How could i be so immature to think he could replace the missing elements in me? How extremely lazy of me

Soooo turns out this life shit is in MY hands...

Steadily losing weight

When u open up to a carer in the psych clinic abt your ed and she start saying eat apples dont eat bananas theyre too high cal

THANKS YALL for saying happy bday

O yea it was my bday on 1312 im 22 now

Kill me meow ugh

Ya im losing weight again oh yea

My phone fell in the terlet with pee

I think im just born zo be a drunk bc its the only time i feel like myself. I hate life so much

Im soooo fucking drunk idk if im able of recovery from all my problems they are my warmest hug nobody uas ever given to me not my mom not dad nobody i feel warm. For the very first time again....

IM GOIN ON A NEW ANTIDEPRESSANT TOMORROW AND ONE OF THE SIDE EFFECTS IS ANOREXIA #WINNING #ROTTENBRAIN

Happy birthday richey edwards ❤️‍🩹 ..

Im gonna go to psychotherapy clinic for 3 months. Gonna try to eat 1000kcal a day then i might be able to lose 10kg

I AM IMMUNE TO EVERYTHING QUETIAPINE PRAZINE ALCOHOL I CANT SLEEP BRUH PLEASE LET ME SLEEP 🥲🥲🥲

Im back on my jhit baybeeee last hurrah before i go 3 months to psychotherapy clinic lol

In case yall gained Me too 😭

Mothers give youth we piss it away

This was just my second spring

Omg thank god its all negative 😭

I relapsed i had to do pee test just now i hope to god nothing shows up omg i mixed it with terlet water lol but i get out friday anyway

I lowkey cant handle the fact that my bf is the same height as me and skinnier i actually fucking hate it idk if ill get over it

Why do i lowkey not enjoy kissing my bf is it the antidepressants making me asexual or do i jst not like him enough

@skinnyparker.bsky.social HAPPY BIRTHDAY HERBY!! ❤️‍🩹

GAH DAMN THESE CENTER SHOCKS SOUR AS HELL😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

I started going gym in the ward and it feels rlly good 👍🏻🤞🏻

Relapsed on da weekend and wanted to use my clean pee so i put it in a condom and when i went to get it 2 days later it stank so hard i gagged and i didnt even have to take a piss test so i just threw the pee condom in the trash

I wanna drink so bad im so tired of my brain everything is boring

I miss gugu 😞

They not hearing me when i say i struggle with eating they just care abt my addiction so ill have to show them im sick on the outside so theyll believe im sick on the inside

Also i gained weight 💔💔💔 😭 fmlllll but oh well ed has to wait for me to get my life togetha again🥲🥲🥲

I used alc to kill time and destroy my awareness and reality and now its alive and stabbing me and i have to endure

They think i have borderline i cant believe this

Some Impressions 😂😂😂

How have yall been doin the last month ? ❤️‍🩹

I been drawing and crocheting and playing guitar a lot and eating regularly and sleeping regularly and socializing with ppl who understand its genuinely so healing 💋🤞🏻💖❤️‍🩹🥀 im being seen finally FINALLY

My time in da psych ward has been rlly good since the withdrawals stopped and im allowed to go outside now 😎🤞🏻🤞🏻 doing genuinely fine right meow

I missed yall 😭

Yall im alive but barely i tried to kms od & alc & bleeding out went to hospital now im in da psych ward since 2 weeks sorry for worrying yalll but im gonna try turn my life around i been sober since my attempt and i will stay sober but i got money issues lots of stuff goin awn xxxxxxxx

Just used my szicide note as an ashtray reddit

I wish i cud givemy healthyife to so.elne who wants toive but CANT and rellace kt with me and i wi die ,😭

Man i given up actually i try to give down again but i give up i cant im a lost cause and noone cares i hate everyone this time im really gona do it IM FAT AND UNLOVABLE im an alien im from a different world i dont belong here i want release

Sniff so much glu my nostril closed and cant get sober off alcohol lose all my love and will for life to hurt myself i use this knife to get pain out i must relief

I was at addiction counseling yesterday but i had to stop the sessions bc i realize i dont want to stop

Doctors telling 9year old me that im too fat is actually insanely menacing of people bc children are not gonna be likeo gotta eat healthily theyre just like i just wanna feel okay and thats eating. Parents and doctors shud talk together and TAKE RESPONSIBILITY!!! FUCKING PARENTS ARE LIKE U GOTTA

Do you have to show them youre broken on the inside by breaking yourself on the outside

I HATE LIVING @and being a human this is HORRIBLE this is unacceptable

C l i n i c a l l y o b e s e

Just quit me job at da zoo