Has anyone used an artist or company they recommend that makes memorial jewelry with ashes? I'm still not sure how I want to commemorate her, but I know I want something I can keep on or very near my person. A necklace or a ring, maybe.

#petillness #petdeath #grief No availability later. Monday at 9am it is. The only thing keeping me from dissociating throughout all of this has been needing to be here+ present for her like she's been for me every day for over a decade. Still feels unreal.

Maybe I'll fly back to Chicago and stay with my brother. Meet my twin niblings. They've got two big retrievers. Maybe I can just hide in their guest room with the dogs and cry for a week there.

#petillness #pethospice #petdeath Likely to be Monday.

On the one hand, dealing with this by myself is unexpectedly much more brutal than I would've thought. On the other hand, if someone did try to offer their physical presence here right now amidst all my emotional vulnerability, I would probably try to hit them with a baseball bat. So uh. 😅

#petillness #pethospice Genuinely not trying to turn this account into pet loss liveblog, I'm so sorry, I'm just doing all of this solo and it helps to tell a stupid text box.

one of my cats peed on the ofmd blanket I bought from hbo, and I really wanted to replace it but I didn't want to give them money, so! I made my own file to get it printed on my own.

little fucker just startled the bejesus out of me by somehow finding the single inch of bare ankle skin under two full size comforters and giving it a huge exploratory lick while I thought she was fully conked out hhghghghhghghhhh 😒💕😂

#petillness #pethospice It's messing with me a ton that she's back to some amount of normal after all of this. I know she was 'normal' up until she wasn't before Monday, too, and it doesn't mean she's actually okay, but god its a mindfuck to just have her sleepywarm on me just like any other day.

#petillness #pethospice As expected, a hard but good talk. Reg vet talked about possible palliative efforts, set up a visit on the 30th to check her out in person if no further decline, and encouraged me to log notes on behavior etc until then. V helpful having a task + set date to reconvene soon.

cuddlin up in the bed covers on the couch (you can't see it but she's in my lap I'm just covered in blankets)

#petillness Call with our regular vet in 20min to go over the emergency vet's findings and talk options going forward for what's essentially hospice for Bart now. This will be hard but good to know. 🖤

Just going to drop this here with the promise that my tattoo definitely won't be Nazi-adjacent

There was a French bulldog named T-Rex that came in at the vet last night and honestly that made me smile even in the midst of being a total trainwreck over Bart. Her two very tall and imposing fathers brought her in after she hurt her back while playing (she's fine) and clearly loved her very much.

#petillness #petdeath I'm trying so hard not to get my hopes up, considering how serious we know her condition is, but she just. Seems so much like she's back to herself now, even with all the wobbly movement and awful coughing. Calling the vet to update them in the morning, so I'll know more then.

Every single one of you has shared in the joy this little peanut has brought me for the last 10+ years together. That alone is an unbelievable blessing, and I'm so grateful and thankful for you all *no matter how* we end up saying goodbye to her. Gentle soft nose nudges from Bart, and all my love.

#petillness #petdeath www.gofundme.com/f/help-bart-...

#petillness She's standing today and is in pretty good spirits, which is wonderful if she's able to maintain it. She still has a very limited amount of time left regardless, but at least this gives us (hopefully) another week, or month at absolute best. 🖤

#petillness Well. This really sucks. Mass in Bart's lung that can't be removed. She collapsed about 4 hours ago, still can't stand. If she's still unable to stand by tomorrow night, it's her time.

Emergency vet. Please send good thoughts, energy, vibes, anything. Love y'all.

Bleurgfgghghghh I want to apply to vend at this local holiday art market but they prefer artists with a social media presence (fair, but >:( ) and I forgot I deleted my art Instagram a while ago. Quick how do I buy a billion bot followers for a brand new insta 💀😂💀

How dare all my friends be as stupidly creative and talented as they all are. You fuckers. (Never stop.)

Let Tactical Frivolity Ring

THREAD bc this made my morning

If you're looking for an action to take tomorrow that can help protect millions of people regardless of their immigration status, call your governor to demand a ban on utility shutoffs this winter. Every state has slightly different policy– we got you covered.

[post no. 49759 about the incoherent frustrations of trying to create paintings reflecting feelings when you have alexithymia, a mood disorder, and really cheap paints 😂💀]

Everything in its global capacity makes me want to howl in despair and then bury myself in a rotting log to die, SO I'm making a post about the stuff keeping me from doing that, which I hope will grow to an ongoing thread I can look back through 300 times a day when I need to. ⬇️

1. HUGE breakthrough in the main plot of the Namkook for @celli that's been overdue for years, like I think I have the whole thing basically mapped with this idea now?? 2. Laughing at my outlines which are just me typing "ok ok ok so - [plot points]" into gdocs. 3. Fic vibe: youtu.be/CT0g_5NU6XA

#lrt Everyone should read everything by P. Djèlí Clark. He's one of the first novella authors I picked up to try reading a more adhd-friendly length of book and I was blown away then and continue to be again every time I pick up a new work from him.

Did you like Sinners? Do you like vampires and/or Black folk horror? Get yourself a copy of this. It's one of the best books I've read this year

The Regime's goal is to grind everyone down. Plain & simple. Our goal is to refuse this by taking turns to fight where and how we can. When one group needs to bow out, then another group needs to step in and so on. We don't all have to do everything. We can all do something though. Stay in the fight

I'm usually less than thrilled with being taller than the typical person, but having a 7ft+ vertical reach does come in SO handy for housekeeping tasks.

Everyone have a lovely reason to smile this morning: youtube.com/shorts/tzUk5...

I will never get tired of watching BTS members shamelessly cheat the pants off other contestants in variety shows. Run BTS was basically a college degree in tactical subterfuge and wiggling through any loophole in rules, and I'm delighted that they have zero compunction using those skills elsewhere😂

Showing up to the Halloween party as Sexy Existential Dread

Would recommend for everyone: What Is Not Yours Is Not Yours by Helen Oyeyemi (reread) + Would recommend for everyone but can't due to uh, obvious-from-the-title reasons: Dark Archives: A Librarian's Investigation into the Science and History of Books Bound in Human Skin by Megan Rosenbloom.

It feels like I have spent Every Money on winter insulation kits + curtains for the common area, but our oil bill has been so increasingly devastating over the past couple years and I need to cling to any hope I'll recoup some of the money spent now on a lower bill this winter. 💀🙏🏻🤞🏻

It’s important for the skyline to see this Epik High poster

just jimin holding puppies

Why am I able to mindlessly doodle really pretty unique lettering but the second I try to replicate it deliberately, everything goes to hell and looks wonky and terrible. THIS IS SO ANNOYING. LET ME DO THE THING. >:(

"Willis Tower." It's pronounced "Sears."

Illinois. 😒

They had JUST restocked all the clearance racks this morning. I have so many dog treats.

Everyone pray for me I'm going into TJ Maxx for clearance dog treats and ONLY THAT. It's never only that. 😔

FYI the reason they are still dead set on ACA repeal is that the ACA includes two small taxes on high earners: Additional Medicare Tax & Net Investment Income Tax. You don't see these, because they are only paid by the rich. They want to take our healthcare away to make their taxes go slightly down.

On Friday, we brought back Spooky Flytrap Fridays, and @sesmith.lol dug into the recent growth in queer and trans horror that explicitly explores the experience of living in a marginalized body--and what that has to do with millenials' inability to buy homes. the-flytrap.ghost.io/housing-haun...

Don’t give up hope