I feel like everyone expects me to be at a different stage in "getting better", and telling the truth feels like I am disappointing them. It feels like I am constantly disappointing them. Not waking up as a new me the next morning.

I'd like to find a word for this, but It feels like I have a need, a strong need, to always cut contact or push someone away once they've gotten closer to me - I've done this repeatedly with past friendships. Recent ones more so.

Grognak the Barbarian Power Armor #fallout #fallout4 #fallout76 #conceptart #characterdesign

Power Armor - Model "Tusk" #fallout #fallout4 #fallout76 #conceptart #characterdesign

I guess there was a limit to how much my brain could handle obsessive thoughts. A twig snaps if bent hard enough.

A take on a cryptid in the Post-apocalyptic world of Fallout, the "Dover Demon" #fallout #fallout4 #fallout76 #conceptart #characterdesign

A set of 'Deep Diver' power armor + skins #fallout #fallout4 #fallout76 #conceptart #characterdesign

"What If" design for a prototype power armor developed in Finland in pre-war Fallout #fallout #fallout4 #fallout76 #conceptart #characterdesign

I just can't see the grass being greener over the horizon, that It gets better. Even tho you say words of encouragement, I can't trust those words. I never can, and I think I never will.

A goat and a tiger cuddling <33 #zosan #onepiece #art

WIP of Knight and the catching of merman [ #oc | #art | #wip ]

arac. gouache painting on paper. 2018

gansai Monkeys🐒

fish. gouache on paper

Just realized that since I deleted all my old posts off IG that I don't have this posted on any of my socials so let's fix that

flaydem. oil painting on linen from around 2017. 11x14 inches

questions #MerMay

Raise your hand if you're a fan of bright red artworks, tieflings, space and stuff, or eldritch horrors beyond your comprehension #art #ocart

If I knew now what I knew then #artpost #undertale #deltarune

TONGUE TIED [ #art #sonaart #ocsky #eyestrain #snakes #monsterart ]

#oc #art #illustration

I'm tired of this

//Warning: Suicidal ideation// Right now, today, I've felt the most lonely I have for a long time - It's my birthday, my family nor I really celebrate It. And I am totally ok with that, It's my role to come up with something special for myself now.

Some sketches I’ve been sitting on that I’m still pretty happy with. Red pencil lead is A++++ 😤👍

GHOST RIDER

Spent 5 hours painting something that sucked and scrapped it. So it’s just more old stuff until then. “Living My Best Life” Graphite on paper

only the lonely

My painting LAKESHORE

me. gouache on paper, 2019

“The one lovely thing I dreamt of” #art 🌹✨

"hope you guessed my name"

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dance 🚫 dance 🚫 dance

[Rulers] #godzilla

a world without trans people has never existed and never will

Dom 💋

WIP of Knight and the Kiss of Spellbound [ #art | #oc | #ttrpg ]

Some designs from "The Ghost In The Shell" anime series by Science Saru (2026).

•cutting weeds•

Gold•Rush

Posting rough wip from my backlog so I'll be pressured to one day finish it ⚔️ [ #kcd2 | #hansry | #art ]

Slow progress but progress is still progress. Will be busy this weekend but I'm determined to make the most of this animation! #procreateartist #procreatedreams #zelda

Link anim exercise from last year #art #zelda #animation #totk