i dont want to leave my house, but maybe a little retail therapy will make me feel better. Later ya’ll.

Florida still experiencing cold fronts in May is crazy. This hurricane season is about to be ACTIVE as fuck!

I’m under so much pressure, and the new semester started and I am just trying to find the sheer will to exist and be ok with my family.

This is the most I have been stressed and anxious in a very long time. I just have to keep faith that the chest pain I feel is just vascular flare up due to stress which is a trigger for me. Also a deficiency in potassium. I swear. Every fucking time.

Another day where I have to take my anti anxiety meds.

I’m starting to feel better now that I’ve had some moments to myself, to look at the bigger picture decompose and come back to reality of things. It’s been an interesting process to say the least but I’m starting to feel more comfortable which was the goal.

Time goes fast when you’re relaxing.

I mean look at this view while I do work and I have the beach All to myself.

I’ve been at this river for over and hour and I want to stay all day, because gotdamn is this so relaxing.

I am trying my absolute hardest to calm down, take deep breaths, and just not think about what’s going on.

Euphoria is triggering the fuck out of me and I can no longer watch it.

I have a lot on my mind and plate. My body isn’t accustomed to dealing with so much stress anymore and I worry for my health.

No poem today. I feel awful.

In other news my ears are stretched to 24mm. I have one more to my second goal of 25mm

Anxiety is back.

May 3rd was the one year anniversary of my minor stroke. I am grateful it was minor and not major and didn’t cause any damage. Stress and anxiety can definitely be a killer.

It’s time to get SUPER high.

Why can't I be rich and help my friends and moots?! 😭😭😭😭

Oh, then you haven’t seen mine!

I had to veer off track and now I really don’t know where I am.

Life is one fucking hurdle after a-fucking-other.

The level of stress and anxiety I was dealing with was so heavy.

I love my anti anxiety meds. Poof*💨 just like that I am calm and relaxed.

@kiyannamonae.bsky.social happy birthday to such a beautiful soul on this timeline! Hope you have an amazing day!

My anxiety is on high today. I can literally feel my heart racing, I can’t stop bouncing my leg. It’s bad! Send help! It’s even giving me chest pain.

Men don’t want to admit that lying about their relationship status or their capacity for a relationship is sexual coercion because it would make them admit that majority of men are not good people!

The way I yearn for the soft touch of your fingertips on my silky smooth skin is impenetrable.

I had to make what I had work..

Day 2 of another poem by me:

A good idea for a poem came to me. Something I’ve been struggling with the past few days is being bound to my bed for mental and emotional reasons, when there is so much I need to do.

it’s your girls big day tomorrow!!!!!! 🥳 i turn 33 and i’m feeling blessed to see another year around the sun, if you all wanna send ya girl something sweet to help my birthday be even better, i’ll be forever grateful 🥹💕 my cash app: $kiyannamonaeee 💟✨

Someone yell at me to practice my guitar today..

In my feeling tonight, and feeling like writing it out.

How can you say you love your wife, but do absolutely nothing to make her life easier?

If I wrote a poem book, how many would purchase or be interested?

BITCHES SAY I’M UGLY THEY CAN KISS MY ASS!

Millennials really have seen so much.

The biggest betrayal doesn't come from your enemies..

Done with journaling for the night. Listening to music while hitting the weed pen and catching up on the timeline

I wrote a poem, and to understand its huge significance you have to know that I haven’t written ANYTHING for 12 years since I had to undergo Electro Convulsive Therapy. I was a phenomenal writer before that. A writer people enjoyed. Here is my first poem out of retirement.

Being able to look at and consider the bigger picture is a huge turn on.

A man that doesn’t have his priorities straight is not a man for me.

What the hell is a crush?

I just want school to be over so I can have my degree and do absolutely NOTHING with it cuz the job market is shit anyways.

Don’t tell me you wanna worship me and then not sacrifice your money to me.

dusting off my old witch craft supplies is bitter sweet.

I couldn’t find the oils to make a commanding oil and now I hope I don’t need it in my spell

My feet are so cold and now I know what my abuela talking about wearing socks around the house.

This is quite literally thee worst dollar tree I have ever been to

I need a spell to recieve money that is owed to me.