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Looking back at my performance pictures is always deeply humbling.

I lost my job and I look bad on stage, so it is time for me to lock the fuck in and REALLY restrict at least until I get another job, or look halfway decent on stage.

#thinspo #bodygoals #⭐️vesky #lemonwatersky #caterpillersky

Back to restricting, this time with more exercise :- P hopefully I can drop some fat before my birthday. I went up a couple pounds but stayed within 5lbs of my weight when I stopped restricting last so that's not awful

Me when I'm totally normal and not relapsing at all

I haven't been properly tracking for the past couple days, I got to spend a few days w the guy I'm seeing, so I wanted to eat normally so as not to worry him or distract myself from his company with the typical thought spirals Abt restricting. But I'm back now

At a neurologist rn, kinda nervous but excited to figure out what's going on

A few months into restricting now, my stomach can't handle a full meal anymore so I have to eat small dainty meals :3 makes it so much easier

Starting to get used to my workout routines, I'm even seeing a little more muscle in my arms :3

Bc since I'm almost at 130 which was my first GW! The white is all indicators of identity so forgive the censoring lol

Down to 133! :- D hitting new low weights is a such a crazy high I was not expecting

I've been pretty comfortable at Abt 800, sometimes I go a little above but I'm still not even close to my tdee so I don't mind all too much. It's working out pretty well for me :3

Do you guys think bingeing is an inevitability? I eat more than I want sometimes but I've never binged or gone way over my tdee for the sake of eating, but I'm nervous that if I restrict too low I'm gonna

My coworker is eating Oreos rn and they're calling out to me like the green goblin mask

New low weight, we're so back

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I made tomato soup yesterday it's only like 80 cal for a serving :- 0 very yummy

wish i could stop feeling hungry forever

FINALLY ESCAPED 138 IM 137 NOW PLEASE GOD LET THIS PLATEU BE OVER

Despite being in quite a deficit, I have only lost ten pounds in at least two months which is. A little frustrating! Especially since I lost it almost all at once and haven't lost anything in weeks now

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But at least I have this stupid fucking disorder that's gonna kill me that I can rely on

I'm so frustrated!!! I got my period, my tattoo client waited till she was FIVE HOURS LATE to cancel so I wasted my whole morning waiting and preparing for her, I'm hungry and miserable, my government wants me dead and I have to somehow find enough money to move back to California. FUCK FUCK FUCK

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If I don't lose anything in the next couple days I'm going to give up entirely I cannot handle restricting and somehow maintaining at the same time it's torturous

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Alrighty! Three days I ate at tdee, back to restricting, hopefully this pushes me past this plateau! :- D

Third day eating tdee I go back to restricting tomorrow. Hoping this and exercising pushes me over this fucking plateau!

Thinking Abt raising my limit again. I'm still plateauing at 800 and it's causing a lack of motivation. I've been at approx 140lbs for weeks now.

Need to make a high vol meal plan cause if I don't eat high volume I binge I need to feel full. I'll take inventory of my fridge tomorrow and go from there. I also need to work out more often I didn't do it for several days in a row and I don't like that.

The food bank gave me zero cal soda!!!! Thank fucking God!!!!!

Valentine's is almost 3 weeks away and I'm already starting my boys gift. Trying to figure out what I'm gonna do for the wife, probably a nice dinner :3

Also my legs look so good here (on the right)

Shockingly did not gain after my binge last night, I got some brie from the food bank so I did eat the fuck outta that w some jelly and bread but that'll prob be omad.

Binged lol. Not counting the calories cause I would rather KMS

The state of the world is so overwhelming it makes me too nauseous to eat anything, so at least there's that.

Ok well I've eaten around 800 for a couple days and I'm STILL 140 LIKE A WEEK LATER I have been plateauing and I don't wanna do metab daysssss AUGHHH

All of my muscles hurt so so so bad and I think part of it is being back on testosterone (pain tolerance down) but the bigger part is obviously the Ed and I'm just so fucking SOREEE

I feel so weakkkk AUGHHH

Maybe 800 is a better limit, idk!! Being a system means everyone has different opinions on what to do IM SO LOST AUSGHSHAJS I'M V

Yeah, 500 cal worth of French fries can be an omad

Remember how I said I was gonna eat 1k? That was a lie that's too scary for me tee hee <3

I don't want to look sick but I'm starting to get that look in my face and body that I am, so I think I'm gonna raise my cal intake a bit, maybe like, hitting 1k instead of staying under it. Im gonna keep exercising as normal tho :- P

Doing tooth gems today hehehe

Mexican with ED negatives: our food is SO GOOD i cant fuckin resist Mexican with ED positives: baile folklorico burns so many calories i lowkey dont even have to worry abt it

Mmmmm I should stop eating but I'm still really hungry, I'm gonna eat a big portion of veggies and see if that helps. At least it won't up my calories too much.. #edsky