The best part about the forecast atm is that it says there is 0% chance of precipitation in my precise location. No hail either ofc.

As a multiple expatriate, apps you need locked behind a specific country’s store. Jfc.

How I’ve been doing lately has been a mixed bag, but it’s nice to know that the art team hasn’t forgotten about me over at ye olde studio.

I’ve started reading This Is How You Lose the Time War and according to my reader’s stats the average reader finishes the book in 2 hours and no. How can you read something Like This as if you were glossing over it at a speed you would reserve for some meaningless article.

Nothing like being contacted by a recruiter for contract work in a discipline I haven’t worked in over 10 years, let alone role type.

I’m absolutely fine with taking a sabbatical but being in a space where I don’t know what I want to do next is scarier.

Bliss is when you sprawl yourself down to read dubiously low brow books on pillows on your balcony wearing pjs, a Korean cat ears hair band and the greenest spirulina face mask smeared over your face. I’ll bet the neighbours on the other side of the street are extra jealous too.

As someone who dedicated a few years to a famously long-and-still-not-out production, I can say with confidence that 95% of all takes I’ve read about it are wrong, so I’m taking this as template to estimate how right everyone is about other games productions.

I’ve started reading the gay hockey books series and the one thing that strikes me the most about it is how fucking Canadian it all is.

I really think we’ve reached a point where we need to redefine what failures are in the games industry.

People who do not make art themselves and who do not study tend to view realism as the ultimate goal of an artist, the peak of their craft. So, it makes total sense that they would think they had cracked what van Gogh just didn't have the skill to achieve. Art education matters.

That final Crimson Fleet mission was pretty cool. I’m not sure if it’s very different depending on which faction you end up siding with - I imagine it’s pretty mirrored. Anyway, I enjoyed betraying those filthy pirates 👍

What is it about lighting that makes people go brrrrrrr so much 🙃

And this is why photorealism can easily become a crutch and dead end. Having a vision for your game as a whole means making clear choices for how you light, or render, or build any visual language or identity for that matter. Those who get stuck on “realistic lenses” often lose sight of this.

Pulling my hair trying to make sense of Wordpress' site editor. I don't know whether it's broken, or if I'm simply not the target audience (someone with a human brain).

Thanks Stockholm for your 6 euro tiny cappuccinos you're the best don't change

The best part about earbuds is that they’re so small and portable! Even in their case - they are soooo easy to lose.

a lot of ppl don’t seem to realize that even making a bad game is a massive accomplishment

I miss making games with cool people who also like to make games.

I can think of some people in leadership positions I've worked with who not only disagree with this statement, but also love this type of technology. Maybe the Venn diagram is a circle.

The water is particularly brackish tonight, the faint smell of the sea is alluring. Jupiter and Venus hang on each side of the moon.

The lilacs are in full bloom. This is not a drill. The lilacs are blooming now. Go outside.

It me, systematically writing 3 pages CVs, incapable of producing shorter form anymore.

Notwithstanding looking like That Person in a coffeeshop, it turns out that it is in fact pretty nice and effective to sit in a coffeeshop with a MacBook and work on ~stuff.

I AM WEEPING “Most significantly, the Windows 11 taskbar can now be docked to any edge of your screen, including the left and right” YES to my left taskbar how I’ve missed you 😭

Conversation with a friend last night: Me: going to play Still Wakes the Deep next Friend: I thought… I thought you didn’t like horror? Me: oh… no??? Yep, totally missed the part about scary monsters chasing you when I bought it. Who wants to come over and couch play? I’ll make amazing food.

My current solves to short-circuiting anxiety and decision paralysis: Buddying: my best option is music right now, but human presence is better if you have it. Be impulsive: the moment the thought enters your mind just do it. Don’t think about the next steps. Start. You’re doing the best you can.

The rule of every day off: at 2pm the day is just beginning and time remains infinite, and at 3pm the day is basically over and nothing new is worth starting.

Lil bit of cloud iridescence to mark the end of the day.

Hey 3D nerds: question for you. Is it worth shelling out the (much higher price) of Quad Remesher for Blender/pc, or can I just get the Nomad Sculpt/iPad version and it’ll be fine?

Holy fucking shit yes👌✨😭

Finally hooked up my cd player to the Sonos (eh) system. Anyway. I can listen to my CDs again. Take that, streamers.

Imo the using-references-is-cheating discourse is just yet another manifestation of the pursuit of technical prowess for technical prowess’ sake. What kind of artist do you want to be - the kind that focuses what they love, or the kind that fixates on unsubstantial-git-gud priorities?

New gnarly turmeric anthotypes tests and yesterday’s result.

? There’s a high density of Dicourses present atm. Is it discourse week?

the only mass effect discourse worth having is how good the coop multiplayer shooter was

Hey babe, your Mass Effect discourse bores me.

Does the account spark joy or does the account partake in inflammatory discourse in: a pursuit for attention and/or pure rhetorical nonsense?

How do you know if you’re not enjoying something or are paralyzed from engaging because you 1. Actually don’t enjoy it 2. Have been so brainwashed into the pursuit of technical excellence that you can’t see through any other lens anymore

As per usual, I write the important bit as second post, just like I usually have to reverse the order of the initial sentences in emails I write. Go me.

I’ve been talking a little about how I feel it’s incredibly difficult to engage in creative/artistic activity atm. Clearly I’m doing creative things regardless - to me “art” and what makes art worthwhile is the experimentation, the journey, and not the result. But

PS turmeric turns into a very powerful ink when mixed with isopropyl alcohol* *trying to make anthotypes

you know what I think I’ll just go sit on the balcony, mope, and try to draw while cringing from atrophied skills and generalized moping, and mope a lil more

Decorating your apartment knowing you need to sell it in a few months is an oddly dissonant activity.

Still hopping into Starfield and this kinda sums up the experience.

Maybe sometimes we confuse what is hard with what is rare.

ffs abolish the nagging "hey are you still with me??" and "uuuh you OK??" NPC comments that highlight that I, a player, am not adequately interacting with the game (or not interacting, rather). Nah dude I just went to grab a piece of cheese in the fridge. Hope that's ok in your important NPC day.

I don’t usually do hot takes but here goes: The Fifth Element has aged incredibly poorly. Have you actually watched it recently? That’s it. Have a good day.

My second phone is now updated to liquid glass and thanks, I hate it. The primary phone will remain unspoiled for the foreseeable future.

The difference between management and leadership is vast. The game industry is drowning in the former, and desperately lacking in the latter.