today has skinny vibes

i thought i would be 120 this month and start dating again but i just disappointed myself instead

i’ve decided i will no longer be the friend that initiates facetimes or phone calls

my new apartment is so nice i feel an overwhelming pressure to decorate it perfectly so much so that i am frozen in indecision. i likely won’t decorate at all

everytime i eat i receive another sign that i should ⭐️ve today’s sign is an oil stain from salad dressing on my dress pants

my dress pants are just ill fitting enough that they don’t look right but not loose enough that I can get them mended to a lower size

can i please escape 127 again 😭

i feel so ugly it is indescribable

going to scroll regretful parents and watch naked and afraid clips to make myself feel better about my life

i feel like a mouse in a mouse trap

stressed

when i think about my weight and the progress i’ve lost my stomach starts to hurt. i should be 122 this week.

126.7 today i’m going to be super active today and drink a lot of water

thank fuck it is friday. 4 more hours of the bs

i am the stinkiest girl on the planet

weight in at 127 today. so i’ve gained. ofc.

wfh makes me stress eat. work in office makes me stress ⭐️ve.

still fat & still avoiding accountability

i started day drinking then ate a million things. i’m waiting six hours before I can go out and pick up some household things.

it’s upsetting moving out of a unit fatter than when you moved in

goodnight 💕sweet dreams bloomfs

some days my cats really are the only reason

i wish i could live my life without feeling like there is something missing

the hollow empty feeling in my heart cannot be filled with food

basically a lot going on.

the cringe i feel post work after i cracked some jokes with my colleagues and crickets

setting boundaries is so scary

in my mind maybe my bff will have time for me when i’m back at my lw

i can feel the friendship shriveling up in real time

i get so anxious when things in my life are changing

shocked everytime

my greatest enemy is myself

weighed in

i think being an avid fantasy reader as a child contributed to my chronic depression as an adult. how can the world be so boring? where are the dragons?

as i grow older the more i see the appeal of the countryside

i miss my hometown sometimes because the lakes were sublime

cannot wait for it to cool down a bit so i can be more outdoors

my coworkers wouldn’t be able to find their way out of a paper bag with a map

need to go back to binging on beans and not high cal junk food

i’m not kidding i look like i gained 10lbs 😭😭😭

try not to ruin all your wl progress in 3 days Mode: impossible

my singular goal is to not binge today

i am so fat actually LOL i refuse to weigh in yall

i took monday and maybe today as a sick day. i need a break from the stress at work.

😑 6 hrs and 2000 calories later

i want to binge so badly today

all of the pictures coming out of co@chella are so triggering. 🙌 i am actively seeking out the best ones. i need to be better at this eeeeddddd stuff

worked myself to the fucking bone today and yet watch me wake up fat tomorrow anyway. its my special magic trick i call 'being a failure'

is it too much to ask to be 124 by saturday