me and @cybercrasherstv.bsky.social made a tape called "my butterfly's effect"! it has a story connected around two confused woman about themsevles and everything around them, mysterious stuff huh? it'll be ambient/idm/etc! i-miss-you-so-much.bandcamp.com/album/my-but... youtu.be/GcxqH0dEOsk?...

the good news is that i am learning to be more comfortable with the beautiful direct correlation between being unabashedly yourself and inevitably becoming somewhat off putting to ppl with closed hearts

Didn't realize I hadn't changed my bio here, it broke my heart

I wonder if these physicals will be with run for cover or not

saturday

Love is enough in this world, but you must maintain it

Oh wow, acloudyskye on bluesky near Shanghai and two guys showing pearly whites :D

All turq be doing is smoke weed, go outside, watch brainrot, listen to blue Japanese albums, be bisexual, hate gender, eat hot chip and ghost. AND SHE STILL DROPS CLASSICS, SHES THE GOAT

Never forget u are loved & appreciated, even in ur darkest moments. There is someone out there who misses u, that u've forgotten, and they will always hold u close 2 their heart. There is someone out there that loves you, that you can always count on. Let them know that they're appreciated as well

What’s MP REG?

Live to see them die. That is my goal for the next four years, and it should be yours. LIVE TO SEE THEM DIE.

Does heaven know your name? I hope your parents find hell to never know theirs

I love Mac Miller. Watching movies is my favorite album of his, and faces is my third favorite Balloonerism was made in between those, so I'm ultra excited Obviously I have normal posthumous album worries, but from what everyone who has heard it said, it's gonna be incredible and super weird :D :D

I've taken a break from actively working on music, I've become more of a music listener. I'm playing a game with a friend where we see which one of us can listen to more albums in a month. I'm sure I'm losing, but that's ok. It's given me a reason to listen more to music. It's been very fun, ngl :D

asked this about vai 5000, (& on twitter), ill ask this too. where is the best place to start with vylet pony? i've listened to cutiemarks and caroseal, and that's all. i will hear monarch, but i want to hear other's after for context, rock > dubstep in general, i'm leaning fish whisperer

Having an allosexual partner as an asexual person is bittersweet. cause on the one hand, its so affirming I am lovable enough to be worth sacrificing sex for. On the other hand, if my girlfriend wanted sex, and I said no, no one would blame her for leaving me to have it. So that's where I'm at rn

another life (2021)

It was my birthday two years ago, I was crying in my room on a cruise liner. Staff thought I was going to commit suicide, so they locked me in my room. I was struggling to stay calm, shaking & welling up. I played "when the ground gives way" by TURQUOISEDEATH, & felt at peace. Thank u Roi, endlessly

I love my gorgeous beautiful girlfriend, I will discuss her often on here. I love her beautiful black curls, her breathtaking voice, her perfect laugh. Her words brighten my day & fill me with hope, her art leaves me stunned and inspired, and her music is phenomenal. I am so lucky to be loved by her

I'm gonna yap on here, if that's ok with you all. I just feel like it's therapeutic to just let words flow from my mind to text without worries spilling into it. No outside worry of lost friends, depression, or pain. Unless it adds to something, leads to a substantial epiphany, I worry not and write

I think if I died today, my legacy would be that I was a depressed tranny that was sad all the time. I hate that. Deep down, I am weird and wholesome, and that's what I want to put out into the world. I've only really shown that to a handful of people, I want to show that to the world now

I'm so happy everyday I get to live my life with my friends. Beautiful people I can talk to, and admire as they live their lives. I'm so grateful they invited me into their life. That I get to spend what remains of my life with them is a treasure I will always cherish

I hate being mean, I don't want 2 be mean. I want 2 be curious again, & ask about things. When people discuss something I don't know, I want 2 ask them what it is. I used 2 do that! I stopped becuz I knew being in a conversation was fleeting & I didn't belong. I want to belong. I want to understand

In space, no one can hear you cry. And in the abyss, no one can see you but yourself reflected back in an ouroboros of pain and suffering not seen since Dorian comissioned portraits