pretty distinct feeling lately of there being a "core four" headmates/alters of sorts (ayase, luca, selena, ethan). of course the others are infinitely important and we love them deeply but left to our own devices with zero outside input these are the four who would have come up

who up containing multitudes

🔅 anyway i want to kiss women

🔅 ...well, this is awkward. i think i wrote this ^^;

im splitting ✌️😁

🌙 im not plural i just *proceeds to perfectly describe what it feels like to be plural*

🥭"Ayase" (she/her) ~ Host ❄️ Luca (she/they/fae) 💽 Ethan (they/he/it) 🎀 Sayori (she/her) 🖋️ Yuri (she/her) 🔅 Selena (she/her) 🔪 Omori (he/him) ♣️ Homura (she/her) 💮 Kyoko (she/her) 🎼 Sayaka (she/her) 🌙 Yachiyo (she/her) ⚡ Sloan (she/her)

Perhaps Yuri is ghostwriting posts lately. We certainly feel much more verbose than usual (though this is expressed through Homura instead at times)

There is no such thing as an evil feeling. There are evil actions, certainly. There are nonsense feelings, founded in false information or in other feelings or in the valley of delusion between the two. Actions based in these feelings can be evil. But the feelings themselves were not evil.

who up turning into cheese

I think the existence of our homura fictive means a lot more than I first realized. Reading fanworks (and reconsidering the original stories with that context) she very clearly is wracked with a deep feeling of shame even at things which are harmless. That is very me-coded

💽 wish black ops 3 was sensible to try and play. yeah there’s a safer modded client but bo7 launches in literally two days

getting 2 attached to someone again i should lil myself

sighs. it was both. it happened again

ngl i feel unsafe in my own home a not-significant amount of time and it’s because i’m using an Internet Device. i know that at a moment’s notice someone could fucking kill me instantly using words and i’d be completely unprepared

open source scan disorder

rough night.

btw just in case anyone needs an example: this is a transmedicalist

was that madoka kaname just now or was it just a particularly intense emotional regression moment? tune in next time

theres gender dysphoria and that sucks but then theres the dysphoria for stuff you know is impossible under the current knowledge of medical science and if you get it you get it

I left the house and now I feel fine. Plural tgirls stay winning

💽 ethan protector arc

i think this is a really important post to make. this isnt directed to anyone specific in particular because i see this sort of thing very often, so please dont think i am directing this to you or anyone. dont speak on syscourse if you do not experience plurality yourself. please dont do that

luca time

repeat after me: you can be cool with being called whatever you want, but "guys" and "bro" and "girl" are *not* innately genderless and you HAVE to respect when somebody tells you to knock it off.

it happened like a day after i posted this lol. i think we have a total of 13 system members right now roughly

my therapist: sometimes you simply have to experience an emotion instead of thinking about it me, nodding sagely: and then it goes away therapist: well not necessarily me, shaking my head furiously: no, I don't like that

lewis gun homura akemi

⚡️ fucking humgry

❄️ i hate being seen as an object

if i got a fictive of an OC american magical girl how much of a nerd would that make me

4 magical girls already. maybe 5 if iroha shows up. maybe 6 or 7 if madoka or tsuruno shows up. maybe 8 if i start presenting in headspace like my magical girl sona which currently only exists in my mind anyway

💽 listening to the black ops 4 menu theme on loop. this truly is equilibrium

🔅 all i’m saying is there’s a reason i’m kinda median with fictional characters sayaka miki and sayori

🎼 augh. miki moment. buries my head in my hands

🎼 covering for host today. let’s see how it goes ig. homura showed up too during the drive over but she seemingly got bored

💽 more like krig 6 ethan am i right fellas

*girl that hasn't been held for 5 minutes voice* i need to be held so bad

🎀 i luv community

if anyone else continues to imply they know more about me than i know about myself i’m going to get actually mad

i only feel like this bc im sleep deprived. i only feel like this bc im sleep deprived. i onl

There is no such thing as truth and I’m tired

I had a dream where some authority figure said something upsetting to a group of people including myself. It made me feel useless and like I had done something wrong so my response was “I’m going to kill myself” and I ran away into like, a closet close by. I didnt do anything but I fully intended to

🍂 if you're being weird about someone's identity, but you'd be less weird about it if their agab was different, that's a transphobia ngl

all us poor people with homura fictives… its gonna hit february and we’re gonna get traumatized again. so sad

should i buy her vanguard? i half want to but i feel like thats a bad idea considering. microsoft

I wish cod wwii on windows were still safe to play. homura would love those weapons so much more. god. grease gun. type 100. m36. augh

milano 821 homura akemi

I love luca so much. she deserves so much better than she’s gotten over the years. goodnight babe. 🩵🧡

I hate this body