I’m a complete and total failure of a person, just a burden. I’m too scared to apply for jobs because I heard no so many times. I cry and have panic attacks constantly. I’m so lost and everything feels so completely hopeless. I have no idea what to do.

“It seems to me that if you or I must choose between two courses of thought or action, we should remember our dying and try so to live that our death brings no pleasure to the world.” East of Eden, John Steinbeck

We don’t have power right now because it turns out there are some utility companies that do “maintenance” to prevent issues before they happen. Who’s have think it?

Rebecca Heineman doesn't have much time left. If you can, please donate for her and her family to make end of life arrangements. One last kindness we can offer for a legend of the games industry and loud and proud trans woman: www.gofundme.com/f/help-rebec...

Rebecca Heineman @burgerbecky.bsky.social needs to be transfered by helicopter to a medical center where they can better treat her cancer, which means her gofundme needs $20k more. please give to support this trans game dev elder if you can!

I wince every time I hear something along the lines of "it turned out pretty good". I'd swear I don't remember noticing this as much in the past.

Most of the time I feel like nothing but an annoyance and a waste of space.

There’s a joke in *The Princess and the Frog* that is so niche I can’t believe they included it. When Tiana and Naveen meet Ray, Naveen tells him they are from a place far from this world and Ray’s response is “Go to bed! Y’all from Shreveport??” MJ is this joke in human form.

It is way too early in the day to try and explain Peronism to anyone.

something has to give before everything finally breaks. People aren't supposed to feel this way, it eats away at you too much. I'm so tired of feeling like a failure wasting my time and that'll I'll never be happy with who I am.

It’s always going to be weird to see people at the store that I’ve known my entire life (or even people I’m related to) and they look me dead in the eyes and there isn’t the slightest hint of recognition.

Good morning! We know you have been waiting for an update, but we have some unfortunate news. An immediate family member was diagnosed with cancer and it has turned our world upside down. We will eventually get through this and focus on development again. Thank you so much for your support.

These actors can’t participate without approving of her actions no matter what they say in public or how impossibly ignorant they might claim to be.

Kinda wish we could have more than one conversation about anything. Bioshock Infinite, for example, has a lot more going on than its terrible “both sides are bad” centrist racism. But that’s kind of been the final word on the game for years and idk. Lot of stuff happening there!

Some photos from over the weekend.

“I have very very strong Frank Gehry opinions. Namely that he sucks.”

‘Dopamine simply doesn’t work like that’: an interview with a user experience researcher: aftermath.site/video-games-us...

A key point in Fahrenheit 451 is that books were banned because they made people depressed and uncomfortable. The novel's protagonist, Montag, is taken into custody after he reads a poem that makes a woman cry because she realizes the emptiness of her life.

this was good www.dissentmagazine.org/online_artic...

Today is the first day in living memory that checking social media improved my mood

Even the mods of a pro-AI subreddit tell me they are having to ban an uptick of unwell users who think ChatGPT is letting them talk to god, or turning them into a god, etc www.404media.co/pro-ai-subre...

Not every bit of storytelling is a damn puzzle box to be solved. Not everything needs to fit into some stupid interconnected web of intrigue. Sometimes things just happen and sometimes people just die. There is no reason, no explanation, it just is.

I didn't expect to be angry at the mathematical concept of zero today, and yet here we are.

PICK ANOTHER ONE

With more game sites shuttering you bet your ass the reactionary YouTubers who do no research and have little to no moral standard will flood the internet with more shit so, we are cooked chat.

I found a fantastic use for spinning hard drives in 2025. I needed to glue the sole back onto a pair of boots, so I used a 2TB HDD as weight.

Let the past die. Kill it, if you have to.

I feel monumentally guilty for how angry (rightfully so) Canadians are right now. It also hurts far more than I would have expected to see the number of comments condemning Americans as a whole. Not that I blame them, just that it came to this.

Just saying Napoleon came back and the whole world lined up to beat his ass and exiled him to an even smaller island I like history

This morning's bedhead encourages you to read Dr. King's Letter From A Birmingham Jail.

“Let us rise up tonight with a greater readiness. Let us stand with a greater determination. And let us move on in these powerful days, these days of challenge to make America what it ought to be. We have an opportunity to make America a better nation.” MLK Jr. in his final speech

(because some of y'all don't want to believe this and won't click the article, i will www.bbc.com/news/technol...

ok i'm over this. tiktok is NOT some liberal safe haven. it is not the great progressive hope people seem to think it is, folks just have short memories. here's a reminder: www.bbc.com/news/technol...

It’s the deep breath before the plunge.

I love when trying to talk to someone but they’re watching TV or something on their phone (because they’re always doing that) and they give you the most bored “can you just shut up so I can go back to my shitty crime drama” look. Makes you feel real wanted.

*bored noises*

“With no need for a beginning, nor any reason to end, the music continues. And so, no matter who you are, where you came from, what sins you have committed or hurt you have endured when you are alone and there is no universe left to remember you. You can always, always rewrite your song.” Ryka Aoki

I got my very first passport in the mail today and it is very very good vibes to finally have an official ID with the correct gender marker. I’ve kept looking at it all afternoon.

Really starting to think everyone just has me on mute.

*yawns* well well well

You know the old joke about puberty and getting hair in weird places? What they don’t tell you is that if you call a do over on it you have to put up with getting hair in weird places all over again. My room is covered in long brown hair and it also constantly gets wrapped around food somehow.

The fog on the Blue Ridge Parkway was incredibly thick. It felt like there was no world other than the car and 20ft in any direction.

Not super low but could be worse.