im huge. i cant keep living like this.

weighed in and gained 6lbs

i will be working hard to avoid all offered food this holiday season

what am i even living for if im not trying my best to be who i want to be

another month wasted

i feel absolutely awful when i dont vent on here everyday bsky will never be rid of me

my resentment is growing sm i may buy paper plates and plastic forks for a couple months just to prove a point

upset that my fav pho spot is closed on mondays

why can i never be skinny and have a good job at the same time

i need to trigger myself every single moment of every day until i finally pull myself together

i love making diet plans then never following through

my hips r so thick 🤢🤢

feeling so disgusting lately. i just cant muster the willpower. last week was the perfect time to restrict and i just binged like crazy.

you ever listen to a song that makes ur brain itchy

tbh im a fat failure

i miss having tiny legs

im not even going to weigh in until ive done 2 weeks of monos. i saw a roll putting on my pants this morning.

i miss vaping

lets refocus onto the skinny agenda

i did the thing! not fired 😍

+⠀ ⠀ ⠀˚⠀ ⣴⠟⠉⠉⠛⢦⡀⢀⣴⠛⠉⠈⠙⠻⣄ ⠀⠀⣼⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠙⠋⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠹⣦ ⠀⠀⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿ ⠀⠀⠿⣆⠀ ⠀ -20 lbs ⣰⡆ ⠀⠀⠀⢻⣦⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⡼⠃ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠻⢦⣄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⡴⠛ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠛⠶⣄⠶⠋ ⠀⠀⠀+. *

sighs heavily

i am addicted to leaving the scene

best part about getting my license is the time ive saved

its crazy how i can just drive anywhere freely without waiting

wave to the local fatty (me) while scrolling past

stress eating

after this work thing (if im not fired in 3 days) im going to sleep for days and actually restrict so well

Me when ⭐ving involves feeling hungry (shocking)

i hate my body so much ive started to hate my tattoos too i need to stop bc that shit is permanent. at least i can lose weight.

i hate that my future rests on MY shoulders

hopefully my bachelors will work for me once i have the experience. trying my best not to fuck up on the job.

I’m glad I stayed alive. I want all of you to stay alive too, just in case puzzle pieces start falling into place suddenly like they did for me. Please, give yourself more time. You have no idea what the future holds.

job stress transforming into financial stress. one day i will no longer have this weight on my shoulder.

im addicted to watching people stalk me on linkedin

i want to feel pretty again

i bought that walking pad for work but i cant walk and concentrate on work

why is it so easy for people around me to lose weight

yogurt mono today

ive gotten more comfortable with driving but still no highway time yet

ive run like 3 red lights this past week ☹️ yellow light in the area by my work is 2 seconds max! that should be illegal 😓😓😓 i live in fear of a ticket

ugh still fat no progress

Me after looking at the scale this morning

my next gw is 126 ill be back

just a normal healthy girlie with delusions of edeeee

i feel so invalid whenever im so active here and maintaining

had a medium latte 😫 cant skip the gym today

i need to ⭐️arve for my future gf. she doesnt deserve a whale.

it’s embarrassing to be hiding out this halloween. nothing would look good on me anyway so whatever.