I'm never sure what to put coz I'm sure I'm just too depressed to be interesting. If you're all sick of me I understand. Everyone leaves me

Had a longgggg sleep. But really weird fucking dreams

Had some food. Started watching a film with the Mrs. We both hate the tree before it's even slightly finished Lmfao. But s said we can just throw the tinsel and ornaments on coz it's just us and she's right. So I feel a little better about it

My appointment is on the 23rd. But I've only met her once before and had a grand total of 2 emails. I'm not going to say how I feel there's no point no help and no care. I've literally given up now.

I don't understand why I am so shitty this year even before Christmas. Irs normally after. And if I'm struggling so bad now how fucking bad will I get after?

Had a nap and a nightmare and now I feel even worse

I have take the tree out of the box and made a start but I'm too tired and depressed to carry on so I'm leaving it a little while. Meh. Fuck everything

Both s and I ended up too tired to even do soup and garlic bread. Chinese to the rescue

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I've been to town got the last of the things I needed. Thank fuck for that

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I hate being up too early. It already feels like bedtime ffs

I'm awake too fucking early again ffs

No tree up yet but I did manage to wrap some presents

I can't even bear to put the tree up yet. Someone fix me please

Well that was a short and painful sleep. Fantastic

I'm fucking exhausted. Going to have a nice bath and then to bed.

Am feeling slightly better than last night but extremely tired. Was awake a lot in the night

I'm a selfish evil non human

I absolutely hate myself

I truly believe everyone should hate me

I really wish I wasn't breathing at the moment. But I'm guessing everyone will say that feeling will pass. But when? I just feel so fucking flat

I'm so fucking tired and ouchy can't wait for the day to end

To no one's surprise after over working for 2 weeks I can barely walk and I'm in unbearable pain. Thanks piece of shit body

Whenever I feel like I don't deserve help or care please remind me how fucking shit tewv is please lol

NOT A MOMENT TOO SOON. Tees, Esk and Wear Valley mh trust have perpetrated some of the most abhorrent medical abuse and istr8genuc harm of my peers that I've encountered. They are notoriously negligent.

I think I'm probably going to feel like this forever and I don't want to

Oh you know I emailed chmt I literally got 2 replies and then absolutely nothing. So that was helpful. Honestly I'm giving up asking for help now. What will be will be

Tired tired. Too tired

I'm over working as a distraction but by fuck does it hurt. I think at this point I'm just fucking stupid

I know it's my own fault but I'm fucking exhausted

Hello everyone at #madskychat due to recent CFS flare and going on a light trail today in the early evening I won’t be able to host tonight. My apologies and I’ll see you all next week.

I feel very low today

Is it bedtime yet?

I'm definitely feeling better now. Thank you all for listening to me. I love you all. 😍

I'm sorry for talking too much. I should keep everything to myself

Instead of doing bad shit I've Instead taken a promethazine ok. Happy now? Grrrŕr

I don't need or deserve help do I. Its perfectly obvious

Ask for help, reach out etc etc. Yeah well fuck you we ain't gonna help you

I'm never going to get better am I? I'm not exactly getting any actual help ffs

New cpn did email today and replied after my reply and her huge help was to use the fucking skills. Yes thanks big help there. Appreciate it cheers

I do not feel good today. Does anyone want a broken brain free to good home

Had a bad night. 2 different horrible dreams about being hunted. I feel even more exhausted now

I'm sorry for complaining about being tired or in pain

New pain in left ankle started yesterday was hoping it was brief but alas still hurting today

Good Morning

Had a nap still tired. Ughhhh it never ends