ate half of this shit and followed it with a pastry cuz I’m huge as fuck and I have zero self control even tho I complain about being fat constantly

Damn säķurä has obviously always been tiny (they all are) but it’s insane to see how tiny she is compared to the others who are also skinny as fuck

imagine being as perfect and tiny as her 😭🥺

BC // I know I’ll cry if i actually put these photos up against pics of myself from last year

I lost five pounds but it’s not enough, I need to lose weight waaaayyyyy faster

bf said my arms are ‘mad skinny’ bro is fucking delusional, I’m huge as fuck and I need to lock tf in and get skinny again fr

BC // I need someone to call me fat as fuck to force me to lock in better 🥲🥲🥲

my favorite part about restricting is fiending for anything tasty and taking little bites of anything u might see nearby 💀💀💀

How sick and twisted is it that I love when my bf gets worried when I say I haven’t eaten yet that day 🥴🥴🥴

Trying this the next time I’ve got a not too busy week

My human hair extensions come in the mail today so I can finally do blowout curllssss 

Was almost having a good body image day, and then i remembered my midsection is COVERED IN LARD

VS was AMAZING 😭😭😭 (I have similar proportions to Qůen I must get my waist as tiny as hers)

Clothing sizes for women is HELL I found the cutest dress at a consignment shop and it was labeled an XL so why tf does it fit me perfectly as someone who typically wears a size S/M in the United States?? I know I’m not tiny by any stretch of the imagination but good god my waist is 28 inches

where are my ppl that relapse into their ed as a form of age regression because childhood was lowkey traumatizing 🤪🤪🤪

I’m gonna starve ts outta myself today since I had the audacity to eat 900 cals yesterday

I’m gonna dream about this slice of pizza for the rest of my life fuuuccckkkkk

Me when

tell me why I spent $30 on those dumbass kind patches being advertised on TikTok shop HGSDJJDJD, I forget to wear them most days annnyywwaayyysssss

I am awaiting painfully to get offered a new job for multiple reasons! 1.) I h8 working in food service 2.) I need a less labor intensive job so that I can restrict lower than 1200 cals a day

my favorite aesthetic is ‘celeb being painfully obvious about their body checking’

In case I haven't been uh. Like. Real transparent, if you believe a word the orange man says, we can't be friends man

my $30 Amazon watch!!! Filled my circles 🤓

Admitted to my therapist that I still have times where I give into my ed thoughts but I made it sound like ‘harm reduction’ hehehe actually working on restricting again tho

I love rebranding a relapse as ‘healthy’ and ‘a lifestyle change’

my hobby is pretending to make ‘self improvement’ content on tiktok and then I’m just actually trying to starve myself

someone needs to confiscate food from me, i keep eating and eating

If I just don’t eat for the rest of the day I’ll be fine I’ll be fine

#edsky #caterpillarsky

www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8h4yMy8/ The fact that I’m less obsessive with my routines as someone who’s admittedly eating disordered. She pisses me off so bad like it gets to a point, can we just admit this is ortho 💀💀💀

giant shake shack meal for OMAD and now I feel like a fucking fat ass

i want to get underweight just to get the euphoria of an anorexia diagnosis.

bruh my bf’s sister has a waist trainer….SHE IS LITERALLY THE TINIEST PERSON IVE EVER MET SHE CANT BE MORE THAN LIKE 100 LBS….triggered 💀

OH MY GOD GETTING A BINDER HAS CURED LIKE 30% OF MY BODY DYSMORPHIA

BC arm

if ur an ᗩTIᑎY is ᗯOOYOᑌᑎG’ᔕ weightloss also triggering tf out of u 😭😭😭 I love him and the group so so so much but watching him rn is so deeply triggering

co worker took this candid of me and I’m gonna throw up I looked so fucking fat and hideous

restricting after the age of like 24 is no joke 💀💀💀 like damn I used to be able to do this shit AND go to dance practice as a teenager

exactly where you’d expect me to be

working in food service is the fucking worst when I’m literally obsessed with food. I either need a desk job or I need to stop snacking on everything my fat ass sees at work.

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restricting on ur period is literal hell on earth and yet I’ll continue to do it

lost two whole ounces in two days 💀💀