i want a perfect life

is there a way to overcome anemia and prevent it from developing into leukemia WITHOUT gaining weight? genuinely asking... i want to stay as skinny as i can

can you go back to sleep? so i can lie down near you again without you moving away

my feelings are stupid

will you love me more the day i die?

age regressors are disgusting (im only talking about myself)

i want to be babied all the time. not from anyone, only from you. i deeply hate myself for being this way.

i have anemia. my lab results gave me the diagnosis yesterday. who wants to pretend to be surprised? haha i dont know how to deal with it

My body heals wounds to well for my disordered brain. #shbsky

avoiding sh is becoming increasingly difficult lately

everytime you leave me sad i wish something really bad would happen to me.

you will be free, henry. that's good. even if i'll always remain trapped within myself, the rest will be so fulfilling.

so close to being free, to being happy, it's very hard to process. i can't even believe i'll actually be free, and just hours ago i cried about it. but they were tears of joy, so strange, yet so good. they were tears of an offered comfort that only my story and i could understand.

“T-T-TW!” For what? healed scars??? stfu and grow up bro it’s not that deep

all these ppl look unreal. everytjtinff feels so off. ii cant help but asking myself how would i feel if i kill them all. would i be able to feel anythinf at all Mn? evertjinf feels so off

i canegt breath

whatsswrong with me

am i not enough? oh fuck it, i lied, i'm still crying like a bitch. am i not worth it? am i not what you want? am i not that? do i not make you happy? do we not share the same things? im going cradzy. i can't take it anymore, ican't take it anymore, i cant take it anymore just make it sttop

my chest feels completely sunken in. i want to throw up and cry but i don't have anything inside me right now-

i'm doing absolutely everything i can to satisfy. and that's not what's consuming me, it's killing me not knowing what expectation i'm not meeting

can you please stop doubting?

i really don't get it. what do i need to be perfect? what's missing in me?

i had a nightmare about my worst ex. my boyfriend was mad at me, so i was all alone. i woke up with sticky eyes from all the tears i'd shed during the night. i feel disgusting. all the touch and words felt so real that im now overwhelmed.

is it better than me? is it better than me? is it better than me? is it better than me? is it better than me? is it better than me? is it better than me? is it better than me? is it better than me?

anyone else fucking try to distract themselves to avoid depresion

lovemy boyfriend. love my man so so muchh. he looked so cute drawing something i wanted just to fulfill my whim for a ship that i love.. ggghh<33

i need money because i want so body mods and those are EXPENSIVE.

i feel so ugly these days,,

my april fools joke is thinking ill actually lock in this month

i miss the old internet

if i see someone else making you happy, i'll kill them. that would mean danger, and i don't take risks. it wouldn't be fair for someone else to think they can do MY job.

i am everything you need

why is it so hard to fucking shower myself

i really dont feel like talking to absolutely anyone

don't say that, i'll get you out of there. please.

i wish i could make you happy

damn

jokes aside, i don't really have any raw feelings about that. i have a boyfriend, and he's all i need. i have all the time in the world to focus on him, study, and prepare myself to be a good husband.. and in trying not to kill myself, of course

hi im an ugly and dumb loser who has no friends!!! but i dont care!! because everyone is a piece of shit anyway and im an unbearable freak and and and..!!!...!!

gghuughh fuuck save me or drive me even crazier car seat headrest

what drugs can i take to make me enjoy this..?

sometimes i'm tempted to put out my cigarettes on my collarbones >.< if it looks sexy on the hips, it'll surely look so good up there too

hah if i were depressed, could i do this? *ghosts everyone*