Oh hey, I did music for this! Go check it out 😁✨

The golden rule: do unto others as you’d have them do unto you, but if the rule on a card conflicts with this rule, follow the rules on the card

I had a bit of a mental breakdown yesterday as I realized @blueprincegame.bsky.social, a game I loved, had been wasting my time for 80+ hours, and that I wasn't enjoying it anymore. And it finally clicked why I had SUCH a strong response: Playing Blue Prince felt like my old abusive relationship.

I've been re-reading my old blog posts, Proto-Typing on BGG, and I stumbled across the line "So what do I, the arbiter of correct, think of this?" And good lord am I just tickled by that. Good job, past-me.

Dang, that's a hell of a question. Do I handle the decisions at... Myself? Do any of us? Who truly is in control of our own destiny?

I have so, so many just... Far too many opinions on Blue Prince that I'm outlining a multi-hour guide video and video essay... There's no way I actually put the time and effort into writing this out fully and producing it, right? ...right? 😥💦

Love how this one came together! Go give it a look! #boardgames

Y'all I'm so tempted:

I seriously can't thank everyone enough for all the love How to Teach has gotten the past year. We're over 1k subscribers, the channel is doing great, we've got new episodes coming out, and I'm able to afford rent. Life is really, really good. Here's to 29 🥂💙

QA testers are just like everyone else in the world, they put their pants on -1 leg at a time.

Hot ADHD/Anxiety trick! If you get anxious waiting on replies, if your messaging app has it, just archive/hide someone's chat after you send a message. Once it's out of sight, you stop worrying about it, and then it's a pleasant surprise if they respond.

(phone makes any noise) Me, like a demon: WHO DARES TO SUMMON ME!?

I did the thing, please clap. #boardgames #shelfie

I see stuff like this and my brain immediately enters early-onset ADHD hyper focus where it thinks it can do anything and starts coming up with plans on how to make a wizard game with this, and it's like... Calm down. You can put the ideas in your notes app as a treat, and then get back to work.

Man, even with better planning I still have three projects crashing down at the same time 🙃

CW: Sexual Assault As someone who went through a situation that is comparable only a week or two ago, I wish I had heard this kind of verbiage describing the situation so I could've realized how better to handle the situation, both in the moment and afterwards.

Most people wake up in a cold sweat because of a nightmare, or they came up with a genius invention, or religious experience. Meanwhile my brain wakes me up in a cold sweat to tell me that hammocks are the opposite of weighted blankets. It is 6AM 😑

"My blender of a brain produce[s] an answer smoothie" is probably the realest way I've ever described my thought process for anything.

Some photos from my photo walk the other day. #photography

There was one board game trivia question tonight, which is to say I only got one trivia question correct tonight.

Me: "So you'll eat a gummy candy if it's in the shape of a fruit?" My autism: "Or bear, yes." Me: "And any other shape is an-" My autism: "An abomination, yes."

As always, I'm super proud of the latest Kickstarter video I've put together but no matter how much I love it there's always a million things I'd love to change or fix or tweak. Done > perfect, just gotta keep telling myself that.

Filming stuff, filming stuff, filming stuff...

This will be the one The haiku that's not meta God fucking damn it

Well, flights been delayed like 6 hours, time to ponder the Pringle jellyfish in the Indiana Airport.

So! I'm gonna share this for those who might feel the same thing here at #GenCon EVERY convention, after it starts, usually at the end of a random day, my anxiety flares up, and I feel like everyone hates me and blah blah blah. It happens so often that I've now started to recognize the pattern.

Want to see some video production of mine? The new how to play video I put together for @solisgamestudio.bsky.social's Massive-Verse Fighting Card Game is up! Go give it a looksie! games.solisgamestudio.com/MassiveVerse...

Paging @derekbgayle.bsky.social that a new arcade machine popped up in my local Round1. The godzilla in the middle spins like a ballerina music box.

En route to #GenCon and I'm already feeling like I forgot twelve things, this is not a good sign.

I made an announcement on patreon that the next episode was going to be on Codenames, and I had the full script and plan for the episode done. I'm not going forward with the episode unless something is done about this, which is a shame.

YESSSSSSSSS 🥰💙

I resisted the urge to write "It's way less depressing for a client to buy a video, not part of my finite time on earth" in an email. I'm such a professional.

🥲🙏 I'm so close...

Why does camera equipment have to be so expensive 😭

Just slept for like 16 hours lol Origins into Dice Tower was definitely a lot lol

And today is the day. After almost 2 months off, we are back and streaming over at twitch.tv/punklenix Gonna go live at 10am CT Crafting and chatting as I work on these Irish Coffee Mugs and sun catchers! Come on by and say hi, I would love to see you in chat!

I need more pink tank tops in my life. Someone purchase me this pink tank top.

I dunno if I've mentioned it here, but archiving messages with people you find yourself obsessing over right after you send a message of any kind to them helps alleviate so much anxiety about being left on read by them. It's so nice, I highly recommend it to anyone with social anxiety.

Something that's *super* good for your mental health is to just archive messages and emails you're being left on read for and just forget about them. If you really care then you'll remember to follow up, and if they really care they'll send you something first.

Dangit, just got the "No" for the project I was really, *really* hoping to get. It'd have been like the single biggest move for my career so far. 😭 Welp, hopefully some of the other possibilities pull through from that otherwise the convention is like a HUGE net loss financially for me 😩

Where are all the posts talking about how awesome and cool Witches Quarrel is, and how its Kickstarter just launched? It's a quick compact legacy game and it's rad af. www.kickstarter.com/projects/rak...

I’m down to ~60 copies of Out of Sorts from the original 300, which is exciting! It’s not quite enough do a proper marketing push… and I’m not sure what I’ll be doing once they’re gone (tarriffs, life, other projects etc…) so grab a copy while they’re here! www.alwaysawake.games/product/out-...

It has been a few months since Super Boss Monster was released, and we always have the next Spell up our sleeve 😉 Stay tuned for a super-sized announcement on Monday!

John is a delight! Glad we got to meet too 😁✨

En route to Origins! 😁✨

This service showed incredible promise when I used it at BGG last year, and I have nothing but confidence that if any gaming group adopts it for their game nights, it'll get them playing more games, more frequently, and with greater efficiency. Plus, I can see it being even better for conventions.

Gooooorgeous work from Xero as always 😍💙

I think the one part of corporate nonsense I still don't understand is hourly rates for jobs without a time context. Like, manning a storefront for 8 hours? Hourly makes sense. You have a task that needs completed? Why do you care how long it took, you're paying for the task to be completed?

Splurchase (n) SPLER-chess - a purchase of an item that is a bit of a splurge.