really don't want to go to the funeral tomorrow

doing nanoblock has been a great anxiety reducer while i'm grieving but i have run out...but here's OyaJitchi, a Manzai Comedian, Umeda Sky Tower, and Tentacool

the good news is that i've lost so much weight my dress clothes don't fit me, like, at all anymore? i can't wear these pants at all lmao the bad news is that i haven't seen my family in 3 years and i'll be going to a funeral in exercise shorts and a t-shirt, and i will be judged for it lmao

Very important news everyone

what if i made a 5x5 of my favorite sitcoms

it's been one week

it's been a week since the last time i saw my dad. tomorrow will be a week since he passed. still struggling. still doesn't feel real. i get upset at the most random things. i still see something and think 'oh I should tell my dad when I call him.' it sucks. i miss him.

i keep breaking out crying this morning idgi i mean i do but ;;

thinking about the guy who made 260 wikipedia edits about Gundam while on the clock. 🫡

it's so fucking cold now that i cna't sleep at night, i had to throw out my good comforter over the summer and it blows

i still use gamefaqs as a first resort for some games tbh

I am not fucking joking when I say the English-speaking video game world would be nothing without GameFAQs. Everyone and their mom used it (literally, my mom and all her friends). If you played video games in the 2000s you probably knew GameFAQs in the same way most people know, like, Wikipedia

Big day for people who care about other people

it's so hard to figure out what i want to do or why i want to do i'm just sort of here

in case you were wondering what it looks like when @jabby.bsky.social and I talk to each other, I'm delighted to report it is either a) exactly what you thought or b) nothing at all like what you thought, zero in between

today feels gross and fake

Hey.

I got the phone call earlier; he passed away in his sleep in the afternoon. Thank you for everything, Papa Rune!! You taught me so much and spent so much time with me. You were my movie buddy, you volunteered for EVERY field trip, you knew so much trivia. I love you and I already miss you.

an update: my dad is like...gone. there's almost nothing left. he can't respond. i can see in his eyes that he knows i'm there, but he just sleeps and convulses from time to time. it's horrible. i watched this happen to my grandmother. i don't want to remember my dad this way.

despite everything else going on, happy first birthday to my beautiful cat Mia! also called "missy mia," "lovebug," and "hey girl you're being a lot right now," she was adopted one year ago today! She's grown so much and she's so sweet, one of the last gifts my dad was able to get for me ;;

Bug bites #ApothecaryDiaries #薬屋のひとりごと #shimao

Forgot to post the Halloween fit; she was too busy serving adventurers at the local tavern. 💚🍂

i'm supposed to go see my dad today but i can't sleep. my brother was always more popular than me, so my dad would spend extra time hanging out with me, right? if my brother was at a sleepover, he'd let me sleep in his bed, or he'd take me out to mcdonald's because i'd cry because lonely.

Lmao I just realized it's 10/31 in Persona 3 and irl. I'm spending my Halloween...on Halloween in Tartarus.

spent most of today wishing I was carving a pumpkin like I used to always do with my dad. I hate pumpkin guts so even in college and as an adult I would make him clean the pumpkin for me first. I haven't done it for a few years...I bet he would have loved to do that this year, but (crying thumbs up)

“some people abuse SNAP” your soul is rotten

me singing to my cat starry night~ gonna kiss~ your belly~ gonna hold you down~ and give~ raspberry~

I'M CRYING

Halloween…

when it gets late, my chest gets tight and all I can think about is how awful all of this is. i feel so alone and i can barely take it. but there's nothing i can do about it.

i'm going to throw up while crying😭

well geez, that's not great for me

A new journey awaits! Or perhaps you're reminiscing already? C: #pokemonlegendsZA #pokemon #fanart

what if i broke down crying and spent two hours trying to find a CD my dad liked, a CD he let me listen to once and I said I liked it, a CD I only remember one name of in the title lmao what if my mom doesn't let me have any of his stuff

I'm mad about it. If there was a person who I could blame for his cancer, I would hit them. But there isn't. I'm so fucking angry. None of this is fair.

i need help paying my internet bill and getting groceries and cat food, my dad is so far gone he can't. really. help me with anything at all. i'll try to get up a post of some video game stuff i can sell, but if anyone can help me, please reach out or here's my ko-fi: ko-fi.com/blinkingrune

i feel like i'm losing my mind. my father has flaws, but he's still the most important person in my life and i learned so much from him. and he's just. dying. he's not going to be there for all the little things anymore. everything is going to get harder and i'll be so much lonelier

I have questions for puffs

trying (and failing) not to think about the receptionist who said "I hope he feels better soon!" when I told her that my dad was in hospice like. same, girl. i wish he felt better! so wise. but lmao.

imagine the switch 2 having three mascot racing games and the worst one being mario kart

There have been so many theme park deaths in the last month, what the fuck

i feel like today is the day when it's finally started to feel too hard.

Luigi’s Mansion will be added to Nintendo Classics on Switch 2 for Nintendo Switch Online + Expansion Pack members on October 30

microburu got her hands on coffee and now she's too fast

the way the anime actually said "under the sea" and "under the she" in English 😭 i love gintama