I NEED to get sknny again. I can't stand this w8 i need to be small again

Bc/ i just shaved for the first time in years, so take my legs

Bsk keeps signing me out and giving me a heart attack, thinking i got b4nned or something

I just want to be seen as sick and frail and suffering

First my dad makes a comment about someone uw who cant gain weight. Then my bestie starts counting his cals to me. Nightmare trigger day.

Idk about ZERO empathy thats a bit brutal. I wish i got a shade of green smh

Rel4pzed again today, i dont think i want to recov from sh rn. I have to abstain bc we're gonna go to the beach later (currents will be healed by then) but then i can do it whenever wherever. If i still want to then.

Nothing left to live for 😍 time to get worse!

Sk!nny September is going well !!

Im alive 👍 less sick now

Trying to be gentle to myself while im sick and eating 'normal', but its so hard and i feel like im such a faker bc im not ⭐ving. Im no where near as r3xic as other people and i feel like a failure

I got sick with some kind of cold and im really miserable but thank you everyone for being so kind to me here

Bye bye streak. It was a matter of when, not if

Made pasta w my mom

Lonch

Love and joy and passion are worthless to me. I dont receive it back to hardly any degree. It's pointless for me to seek happiness when all i find are deeper abysses of sadness. Im tired of this cyclic game

I despise feeling neglected, whether its imagined or not. Im supposed to feel loved and wanted by my partner not like second rate

Theyre the same bmi but shorter than me, same exact outfit, and they look sooooooo sk1nny in comparison IM TR1GGERED!!!

Not bnging not ⭐ving not eating normal. Secret fourth thing

I hate that i have the "idgaf ab anything enough to lock in" depression instead of the "forgets to eat/too sad to eat" depression

I want to cvt so badly 8 want to rel4pse do sbad

My dad was like "no ones ever been mean to you about your w8t, right? youve always been thin" War flashbacks to middle school. Yeah haha never (lie)

I did it! 🎉 I feel empty inside

Pray for me that i do not give into the urge to eat tn... I wanna finish td w my sub 900 intake

Plating my anä meals makes me feel like that one tt mom who was cutting up donuts n shi for her 1 yr old

I NEED to lose before october. Its a requirement not an option. I need to i need to i will i will

Sorry for being inactive i got a girlfriend hehe

Im so embarrassing, i need to just ⭐ve and put the fork down

Post-binge regrets

Not bnging not ⭐ving not eating normal. Secret fourth thing

So i did well for a bit then fell off a little but its ok i just need to relock in ☝️

i dont wanna jinx it but ive been on a really good ⭐ving streak for four days now 🎉 mayhaps the b1ng3 cycle is over

Being online just stresses me out about everything but i dont know anyone irl so i cant Not talk to people

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Just watched 4l!en st4gë and suä is lowkey anä core: training her whole life to be a pretty corpse. Relatable !!

I have to lose 15 lbs in ab 3 months. Which is completely rational and possible if i actually tried and stopped eating like. Atp its self sabotage

Dimmer

No way my mom made a fat joke (semi unintentionally but intent don't matter rn) it feels like the more she focuses on her own body/eating then I get criticised more for mine

My sister started some 75 soft shir and i have to restrain myself so hard from commenting on wl and discipline advice as if i havent been doing thos for months

My mom made some comment ab how much sugar i was eating today and that i must never have enough. Kllng mysel

Well this is a little awkward to have next to my toilet

😐 on my main ig? In front of my salad?

Cooked for 3 hrs tonight for my fam Lol im exhausted

Oh yeah lemme just eat 1000 cals of cookies. Smart . Why did i do that

Randomly poor mood for no reason

Help this post somehow reached two random normal middle aged women not on this subsky. They're prob thinking "who let this child on this damn website" 😭

Same-fooder choice award goes to..

Thinking ab semi recov hmm (i will wake up with the dis0rdrd thoughts again)

I wanna be pretty