are so good

It would be cool to have a podcast about ttrpgs with the expressionist manifesto and all the related stuff going around but lol. I find it all so exciting to read and think with.

lol, lmao even

the entire time I've watched dota2 the only person I've met who knew what dota 2/ followed it was my therapist, and while I do miss her being my therapist, I kinda miss the check ins on what was happening in dota 2 more, since we just decided the first 10 minutes of session could be that if I wanted

NEW BRENDAN MURRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111!!!!11!! brendanmurray.bandcamp.com/album/knuckl...

Getting back to clay has been very good for me and also it’s so expensive that it’s also a little stressful. But I’m sketching ideas and wanting to weave again and I have missed having ideas. Gonna figure out how to spend money I don’t have to keep doing it tho

I failed at going to a concert a bit ago because I just couldn’t muster the energy to deal with being a person in public, but now 7038634357 is coming to Austin. This record came out right before I tore my life apart and it means so much to me. 7-0-3.bandcamp.com/album/neo-se...

For 3.5 weeks I was in a different state house sitting and cat sitting for some friends. I’ve been back for two weeks and every single day miss being in a quiet place with no other humans and a cat who liked to lay on me at every opportunity.

Sol Lewitt, ‘All ifs ands or buts connected by green lines’ (1973)