we cuddle, we kiss, we have sex, we say I love you to each other everyday… I feel like he has me on a leash. why do you act like you love me but won’t get back together with me. why am I still not good enough

I’ve been home alone most days and it makes me feel so lonely. I overthink so much and make myself sad

I have all this restless energy and I don’t know what to do with it besides chain smoking cigarettes and craving food but every time I eat, I feel guilty.

i hate being bloated it makes me want to tear my skin with my nails

me in pigtails

I could sleep forever and still feel tired

1 year 6 months sober tomorrow

I’ve also been off of my venlafaxine for over a month now and apparently venlafaxine is infamous for its brutal withdrawals which I did not know. so I’ve been having random crying spells and crazy vivid dreams while sweating in my sleep. how long does this fucking last for

me except with a Nintendo switch for animal crossing instead of an Xbox controller

I’ve been eating so much the past couple days, I think it’s the helplessness where I can’t do anything about the processing of my background check. All I can do is wait. I want this assembly job so bad but I have a suspicious record 😐

need a cig and to cry in the shower

i wish to sleep for a week someone feed me snacks so i dont have to get up

do you ever feel like your favorite person is purposely avoiding you even though realistically you KNOW they’re just very busy, but you still try to find reasons why they hate you now 🙃

Me taking off my undies like it’s going to make a difference because I’m delusional 😉

Me looking at thinspo on Pinterest 😐

I poured out 4 of my boyfriend’s beers that were in the fridge because I was feeling emotional and triggered by the alcohol and my kinda-boyfriend thought it was a personal attack on him. No I’m not trying to be vindictive I’m trying to protect my sobriety.

ME. I will even take cute half-naked selfies but I don’t even send them to anyone 😐

this is so cute. where can I find heels like this

secret: I smoke cigarettes on the toilet to help me poop in the morning

I need to let my eyes close I need to let my body soften I need to let the storm pass

I might just pierce my eyebrow next myself idk I don’t care anymore

it makes me wonder if my feelings are even significant enough to matter

I applied for Denso. I’m hoping and praying with all my heart that they like me and hire me. I’m ready to be a mindless factory slave 💕✨💕✨😉💖✨💕😘🤪✨💖

hire me or I kill myself

why am I not worthy of being loved why why why why why

looking at girls that are prettier than me makes me genuinely suicidal like what is the point of continuing my existence when I know I’m fighting a losing battle because there will always be someone prettier and thinner and better than me

i’m tired and i feel unwanted and fat

i feel so empty. but it’s a peaceful kind of empty

Okie so i had a salad and a smoothie. My hands were shaking holding the fork. I felt so guilty yet excited at the same time. Breaking my fast felt like I was doing drugs and it was my little secret. Is this normal. Why am I acting like a feral little creature over some lettuce

Girls be like: "I'm playing my comfort game" The game:

Yay here is my first poem I’ve written since being completely sober!! I stayed up all night x_x

I really wish there wasn’t a character limit here because I rly want to share a poem I spent hours writing but it’s too long 😑

I really hope I can stay positive today and not be so sensitive and take everything personally 💔💔💔

???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? I WOULDNT WISH BEING MENTALLY DISORDERED ON MY WORST ENEMY ????????????????????????????????????????

I used to do this every Sunday 🙃 eventually they stopped scheduling me because they knew I was too unreliable to show up 🙃

i'm so fat i should die

feeling lovelorn because he broke up with me knowing my happiness depends on the way my favorite person treats me (him) but he doesn’t want me to leave, he still wants to house me and provide for me. What does this mean

Me

What I wouldn’t give for an American Spirit right now 😑