deleterious effects! how wonderful!

its wild how exhausting words can be

finding out we have some odd anemia going on + low levels of multiple vitamins hoping it might explain some things

getting to live out a nurse-liness by taking sadistic pleasure in injecting my partner with hormones

ignore this

love screwdrivers that are oddly sharp, we have a few, good for the skin and pressing down just a bit harder easily breaks the tension

napping is great or causes a distinct sense of crisis and instability

we decided to sharply ramp our hrt dosages while switching to enanthate since helping someone try to use undecylate and so far its pretty great. but we were very much underdosing before.

we are weak and easily fall for illusions and it will be the end of us

why be here

Wow okay, with this opening I'm sold. Literally toothy lesbians.

Patsy decided this was a good place for a nap #petrats #rats

let's hold hands as we stare into the abyss

we could never actually do sexual sadism because whenever we've gotten the chance or demonstrated we feel a whisper of desire on the back of our head to just remove the person from existence and almost immediately we do more than we intended to. it's so satisfying but its not careful enough.

It you see this, post a witch! (Or two 👀)

being in our best moods makes us very dumb and forgetful but at least it's like,,, fixable usually

the "elbow gloves, thigh socks/boots, and nothing else" combo is at least 70% more naked than just being naked

the only time we feel it is in the lack of recognition, the cracking and creaking, experiencing the pressure break as the noise finds it's way into safer spaces

we go heavy back and forth on whatever the fuck it is we're trying to do with ourselves besides continue to survive it could maybe result in something if we had a few months to ourself

was going to just post the first thing in our gallery but it's currently both sides of our national id

wrote about being a boy, kinda funtype3.wordpress.com/2025/08/30/f...

less ideas and more execution for looking more gay

its not fun causing necessary but uncomfortable conflict at work

wdk how we manage to function at all

we feel like situations have just been absolutely awful recently, like making no one happy disappointing everyone and its all going to implode and nothing will be left.

really had at the whole thing, y'know, like, how does being alive even become normal

feel weirdly scared of things rn took meds too late, stayed up too late after taking meds

there isn't a contradiction between liking when the female protagonist of the litrpg light novel gets a white haired elf slave girl and hating when the male protagonist of a litrpg novel gets a white haired elf slave girl. honestly you should feel a little insulted that i have to explain this to you

we finished it, its very good actually

still cute though #rats #art

saturday

practising bdsm with the pre-hrt dolls or as I like to call it hitting the bricks

we were going to be cute and coy but we're too tired @cwonus.org is very hot,

we completely ruined our own mood and its dumb

our partner made this,

claude has decided we have (had?) severe dopaminergic dysfunction and a collapse of motivational salience networks needing intensive pharmacological support didn't expect claude to be so forward 🥺

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