spencer🔪
@spencerpart2.bsky.social
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he/him | 20 | loser | alcoholic in training
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new intro post bcz i change it every few months lol ▪️spencer ▪️local mentally ill man ▪️20 ▪️i spam post during breakdowns ▪️budding alcoholic :3 ▪️tw for s3lf harm and suicidal shit. ▪️no specific dni just don't b a cvnt
1 day ago
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just lied my ass off in a voicemail to my boss lmao
about 10 hours ago
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my whole body is like tingling. i'm so nervous and dreading work right now. i really fucking don't want to work through the saturday dinner rush.
about 15 hours ago
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last ditch efforts to find a place to live are underway. i'm not particularly religious but genuinely if any of you guys are throw a prayer out into the universe for me i need all the help i can get man 😭
about 15 hours ago
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i need to get out of this job. genuinely it is already crushing me. it's exhausting having to talk to people pretty much constantly for even the 3-4 hours i'm working.
1 day ago
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really wish i was happy. im not. don't know how happy i'll ever be tbh
1 day ago
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life feels so suffocating all of a sudden
1 day ago
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shoulders to knees ive got nowhere but all the places with important blood vessels and arteries n shit. like i don't wanna DIE. i just wanna bleed a little lol
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1 day ago
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why do i suddenly wanna relapse just a little bit. as a treat for getting a new job LMAO.
1 day ago
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gonna get drunk as shit tomorrow night. i get paid so i don't feel bad blowing $70+ dollars at the liquor store lmao
1 day ago
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new intro post bcz i change it every few months lol ▪️spencer ▪️local mentally ill man ▪️20 ▪️i spam post during breakdowns ▪️budding alcoholic :3 ▪️tw for s3lf harm and suicidal shit. ▪️no specific dni just don't b a cvnt
1 day ago
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new music dropped today so i apologize if i am especially annoying for a bit lmao
1 day ago
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new ink song and bro why they always got this boy breathin on the mic
1 day ago
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i liked her too she was chill so why tf is she disregarding the only fuckin thing i asked of her
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1 day ago
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so i literally don't have a day off work until next saturday
1 day ago
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this is silly. but i'm sitting in a mcdonalds after work, and something about texting my best friend while i eat shitty french fries kinda feels like adult life and i think i'm okay with this right now.
3 days ago
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genuinely why do i absolutely shatter under any sort of pressure
3 days ago
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i feel like im going to have a nervous breakdown one of these days
3 days ago
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already losing my mind
3 days ago
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maybe i should be medicated. i don't know. how do i balance having a job and also feeling emotions? because either i feel things other than suicidal ideation or i get a paycheck
3 days ago
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i think i'm a little more mentally ill than i thought because after one shift at my new job i genuinely want to relapse
3 days ago
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alr so my first solo shift at my new job sucked absolute NUTS.
3 days ago
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5wks on T :3
3 days ago
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help i have to talk to old people with my very visible arm scars exposed. pray for me
4 days ago
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grief is weird. i keep thinking about my uncles necklace. me and my mom haven't been able to find it, he gave it to my mom for me before he died.
5 days ago
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cutting my hair
6 days ago
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my voice keeps cracking omg
6 days ago
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i don't watch the boys but tbh i think homelander could've been (mostly) normal if yk, he wasn't in a like government research facility his whole childhood or whatever the fuck that place was.
7 days ago
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bro seriously. PLUS. alternative and visibly trans, mostly serving elderly, old fashioned farm folk. god help me.
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8 days ago
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why did i, a mostly asocial man with chronic pain and shitty joints pick a job that requires customer service and standing for long periods. god i am an idiot lmak
8 days ago
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9 days ago
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trying to figure out how to tape my hip because unfortunately, my altered gait from my knee pain has caused issues with my hips 🥲🥲🥲
9 days ago
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looking at the sky is an infinitely more accurate way to predict the weather than the weather forecast. fym light rain the sky looks like the noahs about to get the boat dawg
10 days ago
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melatonin is so unless. i have nightmares and sleep like shit
10 days ago
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what if i stopped eating again...methinks im gonna try that again, see if it make me feel better about myself lol
10 days ago
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new goal. move out of my parents house before my voice starts to drop because i'd rather not have that conversation while i'm living with them
10 days ago
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my voice is already starting to change. it's been a month and i haven't told my parents im on T yet
11 days ago
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time for a game of nap roulette. let's see if i wake up in 45 minutes or 7 hours
11 days ago
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i severely underestimated how much more i would sweat on T
11 days ago
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did my T shot today. my hands get so shaky so it lwk fuckin hurt
11 days ago
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he complains about her all the time. dad wtf u want ME to do about it? like yeah she's kind of a loonie sometimes but also...idk man shit ain't changing any time soon.
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11 days ago
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i am sensing a very tense energy in my house rn and it's making me exceptionally uncomfortable
11 days ago
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bro fuck this i'm switching to T gel the needles keep giving me wicked bruises 😭
11 days ago
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had a nightmare i was trapped in a store with a t-rex and now i cant fall back asleep
11 days ago
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sometimes i think too hard and remember that the pandemic was truly a global fucking disaster and probably at least mildly traumatized most of us
12 days ago
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had a nap and two redbulls im wired for fuckin sound rn
13 days ago
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dude i've been thinking about this since i woke up yesterday. like wtf??? in my sleep, absolutely cannot breathe.
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14 days ago
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i had a dream yesterday about my ex-friend strangling me. what do you suppose that means?
14 days ago
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i hate this place so much bro get me out of this shithole
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16 days ago
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oh my god my fucking hometown is on the news
16 days ago
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taking hits if my vape to psych myself up lmao
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18 days ago
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