i had honestly never thought until recently about how a fundamental design element for a lot of mid-to-late 90s games was things hardware scaling let you do. both the neo geo and the saturn used it for stuff like the zooming in soukyuugurentai

incidentally the stage 3 boss of soukyuugurentai is a really cute example of how to do interesting "approximately realistically styled machine design" to me... Donryuu here is halfway between really silly and somewhat rote. the sculpted eyes are so video-game but w/o them itd be just an odd machine

something i actually really like about sokyugurentai is that while it's not super direct about it, it goes out of its way to lean into being essentially a territorial squabble between two batshit space colony pmcs. in stage 3 you launch from the most imposing mothership plane ever lol

i was talking with foto the other day about how shmups always have batshit crazy plots where all of humanity dies or something and i think fundamentally it's b/c the genre is mostly traditionally about war. which somewhat limits its target vicinity unless you get metaphorical with it

earnest confession: all my theoryposting today came from, unironically, talking with em about riverdale

anyway i guess what i feel ultimately optimistic about to some degree is the realization that it really is possible for even the person doing the worst to not be doing that bad in a healthy society. is it realistically possible with humans on this earth? not sure. but it shouldn't be impossible...

historically much of rulership: that is to say — protecting the system where you as a ruler remain in charge — goes back to maintenance of a "middle class". without one, you have a visibly authoritarian state that's blunt about its violence, and such societies are very unstable

actually it's pretty much exactly the same as understanding that sometimes just because something is the law doesn't mean it's just, right. lol

oh one last: spent a long time trying to figure out what i meant yesterday about regression to a better time. what i mean is: when things are bad ppl who were promised things they won't get are vocally mad. but critically, what you were promised isn't what actually matters for justice

gotta go to lunch bye

Sorry if I'm ever really annoying about market pressures and polish etc. I just think it's good to remember that we all need to identify exactly the point where we're deciding between our own judgment and more generalized external thought. The dividing line is always up to you and what you wanna do

perhaps the ancients too understood the curse of being on that damn phone

alright i think i know why it is that i dislike the temptation angle but i like the point nonetheless. temptation is like, "vice" perspective, it's a "virtue" to not be tempted and a "sin" to succumb. but i prefer the blunt shameless angle that's more "was that time investment worth it for you?"

wait holy fucking shit you know all those like ancient religious / moral stories about guys trying to mystify you with illusions or something that make it impossible for you to seek the truth like buddha being tempted by mara and shit is that about like. the world's key jingling all the time

newton actually invented alchemy for real but he lost all the data because his dog wanted to keep its secrets for himself btw

i have to go get the alchemist tree now. there are some things where i see them and think, ok yeah if i was a learned student in the middle ages and some guy showed me this i really would think we were on our way to uncovering the powers of the spirits that could alter gender and manifest life

oh my gosh

now imagining a slot machine that produces random plot contrivances called the slop machine

your gift is mortality

I'm really really scared of this thing still. Why is Technetium in there. How did you do that. Why did you do that

the element accursed by the laws of this world

no i know what people always say about rpgs but trust me this one's different, it's actually about the characters

what the fuck. why do you have it. you bastard

this week's rpg sketch "Sbybol" - plays with rpg trope of "starting town" - made in one day - you can play it in your browser, even on your phone - it is possible to beat - this one's easy 👍 tunditur-unda.itch.io/rpg26

i can always count on fearsome fangs friday to cheer me up. BITE EVERYONE

fearsome fangs friday

ok one more set of posts actualy abt smth i was doing earlier i forgot because i hadn't played reflex again until a few days ago. but not only do i like alacran's final phase in general, i'd also completely forgotten in this phase it's doing a bunch of references to scorpio from reflex

ok i think ive calmed down. not sure if i can do anything in particular this afternoon but we'll stop posting at least.

i think of it like an antimatter particle that annihilates on contact with money but looks exactly like normal money at first so you put it in your pocket and the 5$ and the negative 5$ disappear

also my coworker is in the er again :pensive:

it's simply that weird variant of the doldrums where you've found stability so long as nothing goes wrong, but it's a miserable sort of stability where you're not really able to thrive. you want to solve your problems but you're in exactly the wrong mindset and stuff gets in the way.

well at least 79 tabs is stll in the vague range of lower than when i started my tab closing quest a while back

also i relapsed on stupid behavior pretty bad this month so i keep losing 5 hour slices of my day to complete fucking bullshit after i get home and feeling like a goddamn idiot

ok tbh probably 80% of the problems in my life go back to "i cannot get myself to sleep on time at night, i don't get tired at night, and the time i get most tired is when i'm at someone else's beck and call in the middle of the day and can't commit to anything fun or useful"

something i am pondering about adhd/exec dysfunction(?) is the psychological load of an actual action strongly influences how much i do it or how much i need to get over the hill and start it. which is the cause of endless tabs etc. it's easy to accrue pointers hard to run subroutines

realizing retroactively that this sounds like vague beef but i was just thinking a lot about griffith that day

Happy belated pride month to the bisexuals

blast from the past

The homing lasers in Alltynex Second are sort of weird because they set off the part of your brain reserved for Taito Lasers but they're actually more of a dispersed-aim-laser web. The main way you die is just forgetting that they're lingering straight lines from their new position.

I finally got a full Practice Run of Stage 5! Alltynex is fun b/c eventually you figure out a safe speedkill and it's kind of satisfying how aggressively you can play it. It spent the whole game trying to keep you from getting here because it knew you could do this, after all.

going to the alternate reality where max yt video length is still 10-15 minutes

wait WAIT THAT EXPLAINS A LOT WHAT THE FUCK THIS IS CRAZY

forgot about these awesome pictures from 2020 when someone saw a bobcat climb a cactus to get away from a mountain lion and just hang out there for about 6 hours or so and then climb back down to leave

ok i fFINALLY got trough the dmeshi bonus comics adventurer's guide complete edition there was so much in there. incredible

the thing about not actually remembering hairstyle or what someone's wearing has me realizing i wonder if the shapeshifter is like a "draw character from memory" joke

jesus

this is reminding me of the way smt iv's revival works which i always find funny