If i appear to be smiling... it's a new phase in my life that is actually making sense for a change. When you come to terms with yourself, mind, sexuality, taking life on my terms for a change. This health reset has been the best for me.

Today Is the first day I don't feel like I'm screaming on the inside. The release of energy last night thru the first tears ive cried since my wife passed away was so much. Medication to hide grief only goes so far. My cold look was more for me than anyone else. After 8.5 years I was ready.

I think the universe was waiting for me to come out. Lol people are talking to me again. Weird.....

Dementia Donnie fell asleep againnn. Are we just gonna keep pretending this is normal?

Why am I always barking up the wrong damn tree?

Starting to really enjoy Chatgpt for AI art.

I LOVE fallout. This AI pic of a south dakota vault dweller looks amazing.

Finally trying out ChatGPT. Creating pictures blew me away.

Why does it feel like I'm just wasting my fking time trying to date at this stage in life. It feels like I'm fking rejected at every opportunity. Even the "soft" rejections. And don't tell me "you just haven't found the right one yet." Bitch please its been 8 years. Don't give me that answer.

Yes I have unhealed trauma. I have issues feeling inadequate. I feel angry because everyone else can do the things I only dream of. I feel so held back. I feel inferior.

Another night of ozzy Playlists. His music hitting home tonight.

I really don't see how women support Trump and MAGA.

I think RFK is clearly showing how incompetent he is to be in charge of the health department. There are things he's doing i agree with like the dyes and additives, but on vaccines and illness he's gotta go.

So yeah I've figured it out... its me. I'm my own worst enemy when it comes to women. Just my presence just tells the other gender to ignore me or never respond. Its why dating is a joke in 2025.

I really hate being triggered by the stupidest thing.

When are women going to stop their attitudes towards men?

Is there a reason life has to be this fuckin cruel to me. I mean seriously. I'm pretty much accepting I've run out of time. I'm done believing in anything.

It also covers two-thirds of all nursing home stays.

Come on congress let's see the epstien files. Get this over with...

Why is TikTok algorithm think I need to see right wing religion videos??? Cause... I dont.

What the hell am I doing wrong?!

Listening to Eminem while drifting off to sleep. Good vibes.

I'm so messed up. Don't tell me I'm such a good man. But yet people think all these women are going to come by and take me up or that I'm such a good man but yet cheat and dump me. How tf does that even work?! It's not fair. I'm tired of watching everyone else be married and be happy. Fuck you.

where does internet come from? the answer may surprise you

Thought for the day…

She told everyone many times

It is what it is. I do not give a fuck.

Can I once talk to a woman that doesn't immediately get it sexual?! Id love to at least meet a woman that's actually into getting to know me and vice versa. Can the universe allow this?

Why does my mind wanna beat me up so much? The emotions I feel right now are getting too much. I miss my late wife now more than ever.

What we learned yesterday. The Times They Are a-Changin'

I'm free. Finally free from her. She is finally gone from my life. I was cheated on, blindsided by it. I've been hurt. Been on the breakdown.

You know what's fucked up? Finding out you've been cheated on hard from other sources and Facebook. The betrayal is deep. It sucks. And women wonder why men give up. I don't trust any more.

Who did this? 😂

Love the new nickname for the president. It's fitting.

Its my fault how I learned how to interact with a woman. Im guilty of being the guy who goes crazy when one gives me any attention. Im guilty for wanting a long lasting marriage with children of my own. 2025 isn't the place in history where a guy can honestly do so.

I'm done. I have had it with women and relationships. Its nothing to me any more. I'm done trying. The last true love I had died 7 years ago. She was my everything, fucking cancer took her from me. This latest relationship was a joke.

Love how Republicans say, "our children will pay the price" like bro us children have been paying the price for decades.

I hate being white some days.

And there goes TikTok going into full Right Wing mode. Fuck that. I have better things to do with my day.

Why does every republican I meet always want to school me on politics every single time? I don't even mention politics anywhere?!