I would simply like to stop being traumatized by my own body over and over and over

Another attempt at taking care of myself, another finish line ripped away from me just as I’m approaching it.

Today is pre-admission testing day for my surgery on Friday and holy god shit just got REAL!!!

Woke up from a dead sleep and immediately felt like I was going to cry and throw up. It’s going to be a good week, huh?

When a phone at the doctor’s office has the same ringtone as your work phone…

Sometimes love looks like your man helping you get your ring off your finger with dental floss at 1:30 AM because some bozo fell asleep on the couch with it on (It’s me; I’m some bozo. 😭)

New @megainfinity.band song out today! This one is a vibey, hook oriented pop/ska song and it’s very special to us. Second single from LP2! Thanks @emilywilliamsss.bsky.social , @ya-grrrl-bex.bsky.social and @darkmaterials.bsky.social for lending their talents to this one 🎷🎹 Li.sten.to/mihc

Get yourself coworkers who say “that shit is like replacing ICs and MOSFETs” to ease your mind about your bisalp surgery

Who has a pair of Hot Mulligan tickets for Brooklyn that they’re trying to get rid of? 👀

Tour was fun! Fest was great! Bleeding quarter sized blood clots all weekend sucked! But 11/21 I get to say “bye bye bisalp” and also hopefully get some answers as to why my body wants to k*ll me! I also got a row to myself on the plane this morning! Yay!

Operation “Don’t Let Aunt Flo Ruin My Favorite Weekend Of the Year” is already off to an abysmal start. If I’m not fully up for socializing this weekend please don’t take it personally, I’m just trying to make sure I don’t pass out 😭🫶🏻

New tour achievement unlocked: eat an entire pint of ice cream in the van on your long drive to the next hotel ✅

Night 1 of tour: we stopped at a Taco Bell that not only didn’t call out my order when it was done but they also gave me beef on EVERYTHING. I’ve been vegetarian since 2018 so RIP my intestines, my bandmates’ noses, and this van’s interior I guess 🫠

My favorite part about touring is how, when I have moments to myself, I get to reflect on how much I deserve this. Call it cocky, but only if you don’t know how hard I worked to get here.

It feels so good to be back in NOLA 😭😭😭

LPT: have a candy dish out on your workstation at all times, which seemingly results in less cranky coworkers. 💥

“You don’t look so good today” Thanks I don’t feel gr8 either

I guess what I meant to say here instead of sounding privileged is that the trolls will continue to be out in full force- their minds can’t/won’t be changed. Take care of yourself & your community rather than engaging. It’s never worth it.

I don’t know who needs the reminder but spending any amount of mental energy on people who want you dead is exactly what they want. They want to be mental-freeloaders. Don’t let them. Live your life, love your life.

If you don't want people to celebrate when you die, you should try not being a complete asshole while you're alive

Good news y’all, I may have found what made me ugly!

How it started: How it’s going:

Oops! I bought hot pink Duluth overalls and now I’m a cute lil garden goblin!

“Why do I feel absolutely miserable?” “Oh.”

BJs sells twin-packs of Impossible ground which means I will be making meatless meatballs ALLLLLL damn fall and winter

TIL that you don’t actually have to refrigerate balsamic glaze. Huh. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

“What do you mean my speaker isn’t done being fixed yet?” Says an old man who walked into the warehouse after dropping off his speaker exactly a month ago when we quoted him 5 weeks for repair AND told him we’d reach out to him with a repair estimate…

Can my body just like… stop deciding that I’m allergic to my own hormones???

Local summer, day 1: there was no traffic at my exit off the interstate on my way home from work. 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

LPT: if you’re not trying to give the gift of ~*stuff*~ to your partner, give them an annual membership to a local science center for their birthday so you can go on cool little dates to see cool shit as much as you want in a year. Plus, it supports actual science & not corporate slop.

What being in a band with me is like:

My job is stressful BUT Every Friday we get bagels (some Fridays we get fresh Amish donuts), we celebrate every single person’s birthday with cake on or close to their birthday, and today we get a Summer Friday™️ Losing my SaaS job was the best thing to happen to me this year.

Anyone else having a string of bad and weird dreams lately? My notes app is popping off this week.

I had a really wacky dream last night that shook me to my core, and I still haven’t shaken it off (it’s 10 PM) Time to write a song about it for the Bex experimental EP I guess 😬

Hello, my name is

Listen, I’m just gonna say it… Duluth Trading bib overalls > Carhartt

Homeownership? You mean having to replace suspension rods in your washing machine AGAIN when you just did that last year????

Bex Luck? You mean forgetting that there was a boil water advisory issued for your neighborhood before you went to bed, forgetting about it when you woke up, and going about your morning (including rinsing off produce for your salad lunch) as usual?

I think I’ve seen enough ska infighting to last me a good 5 years. Just be good to each other, y’all. It’s not that difficult.

Me currently:

The fun part about getting stranded on tour in the middle of nowhere Texas is that, whenever anyone mentions it, your first instinct is to reminisce on the good/bad/ugly.

TIL I don’t like broccoli rabe. Overrated ass weedy vegetable 🙄

Being a customer service baddie really is about accepting that you’re a human pincushion while also going on an absolute k*lling with kindness spree even when it’s hard, tbh

“Thank you for calling ____, this is Becky speaking. How can I help you?” “Hi Buc-ee how you doin?” Happy Monday 🦫

I made more money bartending this weekend than I did in 2 days of working at my last job, so let this be encouragement to all my other fellow discouraged corporate frontliners that there is a better/more fulfilling world out there 😘

The protein bar-strategy? You mean making something so rich & sweet in all the wrong ways that you’re too repulsed to eat anything for the next 3 hours?

Another day, another canceled crust punk. The more things change, the more they stay the same.

I mean absolutely no disrespect to all of the Italian restaurants near work when I say this, but holy moly I am so over Italian food & QuickChek 🫩

MOTHERSHIP. Streaming everywhere now! Recorded in our living rooms and bedrooms by Kerley. Video by our friend Jeff Van Gerwen.

It’s New Docs Day™️ can I get a hell yeah