It looks like we may have found a home to rent Not holding my breath I don’t think its a scam …the rapture could happen …sharks with fucking laser beams How we will ever afford it lord knows I have some super rare 1950s toys ending on Monday I expect to make a few thousand on but after that…

I always wanted to be Motorcycle Daddy I think I found my helmet! I love the tan interior 😂

I’ve come to a realization: It’s all me I was diagnosed as PTSD during the pandemic & yet I still fought the traumatic situation of my partner drinking himself to death Now add the last two years. It’s really hard to interact as I upset people by talking So I keep to myself

The last few days I’ve been trapped in a cPTSD episode after being scammed trying to rent a home The stress was so bad I wasn’t so sure I wasn’t having deeper health issues One lick… on the bridge of my nose… for the very first time The damn broke, I cried & felt better Amazing creatures ❤️

Someone once told me he didn't know how I could go motorbike touring around Europe on my own and he could never do that. My answer was really very simple, if I waited for someone to go with I'd never go.

The funny party about getting scammed just simply trying to rent a place to live I’m PTSD & just got fucked. That means I don’t trust to do again How’s that supposed to work here? Heh I know “bootstraps” that’s truly literally impossible for Neurotypicals to understand what PTSD does to you.

The egg breakfast and toast looked nice, after the 12 hour cage session. Usually don't see that followup aftercare.

We have been having such a rough go at it and looking down the barrel of moving it a few weeks and still don’t know where So I’m doing a small fundraiser. There’s only 10 sets in existence atm: AsylumPaws Custom Magnetic Locks & Proprietary Key 1st Run ebay.us/m/qs0oxc

I received a DM that they weren’t hardcore enough for me it’s funny how many people write themselves off due to this hardcore image. That usually results in me going home with nothing At this time it be nice to meet someone with the technical skills to close a restraint. lol & the want behind it

Agreed. I respect that not everyone wants to play with me, but by the same token I think you waive your right to tell me I’m being unsafe by doing so. You can’t have your cake and eat it. Solo play is the only way some of us get -any- play.

Someone said “self bondage is dangerous it’s killed people Agreed But why do you think they were doing dangerous things at that time? I respect lack of interest in me, but I just can’t shut off desires cause of such I’ve done that now for a year. Sure not a way I wish to continue to live 🤷‍♂️

After battling for a year to find play that didn’t require me to Dom, I’ve decided to stop Others pix kinda now make me sad I cant wait to move hopefully we find a place soon I have plans to build a padded cell bed. Self bondage of course I just really really need to be able to finally let go.

Thank god for ADHD Sure it’s annoying and I’m constantly losing shit that was just in my hand But in what other world does your doctor say “Here, have some amphetamines” *Cookie Monster gobbles his pills* lol 😏

I’m beyond exhausted. After i lost Jay, I lost my Dom, the person who directed me I’ve just been drowning treading water. Only to almost lose the savings because we tried to rent a home Trust I’m not even sure that I would be able to trust the bonds I’ve been craving so badly & let go anymore

I really need to find friends like this. You’d probably make me cry. lol 😏

Welp, mostly sure I spoke too soon on the house Things got scammy feeling. Red flags all over Thankfully I intervened before any money was sent I just sent the gentleman a long message with my thoughts. The ball is now in his court to reply. I don’t hold my breath 😢

Shhhh Super secret squirrel… My cub stayed home from work today. Why? Because we found a… *Looks both ways for a speeding train heading towards me* …house I am actually positive this shall fall through, cause to think anything else is asking for dashed hopes Wish us luck

A thought experiment I saw on the internet that got me thinking This guy drives around to mostly drive-through and offers the worker cash to quit. (Granted this is contextual to how much you make a year, but…) Would you quit your job immediately for $200,000 cash now?

lol, if you didn’t think I was crazy before, yesterday I purchased over 60 rare board games

So sad, so true 😂

Something weird is happening It’s becoming known I’m holding impossible to find/expensive games. Boardgame vaults are opening All this dopamine from the thrill of the hunt I feel like Indiana Jones Heh Oh, & BTW, I found the real 5 Kickstarter exclusive “Unstable Unicorns” cards Off to PSA 😏

The other day I posted about a down suit for sale on my local Facebook Marketplace. Here is that same suit, on my bed, getting ready to be shipped out to another down kinkster #KinkMiddleMan 😁

#ThriftStorePorn #BoardGamePorn I found a few unrealistic board games in the secondhand stores today The Lord of the rings game is still sealed in the shipping box and his number 525 out of 2000 in total I think I’ll keep that one for a while, lol 😏

You want to see something insane? My husband brought this to me the other day, he saved it from being thrown away. This box is 1 out of 10,000 made. Who knows how many are left TEST MARKET BOX 1/10,000 1985 NES Nintendo - Rob the Robot - BOX ONLY ebay.us/m/SySm99

FYI, down kinksters There’s a brand new per Pertex Himalayan, which is the old school shell, on the local Seattle Facebook marketplace at a good price if anyone’s interested I’d get it, but I move soon and money is needed for that

I’m at the point I just feel bad to want bondage, like I should know my place. I know I have playmates in other states, but none locally I feel incomplete to not have a playroom, like my use to others is gone Those pawing are all new to me & perhaps that’s for the best Life lessons were learned

Ok… hear me out, I have a kinky as shit scene idea… 😈

I don’t ask anyone for play anymore. I just ignore my needs & bury them deep The former friend that set up plans with me, only to ghost me instead, did more damage than I can say I was traumatized. For a year I asked & begged for comfort, yet none came Fairly clear message 🤷‍♂️

😂😂😂

An interesting situation is going on. A down boy is purring at and wiggling at me (grins I love down gear) He’s my type… like humorously so. He is the spitting image of two of my exes Heh “Hey baby, wanna become my future ex, love hard and fast, and hate my guts in a few years?” lol 😏

Actually, I lied Lol I just did a 180 & completely changed my mind Welcome to cPTSD 🤪 I’ve removed the plush from auction, since he didn’t sell & I’ve sent the original maker, from 10 yrs ago, a msg I asked about a facelift & all new options #FelinePrerogative #LicksPaw

#GearForSale #PlushSuitForSale I was asked since the plush didn’t sell, what will I do with him? He’s still a super comfy to be locked in. So he’s listed once more then I keep him Plush Suit Fursuit “Blue Ott Of Plushiness” Otter Back Zip ebay.us/m/5L7STF

Honestly you need to watch “Flow” It’s gorgeous and beyond wonderful. No humans, no speaking, not even any explanation to why the world is degraded, where the humans went or what caused the flood. Just simply a gorgeous movie 100% deserving of an academy award.

I snapped a picture of the producer a director of “Flow” @gintszilbalodis @MatissLV Thank you, gentleman for my new favorite film of the year. It was gorgeous & held you heart in its hands from beginning to end I’d love to pick your brain about the 3rd act, but no spoilers for others ❤️

My cub actually surprised me more than I realized. This is the world premiere of the symphonic version of this movie… and a new acoustic soundtrack THE ACADEMIC AWARD WINNING PRODUCER AND DIRECTOR OPENED THE SHOW!! *giddy wiggles* 👀

Let me show you something amazing… I know I’ve been sharing my hurt a lot recently. Please know I’m insanely loved (it’s why we haven’t had worse worries with my health) Tonight my cub took me to Fogo de chao (burp) …now we get to watch the movie “Flow” with a live symphony *wagz*

#GearForSale #PlushSuitForSale We were asked for additional pictures of the plush suit that ends tomorrow He is beyond super comfy to wear, like being locked inside a pillow pressing in from all sides: (Also made by Hindpaws) ebay.us/m/Fkjydh

To whoever wins Derpy. I don’t care where in the world the Derpster ends up. One day I get to visit him 30 minutes left ebay.us/m/oKyFnS ❤️

REMINDER Ending today: A Bondage Fursuit Named “Derpy” Backzip One Piece All Attached Fur Suit ebay.us/m/eGFAx0

Made my truck to our hoarders home with hopes of finding the holy Grail Monopoly I thought was there. Sadly, it wasn’t, however, I still came home with 16 shrink wrapped board games Lol, it’s a sickness 🤪 (also gonna be a huge profit) 😁

I love the category it's in: "Everything Else > Weird Stuff > Totally Bizarre" 😂

Want a lucrative side hustle? Board games. Takes a while to know what you are doing but there’s huge profits For example: In this picture is a $1000 game. Only 650 made I’m paying $20 Guarantee you no one will spot it (I’ve been doing this way too long) 🤪

#GearForSale #FursuitForSale Here comes “Left Shark” MaskUS “Left Shark” Mascot Costume Fursuit Shark Suit ebay.us/m/sjnHCI

Ich habe diese heute zufällig in einem Secondhandladen gefunden, sowohl aus dem Jahr 1976 als auch aus dem Jahr 1984. Da sie billig waren, habe ich sie mitgenommen. Ist der Verlag Otto Heinevetter ein bekannter Pädagoge in Deutschland?

I BUY BOARDGAMES WANTED: Board games, Warhammer, RPGs, Kickstarter editions, Board Game Expansions, Miniatures, Wargames, Vintage & Rare Please DM me if you have games that need to go before sending them to the Thriftstores Also, happy to find your games off your wish list

Had a thought this morning… After I part with my fursuits that probably means I won’t get to play in fursuit again A friend said I can just buy another when things get better Roflol Oh well, I have a ton of other gear.

THE FUNDRAISING KINK BLOG w/ Rubberasylum (FREE 7 Day Trial: onlyfans.com/rubberasylum) * * * * * * EP 01: “I’m selling my fursuits so here comes my onlyfans! LOL” My Fellow Inmates; Yesterday I posted Derpy, my Fursuit, for sale… (7 Day Trial: onlyfans.com/rubberasylum)

Furs keep offering condolences about selling my fursuits Sadly money is needed for our next move This is a fundraiser. Of course I’d prefer not to Please make sure they go for a decent price ebay.us/m/JQ7MYs Otherwise I lose them & still don’t have enough money. 🤷‍♂️