Dogs really put you through it. If there’s a noise I hate the most it’s tooth grinding. What does my dog do? Flop onto me all cute, head against my head, so cuddly, and then GRINDS HIS TEETH RIGHT NEXT TO MY EAR. Oh my god I hate it I hate it I hate it

Going off-roading (running errands in SE Portland)

I was in college when gamergate started and at 19 I remember being like oh damn if I no morals and just purposefully misinterpret everything my peers and professors do I could get a paid spot on right wing news but looking back I could have never shared bad essays. I was too obsessive about grammar

I did not clean today. I did not pack today. I did write a to do list. I’ve got under a 1000 square feet of living space to clean and pack so it couldn’t be so bad right? (it’s gonna be so bad I have so many shelves of shit)

Babe wake up the fascist deportation state and Sabrina carpenter are fighting again

I called my mom and she texted that she’s going to a movie with friends but she’ll be back around 10. Did I just become my own grandmother?

Can’t escape the race science. Wanna watch sports? Here’s an announcer doing race science. Wanna have a normal convo with family? Impossible have some race science instead

Bro why does my cousin keep sending me race science? Like I get that it’s baked into nearly everything existing in this god forsaken country and maybe you miss some dog whistles but you don’t need to send me shit about how grandparents pass down intelligence like it’s obviously not true look at you

I have three weeks to move out of my place so of course now I have all the inspiration in the world to write pages and pages and none to clean and pack. Brains are weird dude

I’m watching this thing about passport bros and I haven’t been this scared since I watched love is blind. It’s scarier considering there’s (presumably) no production team pushing them to say this shit. Horrifying

I have to watch stranger things bc one of my favorite kids was so excited to talk about it and then we started talking about our favorite monsters in general but I know he wanted to just talk stranger things and if I show up next week without having watched season five this kids gonna roast me

Being an adult is hard because I have to keep ignoring the urge to stop everything I’m doing and get a pinup tattoo of divine in pink flamingos

ALTMAN: And so you can use Sora to generate interesting videos of you and your friends, all with AI. FALLON: (giggling) So, heh, so that's a video of me in space, wow! ALTMAN: Exactly. FALLON: Could you generate a video of me where I'm not just a useful clown for fascism? Where my work has meaning?

I just feel so bad for the kids I work with. They’re so great and they already have so much shit to deal with being that age at any time, but then you have to be like here’s what we do if ice comes? Idk why that feels like a million times worse than my school shooter drills in school but it does

Like the global understanding of we’re fucked, we’ve destroyed the climate, there’s a baseline level of existential dread to cope with were all things my peers and I dealt with but I look at kids today and it’s like Jesus Christ this is an awful time to grow up. Being 13 is hard enough already

What’s so interesting about being born in the mid 90s is older adults look at you being a little kid during 9/11 and middle schooler in the recession and are like that kind of uncertainty must have been rough and I’m looking at the kids in school now and I’m like Jesus I had it easy

It would suck if I got covid and I just assumed my throat was sore from smoking fatties constantly for a week straight so I hope I don’t jinx myself but: holy shit is my throat sore from smoking fatties all week

Saw that it’s Britney’s birthday today and my first thought is that our country has so much to answer for. Like ignore our nations history, say we aren’t borne of blood and theft, still unforgivable just based on what we’ve done to that woman since she was a child

We were talking about fights we got in as kids and I realized how much better fights were than being psychologically destroyed by the girl in my junior year English class. Like I wish she had just beat me up I wouldn’t have been such a suicidal 16 year old.

Yesterday i was overwhelmed with urge to go to the woods and do mushrooms and now all I can think about is doing mushrooms with jimmy beast and it really ruined the intrigue of a late fall trip

I did not watch war crimes, but war crimes were certainly present as I think is the case with most of the award winning docs no one will pick up

You know you’re about to watch a fucked documentary when it’s described to you as foreign, won some awards, and it’s not on any streaming service but I have a link

Stars are pretty. I don’t know if you knew this but just a reminder. They’re so pretty

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RIP to everyone at thanksgiving who has to pretend to care about someone shooting the national guard lest they start some shit and their mom gets mad at them

I have slept a total of four very interrupted hours. I have never felt less like I could sleep than rn. I am like 95% certain I’m more awake now than I will be the entirety of my long weekend off. So it goes.

I don’t go home for thanksgiving and it’s not like a huge deal that I’m not doing anything but I don’t like that not having thanksgiving plans is going to inevitably mean I watch strangers things tomorrow bc I love torturing myself with things that should have ended years ago

Having that big crushing depression moment. I need to see my enemies fail. That will fix this

I didn’t watch secret lives of Mormon wives but I did just watch a YouTube that’s over an hour long of an ex Mormon explaining why Mormons are like that (besides the contrived reality tv drama) and now I’m like maybe I should watch the trash reality tv

I briefly forgot I was in the middle of the Los Angeles fires this year. Weed nowadays is so good

Starting Pluribus and I really hope it’s not overhyped because I could use a good gilligan and I love the idea of enjoying him without an obvious main character villain a bunch of losers idealize

I stepped outside for a cig and immediately saw a shooting star. Never let anyone tell you to quit

“2025 is literally just 2003” I say with confidence despite being in 2nd grade when we invaded Iraq

I hate when people give you good advice like god dammit I was sad and then I did some physical activity and played some music and I feel better. Just upset to not be upset I guess?

My neighbors moved their tv a few days ago and I can see it whenever I let the dogs out to pee and I can’t help but stand for a little bit and figure out what their watching which is definitely weird but like there’s suddenly bright lights where there used to be nothing how do I stop

MTG: (((they))) have infiltrated the trump admin. Also don’t forget I hate trans women and queer people in general with an alarming passion Good take havers: what an inspiring change of heart

I really feel bad for christy martin like your biopic is just a joke bc the star is a piece of shit and you have a life worthy of a good biopic. This isn’t nyad. It’s a reverse nyad. I think. Christy martin wasn’t also doing anti trans horseshit for the times right?

Am I starting to feel sick bc I’m getting a bug/covid or is the state of the state of the world/personal stress making my chronic illness worse so my normal meds aren’t helping: the eternal question

Chomskys career is just Be wrong about linguistics Get owned by Foucault on human nature Be right about American imperialism (easy take, bunch of ppl have it) Deny genocides Be right about American journalism and imperialism (another easy take) Email pedophile

Can we all agree Noam Chomsky sucks and has only been right about one thing and so fucking wrong about everything else in his career? Like we can just leave him behind and understand manufacturing consent as it’s own concept without giving him any props right?

The amount of psychic damage I receive each time I’m forced to read the words vibe coding

Can you modge podge a skeleton? I feel like I’m about to modge podge one of my skellies

One of these days my grandparents are gonna die and I’m gonna go back to family events and one of the uncles or older cousins is gonna have forgotten what I’m like and walk right into getting roasted and it’s gonna be glorious

This week has been incredible for my imposter syndrome and nothing else. Between the emails and the absolute slop passing for political journalism, I’ve never felt better about my ability to parse information and write about it. I didn’t even feel this good about myself after finishing my thesis

Got recognized as the free cig person on 82nd today. I have peaked. This is it for me and I’m happy with that

This whole week has reawakened all these memories of reading Lolita in class. Luckily I had a great professor who was not a humbert humbert apologist but I still get a little mad I got a critique for my “humbert humbert represents America” point bc he was European. I still think the point stands

I just took a res hit for nostalgias sake. I’m not broke. I have weed. I just thought why not for old times sake it’s not like res hits were really that bad it was just fun times with a paper clip It was that bad. What was I doing as a teenager? Just awful awful

Bigots who absolutely believe trump is bad because he was involved in a gay jewish pedophile cabal: trump bad Resist libs: this is my new favorite politician

I like how when the sun is out and about to be gone for like a week if not more, my body hurts too much to do anything outside. Thanks body. So cool of you to do that for me.